Severe Depression

[SPG.]

^ Were ALL gr8!.. LOC'
Internets been my BIGGEST MATERIAL Help for YEARssss,great how ya can do things in your own time WITHOUT DICTATION!! [clockwork dictation,often/was- for me...Zzzzz, lol]

 

[SPG.]

Yeah AN :-D.. NO TIME DIFF HERE!,lol

I like Watchin' MotorBikes (go round in circles!)Nope,lol.Amongst Athletics,UFC [big time!] [boxing,not so much"TODAY"-UNLESS there's a big Fight on (usually at Madison' or Cesars' dont know why i said that lol,imprinted!,i.e Mayweather,paciau..etc.some top brit fighters too..
Big on TV too -but watch the Propaganda Enforcing ADVERTS..:nono :
SWITCH!! SWITCHHHHH!!!!!! Some are "good" but overall a pain so not worth doin..imo

Musics cool too! Less words the better sometimes!! lol
..Yea so what im mean AN is i know i'll be up Tonight/tomorrow Cus they come on Here at 2.45am 'till maybe 6 am? Laptop will be in use too!

...^Thats a Nice thing to say LD No matter whether Aimed at Me or AN! ..? kudos!


[motogp 3 is SUPA EXCITING GUYS! Deffo Not a Procession like motor racing OFTEN is/can be..
Moto 2 is sh** imo lol
Moto Gp [big one] is ok/good but the champ has won already!!This endish of season one's from Philip ISL Australia ....good sh*ttttt (moto3! That is )

You guys make me Laugh ALWAYS Have!! [in a Commendable/envious way,always been the case..]

][amongst other gr8/Commendable Attributes etc.. ...I recently "lolled" at Hearing "Y'ALL!" drank "A Crazy" Amount of Pepsi/Cocacola-cola? at Indianapolis Thousands n Thousands of Gallons _could of been 70-100? Thousand Gallons! :biggrin :
UFC too..Rik flair [ex wrestler?] was ringside in the Audience and at any pause/break?? ya would go! "wooooooouu WoooooooUUUUU..." and LOTS were joining in all over the ARENA...lolllll
Must be/gotta be his Sig..

This smiley rocks!!!! lol....

 

[Loc Dog]

Typically having plants that I revere, that are not perfect, would have me on edge. Know I can at least get clones off them, even if overfed.

Thinks it was Lao Tzu, (was Friedrich Nietzsche) from Conan the Barbarian. That does not kill us, makes us stronger!!!!!

This movie inspired me tremendously, being smallest in every grade, and going through 18-22 year old growth spurt. Combined Arnold and Bruce Lee, in body sculpting. Never hit anyone in my life. That was goal, to have ability, but responsibility, to not use it, unless absolutely needed. Nunchaku were therapeutic also. Could do with eyes closed.

Sorry for rambling.

 

[AltarNation]

Here's an abstract one for you guys... don't know if this will all make sense but it's comin.. (I wrote this warning midway, haha)

I've come to realize that in those moments when the noise stops and I can feel stillness without any thought... it's as if I don't really stop my thoughts but sort of 'lift out of their stream' and stop getting assaulted by them.

I have likened it in the past, during meditative sitting, to having a halo of intense electricity on my head, like an orbit field around a planet filled with shitty sparking satellites that I formed as thoughts and now they just float around waiting for me to accidentally lean in too close and get electrocuted.

What I find is that I live a lot of my life in a chronic state of having already leaned in too close... I've "leaned into it" (which is what happens when we analyze ourselves perhaps) and it seems to shock the crap out of me inherently, like an active electrocution already in progress that I wouldn't even know about if it didn't stop when I inadvertently did the right thing...

Parts of the body hold a tension, parts of the face too... a tension that is easy to not notice until it disappears inadvertently... but I've come to realize it's not really inadvertent but actually has to do with my conscious willingness to take a step BACK from this "forward lean" towards my brain energy that I'm caught in due to the grip of the electrocuting. It's almost like a trance I "fall out of" as I lean back and let go of the need to be self-analytical in this way. When I do let go, my posture centers and I can physically feel a difference in the amount of stimulation to my frontal lobe. I've metaphorically come to perceive it as I described above but I think I'm fundamentally noticing the willing release of both awareness and the blood flow, back away from the active thinking processes.

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Got that late night vaporized kinda channel goin here so don't mind me if you don't dig this sort of concept, I am pretty out there with the way I choose to relate to my own mind at times. I find metaphors are extremely powerful tools and I apply the active development of them as a means of forming healthy visualized associative linking with phenomena too abstract for my scientific mind.

 

[Red Berry]

whada u mean agro? lol . agroculture? lol..
I love the word severe, its so INTENSE. when I saw this thread title I got like really, um, excited.hee heee

that's why .

What is AGRO?

AGRO is "Hostile, angry" or "Aggravation, trouble"

the 2nd 2 .

 

[Nadicus_Maximus]

Depression is not something people really discuss in real life, but sometimes young people go into deep depression dues to chemical changes in the brain which can happen typically between the ages of 17-20 year old. If this is the case with you it will certainly end one day and you will be the better for the dark time you had to endure.

