Too fucking bad. You are living in a delusion of your choosing. Do not wake up to the real world. You must be on a Government program for income.
https://www.audible.com/pd/Animal-F...fZVr32HX8qlSlTzqxT9cOTI_trWcmtW0gwIjhZtIN5q2o
Also. I hope if you have children they end up being earth living anarchist hippies!