Hello everyone. I am a 25 year old student, and I recently just reached my first year of being clean from opiates, and all other hard drugs. I only recently started smoking again within the past three months. I started drinking at the age of 11, and by 14 I was smoking weed and doing hard drugs on a regular basis. At 16, I tried coke for the first time, and that, along with pot became my drug of choice for the next five years. During this time, I always worked, maintained good grades at school, and played sports. This kept the level of my drug use secret from a lot of people around me.
Long story short, I tried a vicodin for the first time when I was 21, and after that moment I never did anything else for the next 2 1/2 years. Within 6 months I was eating anywhere from 20-30 1000mg vicodin, or the same number of 10 mg percocet. I stopped for a few months here and there, but every time I relapsed, I started off right where I was last time, and the tolerance just went up. The last 4-5 months or so I started sniffing oxys and in that time I probably blew close to $25k on that garbage. One day I was unable to get any pills, and resorted to buy heroin. Fortunately, a voice in the back of my head stopped me from using it, and I check myself in rehab the next day.
That was a little over a year ago, and for the first time in my life I am extremely happy with myself. I used drugs to self-medicate, and now that I have real clean time under my belt, I see more worth in myself than I ever have before. I only have one more year of school, and will be closer on my road to being an architect. Anyways, I just want to know if I am skating on thin ice with smoking pot again. I know that I am not truly clean while I am smoking, but I had gotten put on all these antidepressants and shit, and pot does the same thing without messing with the little guy. i was just wondering if anyone else out there is in, or has been in this situation, and if you had any advice, or could just share your experience. thanks a lot.
aod
Long story short, I tried a vicodin for the first time when I was 21, and after that moment I never did anything else for the next 2 1/2 years. Within 6 months I was eating anywhere from 20-30 1000mg vicodin, or the same number of 10 mg percocet. I stopped for a few months here and there, but every time I relapsed, I started off right where I was last time, and the tolerance just went up. The last 4-5 months or so I started sniffing oxys and in that time I probably blew close to $25k on that garbage. One day I was unable to get any pills, and resorted to buy heroin. Fortunately, a voice in the back of my head stopped me from using it, and I check myself in rehab the next day.
That was a little over a year ago, and for the first time in my life I am extremely happy with myself. I used drugs to self-medicate, and now that I have real clean time under my belt, I see more worth in myself than I ever have before. I only have one more year of school, and will be closer on my road to being an architect. Anyways, I just want to know if I am skating on thin ice with smoking pot again. I know that I am not truly clean while I am smoking, but I had gotten put on all these antidepressants and shit, and pot does the same thing without messing with the little guy. i was just wondering if anyone else out there is in, or has been in this situation, and if you had any advice, or could just share your experience. thanks a lot.
aod