CPC (Chronic Pain Club)

[DevilsReject]

G `Afternoon Everyone,

Hello Ladies.

I feel like I had someone kick the crap out of me, the last 2 days my Knee's are so bad and across my back he spasms are like lightning bolts sideways.

Down pouring, damp, sticky dark gloomy day and hurting all together = depression!

How is everyoe else feeling today, I hope better then me that's for sure!!

 

[letmeout]

I'm feeling better today but this whole weekend was terrible.It was stormy and very high humidity.I also had a family reunion to got to and to sit in metal chairs that seemed like they were 1 foot off the floor.I had to have help siting and standing back up.I was hurting pretty bad,but thanks to a friend on this forum i made it all day and most of the night before i had to lay down.
My friend has been telling me how much edibles help and she sent me some suckers ,lozenges and some bho made from pineapple bud.If it wsn't for her i would have lasted 1-2 hours at the mostSo i just wanted to thank her,you know who you are.
Now i just need to get a big enough harvest to make a lot of edibles and i will be set.
I hope everybody else had a good weekend and i hope everybody(including me) have a good week.

 

[Marywanna]

letmeout,I hope your week starts out better and you can get some real rest tonight. MW

 

[DevilsReject]

letmeout I hope your pain free this evening and have a better day tomorrow

 

[SeniorBuzz]

I was really worried today as I began having pains in my left chest; haven't had anything like them before.

Decided I had better shower, just in case I needed to go to the hospital.

Now that I am showered, I think I'll make a run to Trader Joe's for some for a few cases of Charles Shaw wine, and then to Togo's for a foot long hot pastrami. It has been 10 years since I have had one.

Funny how great comfort food tastes. maybe I'll pick up a pint of Ben & Jerry's ice cream for dessert

I deserve them

Shoulda known; the Togo's has been replaced by a Pho house

That's CA for you

 

[DevilsReject]

SB I can jet down to your place within 2 hours Comfort food & my dogs makes great relaxing time seem so nice when your not feeling good and just eating a favorite food or drink a favorite beverage can make you feel better..

 

[SeniorBuzz]

SB I can jet down to your place within 2 hours Comfort food & my dogs makes great relaxing time seem so nice when your not feeling good and just eating a favorite food or drink a favorite beverage can make you feel better..

I think I'll follow your advice Dr.

that pint of Haagen Daas is now only 14 oz..I thought that container looked a little small..sure was good, just not enough of it.

good thing I bought 2

think I'll make it a point to find the closest Togo's tomorrow night

join me in a glass of Sauyignon Blanc

 

[DoobieDuck]

Ah the summer sunshine. Yesterday I baked in 80 degree heat enjoying our warmest day this year. The only problem I have is, all that heat makes me feel better than I actually am. Started the weed eater, and that's a chore in itself after a long winter in the shed, putsied around the place manicuring our yard. But with activity my joints go down hill, my spine surgeries reminded me last night..you ain't no kid anymore Doobster...don't do it, no matter how good you think you feel, your disabled dipshit! Four hours under the sun turned into eight hours of restless misery..but this morning-- I might just go out and do it all over again. Pain haunts on my mind all winter..and keeping my mid busy is a way for me to relieve some pain by forgetting about it, even if for just a moment. There were times yesterday I forgot about my pain completely....I sat here and just baked...my idea of pain management..Big Smiles..DD

 

[Balarama67]

I could be seriously happy in that polytunnel....

...a flask of piping hot coffee and a small radio/mp3 player

I wish you years and years and years of happiness in your slice of heaven ;-)

 

[herbwarts]

Holy sheep dip Batman that looks like it could become one hell of a garden. How do you manage it ? I can hardly deal with my tiny spaces that are herbwarts. I get stone just thinking of the garden I could have in that space. It must be nice on the other side of the lines in the war on sick people (drugs). Sunlight ebb and flow system wow.........

