Just my thoughts as the Anniversary of my StepFathers Death Nears

[FullyMeltedDome]

.Most of what i wanted to share is below.Thank you to anyone that read this and thought about how MJ can really give someone a better quality of life,more than an Opiate could,and not get them addicted through there last days on Earth.Med MJ is a straight miracle!!

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

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[supermanlives]

did i miss something?

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

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[DoobieDuck]

FMD I'm sorry for your loss.
Edited.. be well my friend. DD

 

[Mrs.Babba]

I know how you are feeling DWW, I miss my mom and dad alot, they are in my thoughts everyday. Its good to have memories of your loved ones that are no longer here.

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

Its OK,i ended up posting a bit of what i wanted to share anyways.Thank You DD for looking out,im grateful.Peace and Stay Safe,DancesWithWeed.

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

I know how you are feeling DWW, I miss my mom and dad alot, they are in my thoughts everyday. Its good to have memories of your loved ones that are no longer here.

Thank you Mrs B,it is sad sometimes ,sorry about your parents,it does come back every once in awhile and gets you thinking.Thank you again for your thoughts.I was trying to share a story about when he was at his sickest and how i was Happy i found this place in 04 and how MJ helped him get through his last days.

 

[Dawn Patrol]

All good I'm sure FMD, Doobieduck was just pointing out the standards. I don't think his intent was calling you out. You have to remember how many trolls this place attracts some times, it's probably more than a full time job keeping the knuckleheads from causing trouble, and honestly when I saw your first two posts, my immediate thought was "What is this troll up to?".

I can relate to your dilemma, I've often found it difficult to put the loss of loved ones into words that adequately express your feelings without relaying too much info or just being a total wreck about it.

Best wishes to you, it's good to know that these forums and the kind herb made your life and your stepfather's life a little better.

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

All good I'm sure FMD, Doobieduck was just pointing out the standards. I don't think his intent was calling you out. You have to remember how many trolls this place attracts some times, it's probably more than a full time job keeping the knuckleheads from causing trouble, and honestly when I saw your first two posts, my immediate thought was "What is this troll up to?".

I can relate to your dilemma, I've often found it difficult to put the loss of loved ones into words that adequately express your feelings without relaying too much info or just being a total wreck about it.

Best wishes to you, it's good to know that these forums and the kind herb made your life and your stepfather's life a little better.

Thanks Bro,i thought it was a real good story i put up,but afterwards i kinda thought twice.But man,ive been a member since March '04, besides the forced break the Feds made me take and have thousands of posts n never trolled or spammed but i should have known to maybe go to a MOD and ask to have the thread deleted, but i wasnt really thinking when i tryed to delete them myself, but yeah it was my bad.Peace and Stay Safe,DancesWithWeed

 

[BiG H3rB Tr3E]

not sure what ive missed but ive had 3 life time friends die within the last 6 months. one of them overdosed on oxy at my house the day after he got out of rehab. a girl i used to date in high school passed away after a long fight with cancer and i was in a car accident with my boy where we were hit 6 times flipped over the center divider on the freeway and rolled over a few times. i managed to pull him out and he was hit by a car shortly after and died right in front of me. the impact was so intense that it knocked all his clothes off except his underwear. it knocked off his socks, shoes, shirt, pants... i never even thought that was possible. it was the only time i actually went into shock. i remember running over to his body and thinking he was unconscious. he had no bruises. no blood nothing. it was almost like he got knocked out. i remember looking into his eyes as they were wide open with that blank lifeless stare and even though i knew he was gone.. my brain just wouldnt accept it. i blacked out and woke up in jail. i later was told that i was shaking his body screaming at him to wake up and one of the officers pulled me away from his body and put me in hand cuffs and said that as soon as he did i smashed my head into his face and broke his nose and fractured his jaw. to this day i dont remember any of it. i saw the truck that him in the police report. the truck was going so fast that it looked like the driver hit a fucking tree. completely caved the front of the truck and windshield,, ive had friends stabbed and shot and it still never effected me like that night... i still got chunks of asphault and glass stuck in my arm from the accident. wont have it removed until my ink is ready. going to get a memorial tattoo for all 3 of them. lost 9 friends since high school. ive seen friends get killed. held them as they bled to death. ive never understood death. even though ive lost alot of people around me it just never registers. its like if i called them right now they would still pick up the phone. life is too short. always live it to the fullest or youll live nothing but a life of regrets. stay up FMD. id like to say it gets easier - but i dont think it really does at least it doesnt for me. its always just a few thought process away from the top and always seems to make the climb. keep your chin up and your lungs full and never hold a grudge with those close. i did and never got to squash it before they died. one of the biggest mistakes of my life -BhT

