Hello guys, I need some advice regarding my situation or I will go crazy.
I had a dream last week that police was busting into my place, almost got a panic attack, felt so real.
Quick story short - when I started all this I did mistakes
- I paid by bank transfer (this does not really concern me because I make many payments to foreign countries for videogames, gambling, etc and there is nothing about the purpose)
- I went to buy some things from a local growshop a couple of months ago and when I left somebody from the shop went out after me looking like making a phonecall but I caught him watching me, I was with my car but parked away, did not get my numbers.
- I searched and surf alot without protection on many sites about growing, videos, etc.
- I have told nobody about this, I don't have neighbours that could smell it;
- Currently have 4 plants, 3 mature in flower stage, 1 that is like 2 weeks old. I would raise only one but it's my first and I did not expect none of them to die. Very strong plants, survived everything.
I am going to check a lawyer too, just in case.
But really I got so scared to the point where I was thinking of throwing everything and wait like 6-12 months before starting again. And then I take a sample, I smoke and it hit me like 'man chill you are not that big of a fish to get caught'. Truth is where I live there are people that kill other people and get lower sentence that people I know getting caught with like 0.2gram.
I love life and smoking mj got me off other stronger drugs, off booze abuse, and everytime I get depressed or sad (because I randomly get like that), I hit one up and I feel like my brain wheels start spinning, ideas flow, I can focus to work, I don't feel shitty and worthless.
So what do you think ? Am I safe ? Should I stop everything ? Am I being too paranoid ?
Thank you
I had a dream last week that police was busting into my place, almost got a panic attack, felt so real.
Quick story short - when I started all this I did mistakes
- I paid by bank transfer (this does not really concern me because I make many payments to foreign countries for videogames, gambling, etc and there is nothing about the purpose)
- I went to buy some things from a local growshop a couple of months ago and when I left somebody from the shop went out after me looking like making a phonecall but I caught him watching me, I was with my car but parked away, did not get my numbers.
- I searched and surf alot without protection on many sites about growing, videos, etc.
- I have told nobody about this, I don't have neighbours that could smell it;
- Currently have 4 plants, 3 mature in flower stage, 1 that is like 2 weeks old. I would raise only one but it's my first and I did not expect none of them to die. Very strong plants, survived everything.
I am going to check a lawyer too, just in case.
But really I got so scared to the point where I was thinking of throwing everything and wait like 6-12 months before starting again. And then I take a sample, I smoke and it hit me like 'man chill you are not that big of a fish to get caught'. Truth is where I live there are people that kill other people and get lower sentence that people I know getting caught with like 0.2gram.
I love life and smoking mj got me off other stronger drugs, off booze abuse, and everytime I get depressed or sad (because I randomly get like that), I hit one up and I feel like my brain wheels start spinning, ideas flow, I can focus to work, I don't feel shitty and worthless.
So what do you think ? Am I safe ? Should I stop everything ? Am I being too paranoid ?
Thank you