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S.A. Meeting Hall - Doors Are Always Open (Seeds Anonymous) Share Your Relapses
- Thread starter GP73LPC
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well i guess i should speak again and reveal my evil, self destructive ways...
as i start to sink deeper into this uncontrollable life, i find to get the same rush i need more and more of the drug
it seems i am no longer content to have an order placed and simply wait for them to arrive and then enjoy the newness of the high... it must be true, i have developed a tolerance. DAMN !!!!
i've noticed this a little bit recently but was keeping it to myself. afraid to admit to myself i am truly addicted and MUST HAVE MORE !!!
for example, this last weekend i went to my po box... my step was not nearly as high, i didn't feel a lot of anxiety. i went straight to the box grabbed the mail, locked the box and made my walk back out to the car without the normal bouncy, giggly feeling. might it be that i was expecting two packages and only received one? might it be that i am growing accustomed to my drug? has it become that i feel normal, but not high on it, and forever in agony without it?
well, it's not completely a lost feeling... after opening up my package to eyeball, fondle, cuddle, hug, photograph and document my new seeds i discovered my freebie was Black Domina x Hindu Kush. With my new bubblegum and leb sativa seeds, the BD x HK kinda gave me a rush. and that feeling lasted for a few days.
and it's a bit painful knowing i have some ak48, bubblicious, white rhino and eldorado out there too and i can't make it back to my dealer (my po box) until later this week...
it's also a fact, i placed another order recently that should dispatch soon. all the while i am seriously prioritizing my current wishlist in anticipation of getting another order before bay/boo close down for the holidays... mid jan is along way off... i need something in the pipe, coming down the line... an addict needs his drugs, come on
these days i seem to have several orders in various stages of processing...
psssst, did anyone hear about seed drop by clarence tonight?
i'm GP73 and i'm a junky
as i start to sink deeper into this uncontrollable life, i find to get the same rush i need more and more of the drug
it seems i am no longer content to have an order placed and simply wait for them to arrive and then enjoy the newness of the high... it must be true, i have developed a tolerance. DAMN !!!!
i've noticed this a little bit recently but was keeping it to myself. afraid to admit to myself i am truly addicted and MUST HAVE MORE !!!
for example, this last weekend i went to my po box... my step was not nearly as high, i didn't feel a lot of anxiety. i went straight to the box grabbed the mail, locked the box and made my walk back out to the car without the normal bouncy, giggly feeling. might it be that i was expecting two packages and only received one? might it be that i am growing accustomed to my drug? has it become that i feel normal, but not high on it, and forever in agony without it?
well, it's not completely a lost feeling... after opening up my package to eyeball, fondle, cuddle, hug, photograph and document my new seeds i discovered my freebie was Black Domina x Hindu Kush. With my new bubblegum and leb sativa seeds, the BD x HK kinda gave me a rush. and that feeling lasted for a few days.
and it's a bit painful knowing i have some ak48, bubblicious, white rhino and eldorado out there too and i can't make it back to my dealer (my po box) until later this week...
it's also a fact, i placed another order recently that should dispatch soon. all the while i am seriously prioritizing my current wishlist in anticipation of getting another order before bay/boo close down for the holidays... mid jan is along way off... i need something in the pipe, coming down the line... an addict needs his drugs, come on
these days i seem to have several orders in various stages of processing...
psssst, did anyone hear about seed drop by clarence tonight?
i'm GP73 and i'm a junky
C
Classy@Home
WHAT??? REALLY??? WHEN??? WHICH BEANS???
I mean - oh, that's nice - yawn. Hmmm, maybe there's something interesting on the Oprah network tonight. Might go to bed early, get a good nights sleep...
I am Classy - sadly, I have a problem...
ok, but you didn't hear it from me.... i dunno what beans, but apparently he's got some stuff up his sleeve... i know cannaventure and csg have some new stuff coming, maybe that's part of it... quiet down, i don't want everyone to hear this...
