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I've dealt with social anxiety my fair share in my 26 years...
When I was a young boy, if strangers would come over to the house I would pretty much run into my room so I wouldn't have to talk to them.
I think I was called "shy" at times..
In college it was getting pretty bad at different times... I even went on Paxil at one point, which helped.
I pretty much bought the whole "social anxiety" party-line, that the makers of Paxil love to advertise. How its a disorder, that needs treatment.
Well, I guess I'm now thinking differently.
I think for people like me, we just don't like being around lots of random-ass strangers. I mean, social anxiety accepts as a premise thats its perfectly NATURAL to be surrounded constantly by complete strangers, in a huge city... always surrounded by people at all hours..
That is definitely NOT NATURAL. It has only been a fraction of our times as humans that we have been so overpopulated...let alone lived in places where we actually don't even know who is around us...
I am more of a sensitive-type. I know that... so I think I'm just more genetically geared not to be in a civilization.
I always used to notice after taking even simply 3 hours or so, going out in pure nature away from everyone... that as I'm driving back...for about the first 10 minutes as soon as we hit civilization...its like it doesn't even bother me... u know driving through bumper to bumper traffic... its like i don't mind the lack of space...
But then slowly it just starts cranking on me again... because its just too congested for my liking..
The thing is I am just the type of person that likes my own damn space. And that doesn't really exist.
So I think social anxiety isn't some big fucking genetic disease... I think thats so fucking sad...we are being led astray by the pharmas...
I think for many of us we are just SO FUCKING SICK OF BEING SURROUNDED BY STRANGERS ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
You can't get your own space.
I know alot of people are like me. We need our own space. We need to be able to yell at the top of the lungs and know that not a single person can hear us or see us...
I mean... I bet you could easily do (and i'm sure they have been done) studies of taking animals into captivity, and seeing how it effects them mentally...
In many ways we are held captive in our lives. We live in cages called homes...take the same roads to work/school/etc... we live in a small little cage called our "city" that we hardly escape from ever. There is no room... We are locked into lines called traffic lanes...with rules all around us restricting us in every direction.
I think we have gone SO far into civilization that we just take for granted and probably don't even THINK for a second how much negative effects civilization has on our mental and physical well-beings. I'm sure it effects some of us more than others, as in the case of people with so called "dis-orders".
Personally I'm finally taking matters into my own hands. I find that drugs do help... for instance alcohol is a good thing to just sorta tranquilize you so that you don't feel like such a bound up caged animal when you are surrounded by people and its gotten too much...
Paxil did the same thing. Just a big fucking giant tranquilizer.. seriously... the withdrawal from that was a bitch.
But for me I'm going to try to make a concerted effort to actually GET my own space out in nature...
Thats why I'm now waking up at 4:30 tomorrow morning to take my dog to a nature area in the heart of the city i live in (disgustingly huge city)... so that hopefully I can pretend that I'm free...
I think many people like me tend to stay up really late in the night...just to get that feeling that most people are asleep...but I don't think thats good enough.
I don't know. Many if anyone of you out there is like me... you could try what I'm doing. Try to get some time out in nature a few times a week. Maybe just a weekend camping trip would help your head for the week in the city. Or maybe you need it to be a daily thing, or thrice weekly...whatever.
Any comments?
When I was a young boy, if strangers would come over to the house I would pretty much run into my room so I wouldn't have to talk to them.
I think I was called "shy" at times..
In college it was getting pretty bad at different times... I even went on Paxil at one point, which helped.
I pretty much bought the whole "social anxiety" party-line, that the makers of Paxil love to advertise. How its a disorder, that needs treatment.
Well, I guess I'm now thinking differently.
I think for people like me, we just don't like being around lots of random-ass strangers. I mean, social anxiety accepts as a premise thats its perfectly NATURAL to be surrounded constantly by complete strangers, in a huge city... always surrounded by people at all hours..
That is definitely NOT NATURAL. It has only been a fraction of our times as humans that we have been so overpopulated...let alone lived in places where we actually don't even know who is around us...
I am more of a sensitive-type. I know that... so I think I'm just more genetically geared not to be in a civilization.
I always used to notice after taking even simply 3 hours or so, going out in pure nature away from everyone... that as I'm driving back...for about the first 10 minutes as soon as we hit civilization...its like it doesn't even bother me... u know driving through bumper to bumper traffic... its like i don't mind the lack of space...
But then slowly it just starts cranking on me again... because its just too congested for my liking..
The thing is I am just the type of person that likes my own damn space. And that doesn't really exist.
So I think social anxiety isn't some big fucking genetic disease... I think thats so fucking sad...we are being led astray by the pharmas...
I think for many of us we are just SO FUCKING SICK OF BEING SURROUNDED BY STRANGERS ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
You can't get your own space.
I know alot of people are like me. We need our own space. We need to be able to yell at the top of the lungs and know that not a single person can hear us or see us...
I mean... I bet you could easily do (and i'm sure they have been done) studies of taking animals into captivity, and seeing how it effects them mentally...
In many ways we are held captive in our lives. We live in cages called homes...take the same roads to work/school/etc... we live in a small little cage called our "city" that we hardly escape from ever. There is no room... We are locked into lines called traffic lanes...with rules all around us restricting us in every direction.
I think we have gone SO far into civilization that we just take for granted and probably don't even THINK for a second how much negative effects civilization has on our mental and physical well-beings. I'm sure it effects some of us more than others, as in the case of people with so called "dis-orders".
Personally I'm finally taking matters into my own hands. I find that drugs do help... for instance alcohol is a good thing to just sorta tranquilize you so that you don't feel like such a bound up caged animal when you are surrounded by people and its gotten too much...
Paxil did the same thing. Just a big fucking giant tranquilizer.. seriously... the withdrawal from that was a bitch.
But for me I'm going to try to make a concerted effort to actually GET my own space out in nature...
Thats why I'm now waking up at 4:30 tomorrow morning to take my dog to a nature area in the heart of the city i live in (disgustingly huge city)... so that hopefully I can pretend that I'm free...
I think many people like me tend to stay up really late in the night...just to get that feeling that most people are asleep...but I don't think thats good enough.
I don't know. Many if anyone of you out there is like me... you could try what I'm doing. Try to get some time out in nature a few times a week. Maybe just a weekend camping trip would help your head for the week in the city. Or maybe you need it to be a daily thing, or thrice weekly...whatever.
Any comments?
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