 

[bigdaddyc9]

My pain is off the charts today.It is overcast w/threat of more rain.My fibromyalgia is kicking my ass.Lately I have been in a fibro fog that feels like I am sleepwalking.You would think someone on 480mg of Oxycontin would have at least some kind of control over pain.Nope! I have to take my breakthrough meds which is 90mg Roxicodone daily,I have to take all 3 at same time to get 4 hours of relief and then I am back to square 1.I am nearly out of cannabis,and I have zero local connections.heck around here there are 2 different kinds of weed.Mexi brick and hydro.And niether is med quality.I used to be able to find cannabis that helped me to go to sleep.I cannot find anything anymore.I guess I'll have to bite one and get a grow going again.Then not only will I have to live in agony with several painful conditons,but with constant fear of arrest.I only grow out 6 females at a time to make sure LEO knows Im only in it for MYSELF.My Mom is dying of cancer and all this stress has made me a basketcase.If it weren't for my wife and kids,I would have kicked myself off the planet,years ago.I'm in so much pain it is hard to roll out of bed and thats unusual for me.I am having a hard time leaving my bedroon anymore.Its is sad....Peace and One Love BigD

 

[LifeIsGrowing]

To BigD - I have fibro as well and I know what kind of hell it can bring. Especially with trying to get pain killers to do the job, and being constantly let down. One thing I have figured out over time was that the narcotic meds were to easy to build tolerance to, and it sounds like you have quite the tolerance. Maybe you should discuss titrating the dose down over several months and then slowly working back up again. I've had to do it over and over and over again cause they work for a bit, then they stop working completely. It will be painful, and you'll be sick as hell, especially on dosages like that, but you'll still be alive.

What I did was reduce my dosage to the lowest I could get by with on the narcotics, and then brought in cannabis, pushing out the narcotics to the point I only use them if cannabis is not working.

I'm not suggesting you do anything that you are uncomfortable with, but making your own medicine is the best way to avoid issues of your local supply, and ensure the quality needed to help you see results. Trust me I know what it's like to be in a place where it's mostly mexi-brown and some headies, but no where near enough for me, and especially not for the price. Just something to think about.

-LIG

 

[herbwarts]

To BigD - I have fibro as well and I know what kind of hell it can bring. Especially with trying to get pain killers to do the job, and being constantly let down. One thing I have figured out over time was that the narcotic meds were to easy to build tolerance to, and it sounds like you have quite the tolerance. Maybe you should discuss titrating the dose down over several months and then slowly working back up again. I've had to do it over and over and over again cause they work for a bit, then they stop working completely. It will be painful, and you'll be sick as hell, especially on dosages like that, but you'll still be alive.

What I did was reduce my dosage to the lowest I could get by with on the narcotics, and then brought in cannabis, pushing out the narcotics to the point I only use them if cannabis is not working.

I'm not suggesting you do anything that you are uncomfortable with, but making your own medicine is the best way to avoid issues of your local supply, and ensure the quality needed to help you see results. Trust me I know what it's like to be in a place where it's mostly mexi-brown and some headies, but no where near enough for me, and especially not for the price. Just something to think about.

-LIG

I agree with LIG that living in a narcotic haze is a nightmarish kind of hell but I never found a reduce control. After 10 years of oral Morphine 32 mg twice a day I quit it wasn't fun. I had reach that point when the side effect were worse then the pain. I spent like 2 month kicking that crap out none of it was fun. I rember many a morning wanting to chewing my own leg off because of the pain. But once my system was clear and I replaced the nightmare with high grade herb I can't tell you how much better I feel. I'm not sick every morning I can go to the bathroom without a court order. I just got cleared to swim after all this time. It seems if your not in pain all day your heart heals it's self. Mind you I start smoking in the morning and smoke all. I sell like bong water or a cloud of smoke hemp of coarse. But when compared with the live hell of chemical warfare the Doctors were throwing at me I'm now feeling great. I only cut out the narcotic's I still taking the rest of my medications. It's giving me the chance to know my son because I was not long for the world doing all those narcotic.........

