en-lighten-ment
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Please don't feel shameful. I think I can say that we have all been there. I know I used to be a real fucked up person. Twelve years ago my mom died of ovarian cancer. At the same time my "friends" introduced me to crack coke cane. I then proceeded to spend the next five years of my life trying to subconsciously commit suicide. One day at the end of that time I realized that if I kept down that path I would defiantly die. at that time I was smoking crack every day. The next day I cashed my last check bought a greyhound ticket and with basically the clothes on my back traveled halfway across the country to show up at my dads door to ask him if I could stay with him. During the next five years I did o.k. relapsed a few times but still continued to drink quit a bit. During the last six or so months of that time I was dating a full blown alcoholic I drank myself to the point where I was sick of drinking. One day I woke up and didn't want to drink any more so I stopped cold turkey we broke up shortly after that, and I quit smoking cigs. I started out on two patches a day. oh I guess I should tell you that I stopped smoking weed during the time that I was smoking crack. So at this point I was completely sober I am telling you man shit happened so fast it was sick. like a less then a month latter I met my wife, and we fell in love so fast. two years latter we got married and moved to the west cost it is now two years after that and man I am soooo Happy. I Know with out a dought that my Wife is my soul mate for this life time.
so the moral of the story is that it is completely possible to go from the gutter to true happiness in a very very short time considering the span of things and you should not give up.
I just recently decided to try and treat my depression with canna and let me tell you after all this time I was still having nightmares and day dreams about smoking crack, and then when I did my first dose of canna they completely vanished along with my depression. I monitor my canna use very closely and use it very sparingly to treat my depression.
so the moral of the story is that it is completely possible to go from the gutter to true happiness in a very very short time considering the span of things and you should not give up.
I just recently decided to try and treat my depression with canna and let me tell you after all this time I was still having nightmares and day dreams about smoking crack, and then when I did my first dose of canna they completely vanished along with my depression. I monitor my canna use very closely and use it very sparingly to treat my depression.
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