I have a question I'm hoping someone can answer for me.......if you're seizure free for years(10 yrs), can the seizures return, and why? The reason I am asking, is I was diagnosed with a seizure disorder, after a head injury. I would have very bad seizures that required hospitalization. My seizures would go non stop for days. It left my brain to skip sometimes......like skip over words, memories, and occasionally I stutter. After several years with seizures and many meds and hospitals, they still weren't getting better. I was not responding well to the meds, plus I was on a shit ton of meds for RSD, and strong antibiotics for a constant staph infection in my leg. The docs rediagnosed me as epileptic. They took away my drivers license, because my seizures were not being controlled. At about that time, I started really questioning what was going on with my body.......I took myself off of all the drugs I was on except the antibiotics and the Dilantin. Then I started to wean myself off the Dilantin. I did have a few seizures, but I smoked a lot more herb, and ate edibles. Within a few months, I was seizure free. I told myself that I never had a seizure disorder, that it was just the meds that I was on. I truly believe all those meds were the problem. I was on morphine, depakote, dilantin, quinine sulfate, neurontin, klonopin, just to name a few. I have believed being pharma free, is what tipped everything in my favor........until 3 days ago, when I had a seizure. I think I have had 3 in total. The 1st one came in my kitchen, and luckily TOH was there. I fell and was convulsing, he said. I didn't get the bloody metal taste in my mouth like I used to, but my stomach felt so nauseous that I had to go sit down. I sat down, and then I can't remember anything, except TOH calling my name. I wet my pants a little. The other 2 times this has happened, I was alone, but out for at least an hour each time. I wet my pants both of those times as well. I am not able to go to the doctor, and am wondering if I should try to find anyone with dilantin????? The doctor in not an option, so managing this myself is the plan. Can seizures come back, and why? TOH is pretty freaked out, and scared. I didn't tell him about the other 2 episodes, because it has caused his blood sugar to get super high from the stress. I am trying to avoid freaking him out. I am not scared, because I don't remember the seizures. I just don't like how confused I am after these episodes. I'm also getting pretty banged up, either from falling or seizing????? This is so stupid. I can't be having this happen. I don't think seizures can kill me, but I do worry about the stress of this affecting TOH, and his diabetes. For the time being I won't tell him about the other times it happened. I just don't think it can be seizures again, because I am not getting an aura like I used to get, right before I had one. If you don't get an aura, it can't be seizures, right? I'm not scared, but I am super stressed. If anyone has any thoughts, please let me know.