 

[AltarNation]

Typically having plants that I revere, that are not perfect, would have me on edge. Know I can at least get clones off them, even if overfed.

Thinks it was Lao Tzu, (was Friedrich Nietzsche) from Conan the Barbarian. That does not kill us, makes us stronger!!!!!

This movie inspired me tremendously, being smallest in every grade, and going through 18-22 year old growth spurt. Combined Arnold and Bruce Lee, in body sculpting. Never hit anyone in my life. That was goal, to have ability, but responsibility, to not use it, unless absolutely needed. Nunchaku were therapeutic also. Could do with eyes closed.

Sorry for rambling.

Man, wish I found that stuff at the right time, I had a similar path but I didn't bulk up, just continued to be small, haha. Really wish I had a more developed core at this point too. A lot of it was because I was injured severely at 14, but I think I'm also inherently timid in a way that I'm trying to get over... seems to have to do with trying to disappear completely almost. I seem to draw a lot of unwanted interference from aggressive types because of the level of awareness I live at, and I think I subconsciously avoid the idea of giving them something they think they need to pick a fight with, so to speak. I'm a pacifist at heart, so I totally respect the control concepts. And honestly I would so love to cultivate better focus in general, would love to learn some martial arts but often feel like an old man and very out of shape et cetera.. I'm not even old, lol. I just feel old a lot due to the shape I'm in and my history of injuries and such. But I would loooove to get all Bruce Lee, definitely one of my favorite inspirations in adult terms. I love his philosophy and actually consciously adopted it when I transcended religion specificity by choosing to pick and choose what I liked about each one. This turned out to be the key to my understanding of my Self, because all religions are attempting to map the same Self, and each does a good job here and there but not everywhere so they need to be cross-referenced... and I set myself up for the open-ended view needed to see that by following Bruce Lee's philosophy.

 

[AltarNation]

p.s. Disclaimer, any comments I make about religion are of course subjective and not meant to be interpreted as a slight against any believer of any specific religion.

 

[AltarNation]

Depression is not something people really discuss in real life, but sometimes young people go into deep depression dues to chemical changes in the brain which can happen typically between the ages of 17-20 year old. If this is the case with you it will certainly end one day and you will be the better for the dark time you had to endure.

Haha... fuckin' high five man, that's good news.

Curious, are you speaking from experience? How old are you and at what age did you see resolution of this?

 

[DAT]

its about like a tribe thing. its really beautiful, really.
I met Jimi Hendrix last night in my dream.
Do u think its possible that the dead communicate with us. What if the dead are speaking through the internet like one of you is really Jimi Hendrix.
I know this is heavy shit , I know,
The tribal thing is what powered Hendrix.
He said once the power of LOVE in greater then the Love of power then everything will be totally groovy.
I had an amazing hug session with him. The tribe of the lovers of MJ and the unity that Mj brings can be very spiritual I think 'altarNation u were talking abou that and I can totally relate.

 

[AltarNation]

 

[AltarNation]

Whoops, turns out Altar's crazy pants! haha.



Wisdom comes in disguised forms.

 

[SPG.]

! ;-)

! ;-)

its about like a tribe thing. its really beautiful, really.
I met Jimi Hendrix last night in my dream.
Do u think its possible that the dead communicate with us. What if the dead are speaking through the internet like one of you is really Jimi Hendrix.
I know this is heavy shit , I know,
The tribal thing is what powered Hendrix.
He said once the power of LOVE in greater then the Love of power then everything will be totally groovy.
I had an amazing hug session with him. The tribe of the lovers of MJ and the unity that Mj brings can be very spiritual I think 'altarNation u were talking abou that and I can totally relate.

At Faro Airport [Portugal] in '95 lookin'& leanin' on a Balcony at folk's "Kurt Cobain" (as an older guy late 40's?) came to me and bought my Electric guitar! Said it was for his Son..

(i was a ( Big Fan lets say) of his back in the the days of '93
i mentioned to one guy of the Catering Staff upstairs of the "little Airport" that "this" is for sale
pretty certain? then he said he knew some one "their" who's after one.Then that happens^30 Minutes later? Also saw "Jim Morrison" from a distance (same age i think.27-ish??) having a drink/gulp at the the catering bar,slow-relaxed Movements..! woooo
Frank Zappa too,i was Big on guitars back then

bet for a couple of seconds of wakin'time you were still having the dream eyh!?..
Happened to me..
;-)


I thought"Frank was jimi",at first.Dat

On "PAPER!" I was "OFF" my head back then! :-D (for a while anyway!!) lol
Nope,Thats what was.......

 

[HempKat]

Hey- The stems shifted due to deficiency perhaps, I am not an expert yet But it is also a less common pheno I think. Also, there are multiple breeders producing C99's... Female Seeds' C99 in my garden. Are y'all rockin FMS or something else?