Almost bought 2 Paks of fire alien kush but resisted cuz im broke. man its hard out here for a pimp
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215 User
Kronocaine & Amnesia Haze x Chocolate Rain freebies were hard to resist.....
Won 2 packs of Sour Joker in a auction monday.
All this after a 2 year hiatus .......
Won 2 packs of Sour Joker in a auction monday.
All this after a 2 year hiatus .......
relapse after 2 years... i feel your pain brother...
oh well, start new today, the next 24 hours is all you can control.... one day at a time
"Look at this fuckin' junkie......"
I got that itch again.......real bad......
Today ended up Paco's RHS, Mosca OTM x Chem 4, and Cheesey NMK S2
Tomorrow will likely be Karma's Mahayana. Just need to get past the upcoming ResLab drop......and maybe releases next week......
Ahhh.......
I got that itch again.......real bad......
Today ended up Paco's RHS, Mosca OTM x Chem 4, and Cheesey NMK S2
Tomorrow will likely be Karma's Mahayana. Just need to get past the upcoming ResLab drop......and maybe releases next week......
Ahhh.......
C
Classy@Home
I relapsed - again...
Sat up all nite - ordered $80 of beans, some rare Shishkaberry F2s and fed my candy craving w/ some Sweet Tooth #4 x LUI...
I gorged myself on new releases - I feel sick...
Sat up all nite - ordered $80 of beans, some rare Shishkaberry F2s and fed my candy craving w/ some Sweet Tooth #4 x LUI...
I gorged myself on new releases - I feel sick...
i thought i saw you wondering around late last night with a cup of java but i didn't wanna call out to ya or anything, you know, since this is seeds anonymous... didn't want to expose your disease to the public. that's entirely up to you
nice selections...
nice selections...
$15,000 in beans just from the bay and boo. got to the point where i am making beans as well. i love popping seeds and do it once a month.
i have more seeds then i could probably ever grow. i end up giving them away to people then buy more. i like to buy at least two packs of each when i do. one to grow and one to grow later....hahaha
i organize my beans by breeder in my box. i keep my stink and fruity completely separated. i dont refrigerate or freeze. i grow....
i have more seeds then i could probably ever grow. i end up giving them away to people then buy more. i like to buy at least two packs of each when i do. one to grow and one to grow later....hahaha
i organize my beans by breeder in my box. i keep my stink and fruity completely separated. i dont refrigerate or freeze. i grow....
:jawdrop: i'm not worthy
ladies and gentlemen, we have royalty in our presence tonight...
may i present Phillthy, Seed God !!!!
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215 User
I think some Sour Willy,Gryphon,Krome's Triangle Kush S1's and Holy Diver Thai beans will be my last request.....
No excuses after then!
No excuses after then!
C
Classy@Home
Bean there - done that...
There's ALWAYS more excuses - and more beans...
Best thing to do is accept your sickness, acknowledge it, be one with it...
Then - indulge it...
i just placed my last little order for the year, no more, this year, i promise
however, there is that CannaVenture drop coming however
got a package waiting in my po box, got a package leaving the UK tomorrow and i am sending cash to the UK for my latest order tomorrow... that's coordination boys...
however, there is that CannaVenture drop coming however
got a package waiting in my po box, got a package leaving the UK tomorrow and i am sending cash to the UK for my latest order tomorrow... that's coordination boys...
Dammmmn i missed cheesys nmk s1
Trip x blueberry... Guilty.
5 x as guilty on cannacopia bubba x dc ...gonna bx bubba..hunt is on!
Phillthy and I were neck and neck eh, 2 years ago? I sought help after they wouldn't take more sperm or plasma weekly....
I was only 4k deep then.
In fact, his two pack habit is my logical curse inflicted...LMAO!
dank.Frank
5 x as guilty on cannacopia bubba x dc ...gonna bx bubba..hunt is on!
Phillthy and I were neck and neck eh, 2 years ago? I sought help after they wouldn't take more sperm or plasma weekly....
I was only 4k deep then.In fact, his two pack habit is my logical curse inflicted...LMAO!
dank.Frank
