I have seen karma in action, for the most part. But there are exceptions. The exceptions being; I have mostly noticed bad people getting good things instead of bad things happening to good people. I’m not religious; in fact doubt the existence of God, or what we have been told to think of as God.
Anyway, I’m an old dude now, 55, and pretty messed up. Physically, my bod is shot, I have no balance, messed up my back, have double vision (thick glasses), and have to stagger around like a drunken zombie just to walk. Mostly from the embarrassment I’m estranged from my family. I know they love me but I just don’t want anyone’s pity and don’t want to burden anyone, not to mention I think totally different and I'm the black sheep. They’re a bunch of rich mother-fuckers. I’m not. I’m more normal. I can’t go to the weddings, parties, and shit anymore. BUT I’M ONLY 55!, NOT 80. My wife died 5 years ago, after she suffered 10 years of daily pain. Her death was a blessing in disguise. She pissed me off a lot and was an unbelievable slob, but I still miss her though. I live a very reclusive life (at my choice), in a rural area, in a fucking ‘96 double-wide on 5 acres my wife wanted to buy. It’s fixed up alright though.
I’m not really without happiness. I love my kids, grand-kids, and my old dog. This reclusive life is mostly my choice. People sure can be shitty to each other out there. What gets me is what karma has done to me. I don’t have a clue what I did to deserve this fucked up bod. My wife and I screwed a lot. Maybe there’s a finite number for that too, cause I ain’t getting none now. But if karma is real, what did I do to deserve this? I must have fucked-up bad in a previous life or somethin’.
Anyway, I’m an old dude now, 55, and pretty messed up. Physically, my bod is shot, I have no balance, messed up my back, have double vision (thick glasses), and have to stagger around like a drunken zombie just to walk. Mostly from the embarrassment I’m estranged from my family. I know they love me but I just don’t want anyone’s pity and don’t want to burden anyone, not to mention I think totally different and I'm the black sheep. They’re a bunch of rich mother-fuckers. I’m not. I’m more normal. I can’t go to the weddings, parties, and shit anymore. BUT I’M ONLY 55!, NOT 80. My wife died 5 years ago, after she suffered 10 years of daily pain. Her death was a blessing in disguise. She pissed me off a lot and was an unbelievable slob, but I still miss her though. I live a very reclusive life (at my choice), in a rural area, in a fucking ‘96 double-wide on 5 acres my wife wanted to buy. It’s fixed up alright though.
I’m not really without happiness. I love my kids, grand-kids, and my old dog. This reclusive life is mostly my choice. People sure can be shitty to each other out there. What gets me is what karma has done to me. I don’t have a clue what I did to deserve this fucked up bod. My wife and I screwed a lot. Maybe there’s a finite number for that too, cause I ain’t getting none now. But if karma is real, what did I do to deserve this? I must have fucked-up bad in a previous life or somethin’.