Yeah there are lots of different variations on C-99 as when it first hit the market many claimed it to be the holy grail of indoor growing, (Sativa like qualities in a 60 day flowering form). The only special pheno I know of for C-99 is the "Pineapple Pheno" which along with having a pineapple like smell is said to be more potent then regular C-99. Coincidentally mine also came from Female Seeds. Got it as part of a free packet of tester seeds.

 

[HempKat]

Man, wish I found that stuff at the right time, I had a similar path but I didn't bulk up, just continued to be small, haha. Really wish I had a more developed core at this point too. A lot of it was because I was injured severely at 14, but I think I'm also inherently timid in a way that I'm trying to get over... seems to have to do with trying to disappear completely almost. I seem to draw a lot of unwanted interference from aggressive types because of the level of awareness I live at, and I think I subconsciously avoid the idea of giving them something they think they need to pick a fight with, so to speak. I'm a pacifist at heart, so I totally respect the control concepts. And honestly I would so love to cultivate better focus in general, would love to learn some martial arts but often feel like an old man and very out of shape et cetera.. I'm not even old, lol. I just feel old a lot due to the shape I'm in and my history of injuries and such. But I would loooove to get all Bruce Lee, definitely one of my favorite inspirations in adult terms. I love his philosophy and actually consciously adopted it when I transcended religion specificity by choosing to pick and choose what I liked about each one. This turned out to be the key to my understanding of my Self, because all religions are attempting to map the same Self, and each does a good job here and there but not everywhere so they need to be cross-referenced... and I set myself up for the open-ended view needed to see that by following Bruce Lee's philosophy.

My favorite bit of Bruce Lee philosophy came from the beginning scenes of Enter The Dragon where Bruce Lee excuses himself from the police guy (Mr. Braithwaite) to teach one of his students. The line goes "Don't think, feel! It is like a finger pointing a way to the moon. Don't concentrate on the finger or you will miss all that heavenly glory."

 

[Loc Dog]

My favorite bit of Bruce Lee philosophy came from the beginning scenes of Enter The Dragon where Bruce Lee excuses himself from the police guy (Mr. Braithwaite) to teach one of his students. The line goes "Don't think, feel! It is like a finger pointing a way to the moon. Don't concentrate on the finger or you will miss all that heavenly glory."

I saw all movies as child in late 60's and 70's. Re-watched again in early 1980's.

Used his idea's to sculpt body, being smallest in class, through school. Ignored biceps, concentrated on triceps, lats, and speed. Also torso shaping from Joe Weider. To get cobra upper body, Very wide traps, and stretched chest. I still have it, in 50's.

The ability to kick ass, and projecting that with out words or actions, is a great thing.

 

[HempKat]

I saw all movies as child in late 60's and 70's. Re-watched again in early 1980's.

Used his idea's to sculpt body, being smallest in class, through school. Ignored biceps, concentrated on triceps, lats, and speed. Also torso shaping from Joe Weider. To get cobra upper body, Very wide traps, and stretched chest. I still have it, in 50's.

The ability to kick ass, and projecting that with out words or actions, is a great thing.

I never really had that problem, been big all my life in 6th grade I was 6ft and 200lbs. As I became older I became heavier but not much taller and as an adult I ended up being built kind of like an offensive guard or tackle. People rarely even try to mess with me because of my size. I did take Martial arts for a while though not for defense so much but rather to try to have better control if I get in a fight. The few times I had been in one before that I'd just go into a berserker rage where I'd go way beyond what was needed.

 

[Loc Dog]

I was 60-70 lbs in sixth grade, and had racist alcoholic teacher.

Anyone moving in would push me around, to be cool. Mostly those left back or transfers. 7th and eighth grade, would hide during lunch.

They could not get away with that crap, these days.

 

[RetroGrow]

I was 60-70 lbs in sixth grade, and had racist alcoholic teacher.

Anyone moving in would push me around, to be cool. Mostly those left back or transfers. 7th and eighth grade, would hide during lunch.

They could not get away with that crap, these days.

That's nothing. They used to beat the piss out of me. I was once punched in the face with a closed fist by a 260 pound priest who was a former football player. If that happened now, it would be all over the papers, and he would be arrested. But it was allowed back then. And almost all the priests and brothers were pedophiles. I once got smashed in the face by the principal, who then hugged me and said, "sorry son, but Jesus made me do it". Sounds incredible, but it really happened.

 

[Loc Dog]

That's nothing. They used to beat the piss out of me. I was once punched in the face with a closed fist by a 260 pound priest who was a former football player. If that happened now, it would be all over the papers, and he would be arrested. But it was allowed back then. And almost all the priests and brothers were pedophiles. I once got smashed in the face by the principal, who then hugged me and said, "sorry son, but Jesus made me do it". Sounds incredible, but it really happened.

Sorry to hear that.

I was just intimated, and pushed around. Robbed numerous times in high school.

Although it is not positive, lets hope they got what they deserved!!!

Pedophiles should get the standard kung fu treatment. Rip their nuts off, or kicked so hard they are flattened.

Their is basic human decency. Those thought do not measure up, like you have mentioned, do not deserve it. Pervert priests should be thrown in general population, but unfortunately, they may enjoy it.

Be well!!