 

[Balarama67]

I love the cop beating the wheelchair-person - is there a clearer image I can use somewhere?
Thanks!

 

[DevilsReject]

BDC I am sorry to hear about your Mom I will pray for her and you bdc, I live with pain if theirs a word that can express the pain I and the rest of us go through a better word would be living hell we would all end up shutting the lights out for good, but you have to reach deep inside of yourself and try to do a little each day and I to say why even get out of bed, for what!!

My pain level more so goes up never goes down but stays in between but I am taking so many meds per day 3 times a day I cannot afford yet another med and deal with side effects as they are destroying me more then the meds to help my pain.

 

[bigdaddyc9]

I have been in agony so long,I'm not sure how to feel otherwise.I dread even waking up in the am after 2 hours sleep total.I am getting so fucked up I can barely walk some days.Just got an SSDI review in mail.More bullshit to go through.I jump through the hoops like a good boy.Want to start growing again but am scared to death.I used to grow some solid gear and wish I could do a massive outdoor grow and jar it up and sit back and smile.Hard to make my frown go away.My Mom is one of my best friends.I do not want to lose her.Peace BiGD in friggin agony,I am somewhere I wouldnt wish anyone to go,and wonder if I can ever get back.

 

[nattynattygurrl]

Buck: I'm thinking about you today! I hope everything went alright and that you aren't feeling too terrible after your first round of chemo.
Please let us know how things went, when you are feeling well enough.

BigDaddyc9: I too have FM, (and a few other Dx's), and I know what it's like to be stuck in a bedroom; I didn't leave mine for over a year, other than to see doctors. IC was such a source of comfort for me during that time. I hope you have found the same to be true!
DR is right though: you just have to reach deep inside and stay tough; but man is it hard some (most) days!

I really feel for all of you that you aren't in a med state. I just moved last year, but I was in the same predicament as BigDaddy: in an unfriendly state, w/o a decent 'black market'. And being in VA, I was too afraid to grow for myself. I wish there was a way to get you all to a med state! Just omitting the stress of being an "outlaw med user" made my FM a lot better. (As we all know, stress is a big factor in one's health; particularly when you have FM.)
We should start an FM thread in the CP group; there are quite a few of us!

Know I'm thinking about you, and your mother, BigDaddy!


Anyway: stay strong my friends!!

 

[herbwarts]

Buck: I'm thinking about you today! I hope everything went alright and that you aren't feeling too terrible after your first round of chemo.
Please let us know how things went, when you are feeling well enough.

BigDaddyc9: I too have FM, (and a few other Dx's), and I know what it's like to be stuck in a bedroom; I didn't leave mine for over a year, other than to see doctors. IC was such a source of comfort for me during that time. I hope you have found the same to be true!
DR is right though: you just have to reach deep inside and stay tough; but man is it hard some (most) days!

I really feel for all of you that you aren't in a med state. I just moved last year, but I was in the same predicament as BigDaddy: in an unfriendly state, w/o a decent 'black market'. And being in VA, I was too afraid to grow for myself. I wish there was a way to get you all to a med state! Just omitting the stress of being an "outlaw med user" made my FM a lot better. (As we all know, stress is a big factor in one's health; particularly when you have FM.)
We should start an FM thread in the CP group; there are quite a few of us!

Know I'm thinking about you, and your mother, BigDaddy!


Anyway: stay strong my friends!!

I had no choose it was this or die from the Chemical Warfare the Doctor was serving. However I more then know what mean by fear. Stay save

 

[Hammerhead]

I have realized that Im probably going to need pain meds for the rest of my life but I dont want to be a zombie and not enjoy whats left of it.

DD what's in the GH this year?

 

[herbwarts]

I have realized that Im probably going to need pain meds for the rest of my life but I dont want to be a zombie and not enjoy whats left of it.

DD what's in the GH this year?

God I hope not ! It did so much damage to my body and soul. I wouldn't wish that on anyone! Look I'm not saying it prefix just take a puff and be saved. But when compared to the chemical diet I was drifting thru I'm doing great.