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MrsEvlme2
If that's PTSD I have it. I have every one of those. Seriously, my heart started racing as I was reading them.
I guess my flashbacks are what numbed me. The usual thing girls go through. Don't even want to type them out. But, you know what many little girls go through and never tell. That went on for a few years. I started drinking when I was 8. Was blacking out by 10. Found pot at 12 and never drank to forget again. I think pot saved me in that way.
Then, of course 9-11. I was in Queens at the time, but had a lot of family and friends that work down there. It didn't really affect me too bad when it first happened, of course I was devastated but not as bad as other people I knew. But my anxiety over it has gotten worse. Whenever I hear a plane that's just a little too loud it makes me irrationally nervous. And then of course the media. But despite all that I was still able to fall in love and give all my heart and trust to one person. But, circumstances have changed that for almost a year now. I've been getting a lot of flashbacks. I feel my emotions slipping away. I'd rather feel depressed than to feel this nothingness.
I guess my flashbacks are what numbed me. The usual thing girls go through. Don't even want to type them out. But, you know what many little girls go through and never tell. That went on for a few years. I started drinking when I was 8. Was blacking out by 10. Found pot at 12 and never drank to forget again. I think pot saved me in that way.
Then, of course 9-11. I was in Queens at the time, but had a lot of family and friends that work down there. It didn't really affect me too bad when it first happened, of course I was devastated but not as bad as other people I knew. But my anxiety over it has gotten worse. Whenever I hear a plane that's just a little too loud it makes me irrationally nervous. And then of course the media. But despite all that I was still able to fall in love and give all my heart and trust to one person. But, circumstances have changed that for almost a year now. I've been getting a lot of flashbacks. I feel my emotions slipping away. I'd rather feel depressed than to feel this nothingness.
