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    #31
    Originally posted by H G Griffin View Post
    I'll be following along and looking to learn.
    After a lifetime of assuming I'm mentally healthy, I've begun to realize that I have a few screws that need tightening. While I am fortunate not to suffer to the extent many of you do, I've come to realize there is a bipolar aspect to me. I also believe I have some degree of PTSD due to the work I did for decades.

    Now, since the pandemic, I have concerns about signs of agoraphobia.

    I'm not worried about an impending break or anything like that, but I'm hoping to pick up a coping tool or two. Just knowing I'm not the only one dealing with this shit is comforting to a degree as well.

    Wishing good health to all of you.
    Imagine if you will........not wanting to go outside ...... and when doing so always scoping rooftops or alleyways....never ever fuken sit in the middle of a public place esp restaurants... always grab a wall that faces the entrance. Constantly eying civilian pop hoping one is "froggy" hagi..

    .
    .pushing everyone who cares away because being a psychotic asshole sure beats dealing with internal pain and the guilt of being alive when better men aren't..........having a commraderie that was bonded closer then my blood family ........I miss it.
    Society is an interesting television show eh?

    Keep on keeping on folks
    I eat legos

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      #32
      Originally posted by Sunshineinabag View Post
      Imagine if you will........not wanting to go outside ...... and when doing so always scoping rooftops or alleyways....never ever fuken sit in the middle of a public place esp restaurants... always grab a wall that faces the entrance. Constantly eying civilian pop hoping one is "froggy" hagi..

      .
      .pushing everyone who cares away because being a psychotic asshole sure beats dealing with internal pain and the guilt of being alive when better men aren't..........having a commraderie that was bonded closer then my blood family ........I miss it.
      Society is an interesting television show eh?

      Keep on keeping on folks
      Ever since a civic New Years Eve celebration where I noticed the various police sniper teams on rooftops surrounding the celebration, for "our safety", I avoid crowds even more than before. Louis L'amour westerns had already taught me to sit with my back to the wall by the time I was 10. My life that followed reinforced that behaviour.

      As for guilt about who gets to live, or suffer, or die, or get rich, I gave that shit up long ago. What has happened has happened and will not change. Looking for some mythical karmic justice will drive you insane, because it doesn't exist.

      Assholes can become rich and famous, good people can suffer horribly. Every living thing eventually becomes something else's food.

      While some find that depressing, I find it incredibly liberating. I owe no allegiance to any "greater purpose", so I am free to craft my own life as I choose.

      I hope you are able to find your own path to well-being.

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        #33
        Originally posted by Sunshineinabag View Post
        I guess my biggest advice is explore things that encourage laughter and happiness if you go heroic. Your rational seems sound to me.....may the force be with you jedi
        Shroms clinics AFAIC treat what your stated ails you. e.g the Drs, folks running the place chose x, y, z.
        Harlequin & Acapulco Gold manifold grow
        https://www.icmag.com/ic/album.php?albumid=81581

        “The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience,
        but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”


        May the fleas of a thousand camels infest
        the crotch of the person who screws up your day and,
        may their arms be too short to scratch.

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          #34
          Originally posted by Sunshineinabag View Post
          Imagine if you will........not wanting to go outside ...... and when doing so always scoping rooftops or alleyways....never ever fuken sit in the middle of a public place esp restaurants... always grab a wall that faces the entrance. Constantly eying civilian pop hoping one is "froggy" hagi..

          .
          .pushing everyone who cares away because being a psychotic asshole sure beats dealing with internal pain and the guilt of being alive when better men aren't..........having a commraderie that was bonded closer then my blood family ........I miss it.
          Society is an interesting television show eh?

          Keep on keeping on folks
          Shit! I'm on a bad acid trip! LOL
          Harlequin & Acapulco Gold manifold grow
          https://www.icmag.com/ic/album.php?albumid=81581

          “The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience,
          but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”


          May the fleas of a thousand camels infest
          the crotch of the person who screws up your day and,
          may their arms be too short to scratch.

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            #35
            Originally posted by przcvctm View Post
            I appreciate your effort to create this forum, Slim. I'll be following in hopes others who suffer as I do can share what helps.

            I suffer as a result of an abusive father when young, and smelling, hearing and seeing things that no one should have to as an adult. Life's been a horror show in too many ways.

            For me small stress (worry) leads to big stress. Fight or flight stress. When stressed I can't think. I avoid stress at all costs. Very insignificant things can trigger the stress cycle. Stress wears into depression. Nothing is interesting. Nothing to look forward to. I wake and try to break up the day into manageable parts to get back to sleep again and not feel. Thank god I don't have the nightmares I should.

