I think a lot of anxious and depressive behavior stems from our "dual identities". The conflict between who we think we are as individuals, and who we think we are supposed to be from a sociologic viewpoint. And the fact that sometimes, and maybe a lot of the times we don't often measure up to what we think, others think, a "good" or "successful" human should be. That being said...
modern pharmaceutical antidepressants are serotonin antagonist's, similar to the way LSD works on the brain, they plug the re-uptake receptors on the neurons there by temporarily increasing the amount of free serotonin within the synapse. In fact it was LSD trials that led to the discovery of brain/behavioral chemistry in the first place
but the brain adapts by reducing the amount of serotonin produced there by needing more medication which leads to an increase of side effects and can include hallucinations and delusional thoughts etc., like LSD.
^^ and another problem with the current drugs is they have a short period of effectiveness followed by relapse into depression. So while on the medication they may feel happy, but when it begins to wear off before their brain can produce more serotonin; since we know they don't produce serotonin at normal levels, an already fragile individual is left without a good balance of neurotransmitters and falls back into a possibly even deeper depression
NOTE: that, I in no way suggest someone with severe depression or anxiety go and attempt to treat themselves with entheogen's... instead i suggest one looks into this field of research. Where scientists are looking into how these substances work on the brain in order to hopefully engineer better anti depressant drugs based on these molecules, much like the former LSD trials and modern anti depressants. Though i believe the natural substance will likely always be better than a patent medicine because the natural substance serves a natural purpose where the "medicine" serves shareholder profit
^^Though I do think that at the very least these substances do help one properly quantify and apportion the roles of their "dual identities." to help one to understand the importance of being an individual while also understanding and maintaining their part in the collective whole.
DMT and psilocybin on the other hand are serotonin agonist's meaning they act directly on the receptor site by mimicking the serotonin molecule there by increasing one sense of happiness and enjoyment.
the brain reacts to the increased presence of these tryptamine molecules by increasing serotonin receptor sites there by increasing ones tolerance and minimizing the substances psychedelic properties (like we see in cannabis tolerance). and since these molecules, DMT and psilocybin, are non toxic and facilitate an increased tolerance their doses can be incrementally increased without much of an increase to the risk of side effects.
members of the UDV church in brazil, including some teenagers, drink Ayahuasca tea containing DMT twice a month. And they report very low incidences of dysfunctional family life, depression, drug and alcohol abuse.
peace,
Infi
I've dealt with untreated anxiety most of my life, only way to truly get rid of it is to find out what is causing it, confront it and get it the hell out of your life.
I get seasonal depression but I feel to a certain extent happiness, sadness, angery, fear, are all part of life and never went for the meds because they make people turned off. Most anti depressant users I know are still the most depressed people and seem to have more severe mood swings.
Get some sun, it will make you feel better.
Let your plants fully ripen or they will trigger your anxiety no matter what your variety.
Oh and one last thing, if your depression is moderately severe and you have thoughts "like I wish I were dead" go talk to a psychiatrist and a counselor. The right medication plus talk therapy is the quickest way out of that dark hole. Remember though psychiatric medications in my opinion are a lot easier to get on than they are to get off.
I'd like to offer some simple advice to anyone suffering from depression, rarely is it brought on by a single problem but usually by an accumulation of issues over time.
Finally you may feel the pressure from what seems to be every aspect of your life, you've probably let all of these problems become a monster that seems unbeatable. Nobody can slay a dragon.
Pick apart those issues and try to resolve them one at a time, start w/the easiest of them first, with the resolution of each issue you'll feel a sense of relief and accomplishment allowing you to move forward in life.
I do. It's more anxiety than depression, but lately it's been both. And it's been horrible.
I started having troubles in my early 20's after a prolonged period of difficulty and significant loss. I've been on pretty much every pill they make for depression and anxiety, but I haven't had much luck. They turn me into a tin man, and I still have the panic attacks. The pills take the depression away, but they take all of the joy out of life too. A few years back, I had an anxiety/panic attack that lasted for months. I thought I was going crazy. Since then, I've found that it comes and goes in cycles. A few months of utter dispair, followed by times of bearable anxiety where I can get on with my life. Drinking seems to agrivate the situation, so I gave that up a while back.
I've found a lot of relief by smoking pot, it's worked better than any of the pills that I've taken and it allows me to focus less on the negatives things in life. It lets me live in the moment, so I don't need to constantly relive the times that give me pain.
Unfortunately, with my latest attack, I've found that I've developed a sensitivity to pot that I haven't had before. Normally, I'd smoke about a gram a day, with no negative side effects. Now, I can't even take a hit without aggravating my anxiety in a horrible way. It's very frustrating!
It's like night and day. Has anyone ever experienced this sudden reversal of canna-relief? A month ago I could enjoy as much as I wanted, several times a day, and now I can't even have my night cap without pulling a whitey! WTF!!!