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Deaner
Stay strong brother. NJ & NY will have legal weed in 2010 for med patients.As much as I love my weed I can and have gone without it for extended periods of time. A year is easy for me when I set my mind to it and think of the day that they no longer have me on paper. I can't go without pain medicine. I don't get high on it and use it sparingly. My pain is so intense sometimes I believe I will eat my shotgun if I can't get help with meds. I need hydromorphone now because I took hydrocodone for over 20 years and it no longer helps me. Weed also helps with pain but I can't vaporize enough of it. With the best I can grow I still use 1-2 z per week. I don't know any of my friends that do that. Usually when I quit I have about a 1000 cravings a day. For some reason this time I have had NO cravings. I know if I live through this I will be with my best friend again some day. I call this "coming up for air" time. I tried acupunture a couple weeks ago and some new non narcotic pain/depression pills that help a little. Cymbalta has a side affect on some people of killing pain. I went 3 months using this last summer without the narcotics until I had another gallbladder attack. I have doubled the dose of it and added Lyrica that also is supposed to help. Something is working and I have not used narcotics for almost a week. My cravings have been replaced my thoughts of ending the pain for good. About a 1000 times a day now I think about the shotgun. If these as*holes want me to do a long federal bid at my age I may bypass it and eat the shotgun. I never thought I would see the day where weed was legal in any state. I think NY will be one of the last. I am glad to have lived long enough to see it legal in some states. My love of weed made me into an outlaw for life. Once a convicted felon what are the chances of having a normal life. I started smoking weed when I was 14 and got to my first inpatient rehab when I was 24 when I was facing 21 years in Florida. My first felony arrest for 1 z of weed when I was 16. I quit drinking alcohol in 1992 and do not want to drink again. I had a lot of fun with it but more bad came from it than good. I wish some law makers would read this because in my state they don't let the voters decide if it should be legal. I think our founding fathers would roll over if they saw what happened to America/USSA. United Soviet States of AmeriKa.