exercise . even if ya don't feel like it. since I been kayaking regularly and hiking I feel so much better.... sometimes when I hike real far out I stop and scream at the top of my lungs... crazy but man it feels amazing....peace
I think you could check out Ibogaine as a plant that might help. It works against addiction, as well as depression.I've been going through this for about 17 years. I'm finding myself in a particularly bad place to be for myself, and am having a hard time not dwelling on things. I have Xanax, but am trying so damn hard to get off that shit. I decided today that I'm gonna take a break from smoking for awhile to see if that helps. Everything makes me anxious it seems.
I was doing so well, then one day I had one of my horrible panic attacks that I thought I was past. It was last friday and I havnt been able to go out or to work ever since. I tried to take my trash out and had another panic attack. The only way I could do it was to take 2 mg of Xanax and I was down to only .25-.5mg on the days I had to work.
Feel like everything just went to shit in a matter of minutes and have been trying so hard to snap out of it. Started medicating heavily and no help, just got worse if anything.
So I'm right here, trying to just find a way to calm down. If I just dont smoke tonight, I'll be fine. If I do I'll be right back to where I was and I need to make progress or I'm gonna end up in a really bad place.
It's the first day that is so hard for me to get past, especially the first night. I dont even know if its for the best. I just don't know what to do anymore to be honest.
I've been going through this for about 17 years. I'm finding myself in a particularly bad place to be for myself, and am having a hard time not dwelling on things. I have Xanax, but am trying so damn hard to get off that shit. I decided today that I'm gonna take a break from smoking for awhile to see if that helps. Everything makes me anxious it seems.
I was doing so well, then one day I had one of my horrible panic attacks that I thought I was past. It was last friday and I havnt been able to go out or to work ever since. I tried to take my trash out and had another panic attack. The only way I could do it was to take 2 mg of Xanax and I was down to only .25-.5mg on the days I had to work.
Feel like everything just went to shit in a matter of minutes and have been trying so hard to snap out of it. Started medicating heavily and no help, just got worse if anything.
So I'm right here, trying to just find a way to calm down. If I just dont smoke tonight, I'll be fine. If I do I'll be right back to where I was and I need to make progress or I'm gonna end up in a really bad place.
It's the first day that is so hard for me to get past, especially the first night. I dont even know if its for the best. I just don't know what to do anymore to be honest.
Thank you guys, I really needed that. I've been on just about every SSRI with no effect other than feeling nothing, or horrendous side effects. I'm an alcoholic, but it's been almost two years since I last drank. Everytime I'd go to the Dr. they just wanted to put me on another drug instead of treat the underlying cause. That's what got me on Xanax. I've been off and on it for 10 years, and pretty regularly the past 3 years. I hate it. I'm addicted to it, there's no way around it. Even just taking .5mg a day creates withdrawals for me and complete rebound anxiety. I'm scared I'm gonna be out of work for at least 6 months while I kick that shit (Heard somewhere that for every year you take Benzos it takes about a month to start to feel normal again, so at least 6 months for me with everything probably..)
I dont mind smoking, I actually enjoy it a lot. I think somehwere along the line with all the SSRI's and Benzos my brain chemistry changed and now I honestly cant handle most smoke without a panic attack.
I made it through the night without smoking, feeling a little better, but soo shaky. Monday was the last day I took Xanax.
I am fucking bound and determined the get off fucking Xanax permanently. That shit is terrible, so terrible for you.
I figure if I take a break from smoking the anxiety should be curved down, then I can cleanse my body of the damn Xanax and hopefully start to get my brain to bounce back to normal. It's gonna be hell, for what's gonna seem like forever, but I can't live like this anymore. I'm 27 and have had enough of this crap.
Maybe in 6 months or so if I'm feeling better I'll try smoking every now and then, but I don't think I'm gonna go back to daily smoking. I really am an addict and shit just gets ridiculous.
Thanks again guys, I already feel better knowing that people care and I'm not alone in this.
I Cut out all drama and anyone who is providing it. I only let the good into my circle and the rest can bounce.