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

not sure what ive missed but ive had 3 life time friends die within the last 6 months. one of them overdosed on oxy at my house the day after he got out of rehab. a girl i used to date in high school passed away after a long fight with cancer and i was in a car accident with my boy where we were hit 6 times flipped over the center divider on the freeway and rolled over a few times. i managed to pull him out and he was hit by a car shortly after and died right in front of me. the impact was so intense that it knocked all his clothes off except his underwear. it was the only time i actually went into shock. i remember running over to his body and thinking he was unconscious. he had no bruises. no blood nothing. it was almost like he got knocked out. and even though i knew he was gone.. my brain just wouldnt accept it. i blacked out and woke up in jail. i later was told that i was shaking his body screaming at him to wake up and one of the officers pulled me away and put me in hand cuffs and said that i smashed my forehead into his nose and broke the officers nose. to this day i dont remember any of it. ive had friends stabbed and shot and it still never effected me like that night... i still got chunks of asphault and glass stuck in my arm from the accident. wont have it removed until my ink is ready. going to get a memorial tattoo for all 3 of them. lost 9 friends since high school. ive seen friends get killed. held them as they bled to death. ive never understood death. even though ive lost alot of people around me it just never registers. its like if i called them right now they would still pick up the phone. life is too short. always live it to the fullest or youll live nothing but a life of regrets. stay up FMD. id like to say it gets easier - but i dont think it really does at least it doesnt for me. its always just a few thought process away from the top and always seems to make the climb. keep your chin up and your lungs full. -BhT

Thanks Bro.I know im not the only one,and i feel for everyone.Its a hard thing to get over i tell ya,but i dont have to tell you or most anyone here its happened to us all at one time or another..It sux to think about.I wanted to share.It was basicaly me sayin,,,,, how my stepfather thought he had a cold or the Flu one day and went to the Doctors and was told he had Luekemia.And two weeks after being told he died just like that.He never did drugs of any kind and knew i grew.He was in constant pain and the perscribed meds werent helping at all.So i suggested he try some Med grade MJ and he was weary
at first.I rolled him up a joint of BOGs BoggleGum and he took two hits and instantly smiled and said wow,i can feel it all the way down my legs right now.I rolled him a couple BG doobs and SourBubble too, and it worked great he said and it made me so happy to know he was getting a little relief even if just for a moment.After a couple days he couldnt stand to smoke so i was making him brownies with kif from ECSD ande BoggleGum.A few days later he passed,but it made me appreciate how Med MJ is a real medicine and how thankful i was to Gypsy and DG for this site.And also Breeders like Bog,Chimera,Rez,DJ,Shanti and many more that are making strains that help people.I remember when the people from the Hospice showed up to collect any unused Meds that my StepFather was using.When they seen how much of the liquid Morphine was left,they were like how come theres so much.I told them how he tryed MJ for his pain and how well it worked for him and they looked at me like i was some kind of peice of sh%t.I just wanted to share how this place helped me help my StepFather in his worst days and im Happy For that.Anyone that says Med MJ is a scam is a straight idiot.No other Man should ever have the power over another Man telling him he cant help himself get rid of severe pain however he chooses.So i ended up sharing anyways i guess,lol.Thanks for listening.Peace and Stay Safe,DancesWithWeed.

 

[BiG H3rB Tr3E]

Thanks Bro.I know im not the only one,and i feel for everyone.Its a hard thing to get over i tell ya,but i dont have to tell you or most anyone here its happened to us all at one time or another..It sux to think about.I wanted to share.It was basicaly me sayin,,,,, how my stepfather thought he had a cold or the Flu one day and went to the Doctors and was told he had Luekemia.And two weeks after being told he died just like that.He never did drugs of any kind and knew i grew.He was in constant pain and the perscribed meds werent helping at all.So i suggested he try some Med grade MJ and he was weary
at first.I rolled him up a joint of BOGs BoggleGum and he took two hits and instantly smiled and said wow,i can feel it all the way down my legs right now.I rolled him a couple BG doobs and SourBubble too, and it worked great he said and it made me so happy to know he was getting a little relief even if just for a moment.After a couple days he couldnt stand to smoke so i was making him brownies with kif from ECSD ande BoggleGum.A few days later he passed,but it made me appreciate how Med MJ is a real medicine and how thankful i was to Gypsy and DG for this site.And also Breeders like Bog,Rez,DJ,Shanti and many more that are making strains that help people.I remember when the people from the Hospice showed up to collect any unused Meds that my StepFather was using.When they seen how much of the liquid Morphine was left,they were like how come theres so much.I told them how he tryed MJ for his pain and how well it worked for him and they looked at me like i was some kind of peice of sh%t.I just wanted to share how this place helped me help my StepFather in his worst days and im Happy For that.Anyone that says Med MJ is a scam is a straight idiot.No other Man should ever have the power over another Man telling him he cant help himself get rid of severe pain however he chooses.So i ended up sharing anyways i guess,lol.Thanks for listening.Peace and Stay Safe,DancesWithWeed.

