I have had RSD for about 20 yrs, in my leg. I had a bad accident, and knocked my patella, medially and laterally, ruptured the quadriceps, patella tendon, meniscis, and fascia. I have had 30 surgeries.
A couple of years ago, I had uterine cancer, and a hysterectomy...but of course, there were serious complications, and I almost hemorrhaged to death.
I have been having serious trouble and pain in my stomach. A few days after the 2nd time the docs had to open my stomach up, I began experiencing problems...I was unable to move my bowels.
The docs did an mri with contrast, and said I had developed adhesions, and the adhesions were binding things together, making it difficult for things to move smoothly. They said I would need surgery, if things worsened in the future, and that i could eventually suffer from an impaction.
I have noticed over the past several months, that my stomach has gotten BAD......I bleed when I go to the bathroom...alot. The pain is absolutely brutal, and I feel like I am being ripped apart in my stomach. It has been so severe, that I actually must have passed out in there....I woke up crumpled between the toilet
Pain is my constant companion. I do not use any pharmaceuticals, or take anything other than cannabis for my pain. I find that when it gets really bad, I have to eat an edible, and check out.
I have been doing some reading and am beginning to think I had RSD in my stomach????
Some physicians say RSD can ravage all of the systems, and i think it is ravaging my GI system????
Is there anyone that has dealt with this, and if so, how did you cope?
I am so angry right now, that this is happening....just when I think it can't get any worse....well it does!!!!!
I am not suicidal at the moment...but I have all these very vivid fantasies about cutting off my leg.
And, I explained the anger......it feels alive.
I am angry that I know some real shitbags, and they aren't suffering...so why me?????
I am also starting to wonder if RSD, is starting to ravage my mind???? I think about the shitbags I know, and I feel like maybe hurting them....like I have a right.
Maybe God, or the Devil, or fate...or whatever...has cursed me with this disease, so that I would get angry enough and be in so much pain, that I lose my mind, and really fucking make someone more deserving of me, hurt??????
Yes, I know that sounds insane, but if RSD is slowly sapping my life from me, why would I think it would spare my mind????
I have never known physical agony like this...I never knew somebody could live through this......the humidity is driving me crazy.
I dreamed last night, that I cut off my leg with a butcher knife....does anybody understand what it is like to have horrific dreams and then wake up and when you realize the leg is still there, you just cry.
And the same shit starts all over....actually, it has never ended.
When is it ok to just give up?????
A couple of years ago, I had uterine cancer, and a hysterectomy...but of course, there were serious complications, and I almost hemorrhaged to death.
I have been having serious trouble and pain in my stomach. A few days after the 2nd time the docs had to open my stomach up, I began experiencing problems...I was unable to move my bowels.
The docs did an mri with contrast, and said I had developed adhesions, and the adhesions were binding things together, making it difficult for things to move smoothly. They said I would need surgery, if things worsened in the future, and that i could eventually suffer from an impaction.
I have noticed over the past several months, that my stomach has gotten BAD......I bleed when I go to the bathroom...alot. The pain is absolutely brutal, and I feel like I am being ripped apart in my stomach. It has been so severe, that I actually must have passed out in there....I woke up crumpled between the toilet
Pain is my constant companion. I do not use any pharmaceuticals, or take anything other than cannabis for my pain. I find that when it gets really bad, I have to eat an edible, and check out.
I have been doing some reading and am beginning to think I had RSD in my stomach????
Some physicians say RSD can ravage all of the systems, and i think it is ravaging my GI system????
Is there anyone that has dealt with this, and if so, how did you cope?
I am so angry right now, that this is happening....just when I think it can't get any worse....well it does!!!!!
I am not suicidal at the moment...but I have all these very vivid fantasies about cutting off my leg.
And, I explained the anger......it feels alive.
I am angry that I know some real shitbags, and they aren't suffering...so why me?????
I am also starting to wonder if RSD, is starting to ravage my mind???? I think about the shitbags I know, and I feel like maybe hurting them....like I have a right.
Maybe God, or the Devil, or fate...or whatever...has cursed me with this disease, so that I would get angry enough and be in so much pain, that I lose my mind, and really fucking make someone more deserving of me, hurt??????
Yes, I know that sounds insane, but if RSD is slowly sapping my life from me, why would I think it would spare my mind????
I have never known physical agony like this...I never knew somebody could live through this......the humidity is driving me crazy.
I dreamed last night, that I cut off my leg with a butcher knife....does anybody understand what it is like to have horrific dreams and then wake up and when you realize the leg is still there, you just cry.
And the same shit starts all over....actually, it has never ended.
When is it ok to just give up?????