            Since this is a pot board, I'm mostly interested in genetics that calm and uplift. I realize there's a lot more to treating PTSD than just findng that one special plant that feels like the opposite of daily symptoms. But that would be enough for me.
            I like Indica leaning strains for the whole body relaxation and soothing feeling. Also edibles are soothing and relaxing.

            Pot has a way of reducing dreams, and I bet nightmares are also affected.

            Stress is a killer. There are various kinds of stress, none good IMO. I am going through a different kind right now, releasing a different chemical, which I can feel. The threat and the fight back reaction puts out something different than adrenalin. Maybe Testosterone. Pot doesn't help it.

            A friend has PTSD from the wars in the ME - 100% disabled. Pot helps him a lot, but he has real reactions to sudden loud noises, such as me slapping half of the grinder on the rolling tray to clear the grindings - sounds like a shot. He also has a very hard time controlling the reaction I am going through right now.

            I certainly would not wanna trip on anything but a clear happy head, and a nice day. Tripping with this reaction I have going on would be negative.
            Last edited by flylowgethigh; 10-30-2020, 23:08.
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            https://youtu.be/x0BinEFCp38?t=74

            https://youtu.be/NUmIO_MG5IU?t=87

            Things just chug long when those microbes are happy........scrappy

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              #36
              Thanks for making this thread Slim Pickens.
              Last edited by Bean Sprout; 10-31-2020, 04:11.

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                #37
                Originally posted by Bean Sprout View Post
                Thanks for making this thread Slim Pickens.
                I like the pictures and post you had before too I was just too tired and stoned too respond last night. Late night harvest here
                Hehe

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                  #38
                  Originally posted by Veggia farmer View Post
                  I like the pictures and post you had before too. I was just too tired and stoned too respond last night. Late night harvest here
                  Thanks Veggia farmer. My anxiety caused me to edit my post. PTSD sucks
                  Last edited by Bean Sprout; 11-02-2020, 06:16.

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                    #39
                    Here's some very recent articles related to MDMA assisted therapy for PTSD. MAPS themselves have a lot of interesting information related to the use of psychedelics in therapy, if you guys are serious about using these types of drugs I'd strongly suggest reading through it.


                    https://maps.org/research/mdma


                    https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7218633/ (MDMA-assisted psychotherapy for people diagnosed with treatment-resistant PTSD: what it is and what it isn’t)


                    https://psychopharmacologyinstitute.co m/section/the-use-of-mdma-for-ptsd-2064-4163


                    "No Nation has ever benefited
                    From a protracted war"
                    -Sun Tzu

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                      #40
                      As a commercial grower half of every crop went to veterans with PTSD.
                      Last edited by Phaeton; 11-01-2020, 05:46. Reason: new thread

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                        #41
                        Originally posted by billy_big_bud! View Post
                        my problem is my current mental state is so low that a trip scares me without having someone to be the voice of reason
                        I believe the key word is "assisted" as in "psychedelic assisted therapy", it is advisable to have a psychotherapist to guide you through the path, I won't try to heal myself just by taking psychedelic (not the first few times, at least).

                        In this regard I would recommend reading Michael Pollan's "How to change your mind", the first chapters are a historical reconstruction of use (therapeutic and recreational) of psychedelics in western culture, from the 1950s to the present day. There's also a chapter on the author's experiences (with clandestine "guides") but the chapters that I found most interesting are "The Neuroscience: Your Brain on Psychedelics" and "The Trip Treatment: Psychedelics in Psychotherapy".

                        I found this book truly enlightening.

                        https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/How_to_Change_Your_Mind
                        https://michaelpollan.com/books/how-...nge-your-mind/

                        Just my 2 cents.

                        Forgive my english ;-)

                        «Or ti piaccia gradir la sua venuta:
                        libertà va cercando, ch'è sì cara,
                        come sa chi per lei vita rifiuta.»


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                          #42
                          @Galvano. thanks for your input and suggestions. i will definitely check out that book. i have heard it mentioned before but it slipped my mind.
                          an OUNCE of prevention is worth a POUND of cured ...... anyone that doesnt like cannabis just hasnt tried the right strain.

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                            #43
                            im delighted to discover my local library has the book. really looking forward to checking it out.
                            an OUNCE of prevention is worth a POUND of cured ...... anyone that doesnt like cannabis just hasnt tried the right strain.

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                              #44
                              If you read it let me know what you think.

                              «Or ti piaccia gradir la sua venuta:
                              libertà va cercando, ch'è sì cara,
                              come sa chi per lei vita rifiuta.»


                              In corso:
                              Dalla guerrilla di bosco al microbox

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                                #45
                                most definitely. thanks again.
                                an OUNCE of prevention is worth a POUND of cured ...... anyone that doesnt like cannabis just hasnt tried the right strain.

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