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i love to hear things like that. i work alot with patients and even though i dont give a shit when people blantly snub their nose as a patient --- it makes all the difference when i get to meet someone whos life is hugely improved by mj... because its the reason i do what i do. after watching someone real close to me slowly wither away and helping them find relief if only a small amount for only a short time...just to make their life a little better in such a hard and painful time makes it all worth it

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

Thank You DD.

 

[paladin420]

A year for my mom.....^^^^^ sorry guys just out of words....

 

[supermanlives]

energy cannot be distroyed only converted. he is waiting on the other side. best wishes. and yes marijuana helps the sick. had a patient die not long ago. his wife let me know that my weed made his last days bearable and he even managed a smile and laugh or 2.

 

[FullyMeltedDome]

I think it will be awhile until everyone will be able to get a script for Med MJ or Sativex,Marinol etc etc etc,until these older fuddy duddys get out of office.These older Polititions that have been there forever and are set in there ways will never ever change there Minds on the Evil of everything as they see it in there biased minds.So until they pass,or are voted out or get just too damn old to be in Office anymore,i dont see things changing on a wide scale for years to come,and thats sad.To me,its so great how some States have those in power to say,screw the Feds,we want to help our people.But some States are just so backwards that they will never try anything but what theyve been doing for ever.Thats why im proud to be a member here and was able to help my StepFather and after that ive helped others knowing first hand the miracle pain helping propertys of MJ..Even the ones in Office now in most States that believe in such things, will never even attempt to rock the boat until the Majority stil in power that refuse to move ahead with the times are gone.So sad for the Sick and dying,that there well being is in the hands of people that either straight dont care or are so clueless and have no understanding as to the suffering they could be helping with.Someday with people like us here, that care and will and do always work towards this goal ,will the future finnally have a chance to move Forward be bright and rescue those that need it imo.Sorry just another little rant as i think of those that have died and suffered unessacarely like some of my family and friends in life and here.,(sorry about my spelling)Peace and Stay Safe,DancesWithWeed

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[DoobieDuck]

FMD you and SML both make a good point on how cannabis can help so many. I don't understand in a caring society like ours how an effective treatment like this can be denounced by some just because of the old stigma that it was shrouded in. Yes times are changing as the generations evolve, but it still hurts to see people suffer needlessly when they have no acsess to it. FMD have a good day today..DD

 

[paladin420]

FMD you and SML both make a good point on how cannabis can help so many. I don't understand in a caring society like ours how an effective treatment like this can be denounced by some just because of the old stigma that it was shrouded in. Yes times are changing as the generations evolve, but it still hurts to see people suffer needlessly when they have no acsess to it. FMD have a good day today..DD

The stigma is such that my mother would not even drink a cannabis lemonade.. Did not want pot in her autopsy... Was already Gettin all the morphine it took to kill herself..I hav since witnessed the good that can be done with our plant...this is why I am going to DC next year...pal

 

[Dawn Patrol]

I watched my favorite Aunt pass from a brain tumor and none of the family elders would consider cannabis to combat her pain and discomfort from the radiation and chemo and I was roundly disparaged for suggesting it. My mother underwent chemo and radiation for cancer and that was when I revealed to her that I smoke MJ and that it could help her.

She was more concerned that MJ would turn me into "an addict" than she was interested in the potential relief that MJ could provide for her suffering, and she suffered greatly. Although she survived, the treatment was equal to the disease in it's damage to her and I believe many of her present day issues derive from her chemo and radiation cure.

Most of the generation born in the 30's and 40's still believe that the government leads us and if the government says MJ is bad and illegal, that is what they will believe.

I could go on an on but I will not hijack FMD's thread any further.

DWW, I hope you find some measure of peace and understanding my Brother, for as much as these are times of great technological advancement and enlightenment, they are equally some of the darkest times for the understanding and compassionate treatment of the human soul.