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Severe Depression
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lumberjack.mr
Active member
greetings..
greetings..
in the middle of my 10 hour dialysis treatment, and cant sleep due to pain...
Watching latenite television has become impossible because my wife will awaken and be to concerned for my comfort to get back to sleep... Fortunately my line to the machine reaches into the den, and so here I am...
greetings..
in the middle of my 10 hour dialysis treatment, and cant sleep due to pain...
Watching latenite television has become impossible because my wife will awaken and be to concerned for my comfort to get back to sleep... Fortunately my line to the machine reaches into the den, and so here I am...
i do not know your musical tastes, but listening to some awesome inspirational music. I have massive depression problems.
Listening to Pearl Jam, SoundGarden, Nirvana, Alice in chains. All good gut wrenching positive music.
Sorry to here about your health problems. Add my as friend if you want someone to talk to.
Be Well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wish we could talk offline, in PM's, but you need 100 posts first.
I consider people I have met/not met in person, here, better friends than people I have known for 30 years, and some family.
I sealed driveway today.
Like the one guy said, making lists helps, but if too long, break them down, maybe into categories of difficulty. It sucks putting a lot of time into a project, and not being able to complete (or is major pain in ass, to complete).
House is from 1950's, and something is always screwing up.
If you want to chat, PM me.
Be Well!!!!
Tell me about it, not that many years ago I was what would be considered "Tech Savvy", now in this new wireless age with constant advancements in computer and communication technology I'm totally lost on all this "touch screen smart phones that even small kids have mastered" kind of stuff. All this ipad, Tablet PCs, etc. I feel like the old guy from when I was young and first learning about technology,who only knew about computers that took up whole buildings to do what most calculators can do today.
Yet to really get anywhere in this world today you got to know at least some of that stuff. Plus you got to have a good credit rating, a clean criminal record, in some cases a good driving record and clean urine. Otherwise kiss goodbye any dream you have of finding employment that will take you anywhere other then the poor house. Unless of course you're lucky enough to be the guy who thinks up "Pet Rocks" or dolls that look like kids who grew up in a vegetable garden or perhaps you're lucky enough to be the sole winner of a Mega Million lottery.
Only if you choose to let it be that way. You act like you're completely powerless. There is always something to do, not necessarily always fun and interesting but still requiring someone to actually do it. Like cleaning for example, nobody likes doing it typically but if you don't it will build up so bad that it will affect your life in some way, most likely for the worst.
You need to start accepting the reality that what your life is, how good or bad depends on the choices you make. People that are just handed everything on a silver platter don't truly appreciate the things they are given because it's all they've ever known. Whereas on the other hand, people who work hard to get whatever they want appreciate what it's like to have something more because they had to earn it. They can compare it to not having it and so they learn to value and take care of it more.
As long as you're breathing you're in the game and have a chance to make yourself and your life, what you want it to be. All you have to do is choose to do something about it.
It's not going to be ease phrases like "School of Hard Knocks" or "Nobody promised you a rose garden" are well known and exist because life can be hard, you're going to have to at times endure pain, loss, rejection, etc. but if you hold on long enough, if you have that much metal to strengthen your resolve. You will also know joy, happiness, satisfaction, etc. You got to put it on the line though. Sure hiding away in a drunken stupor will perhaps hide you from things and help prevent you from experiencing the negatives in life but unfortunately it will also prevent you from experiencing the goodness in life.
MedScientist
Active member
Something McFreakingAwesome happened to ME over 3 years ago! I found a FREE Alternative Healing Therapy that CHANGED MY Life, by Helping ME Understand and Apply some Coping Skills that WE ALL have access to... OUR MINDS!
I can relate to all the Explainations and Feelings posted in this Thread! But from standing on the OTHER side NOW, I DO REALIZE that I was CREATING the Stress, Anxiety, Depression, Pain, Fatigue that was once Dis-Abling ME!
Of course, that only PROVED that I was Crazy, afterall, You CANT HEAL YOURSELF by CHANGING Your MIND?
Long Story short... I DID! Many people that I shared the info with DID TOO!
For a Detailed explaination about how we CREATE OUR Problems, Goto YouTube channel HealingMagic and watch video (Google - "HealingMagic 540" for a link to the video)
# 540 - Discover the Power of your Mind, why we have problems, and the power of beliefs
Then watch and follow along to as many Free Videos that pertain to You, and Learn how to Let It Go, Change you Mind, Emotional Intelligence, Change your programs, whatever you want to call it! I would LOVE for the Spirit of THIS Thread to turn to one of HOPE, HELP and HEALING!
Good Luck! I HOPE you ALL have as much LUCK as I DID!
I can relate to all the Explainations and Feelings posted in this Thread! But from standing on the OTHER side NOW, I DO REALIZE that I was CREATING the Stress, Anxiety, Depression, Pain, Fatigue that was once Dis-Abling ME!
Of course, that only PROVED that I was Crazy, afterall, You CANT HEAL YOURSELF by CHANGING Your MIND?
Long Story short... I DID! Many people that I shared the info with DID TOO!
For a Detailed explaination about how we CREATE OUR Problems, Goto YouTube channel HealingMagic and watch video (Google - "HealingMagic 540" for a link to the video)
# 540 - Discover the Power of your Mind, why we have problems, and the power of beliefs
Then watch and follow along to as many Free Videos that pertain to You, and Learn how to Let It Go, Change you Mind, Emotional Intelligence, Change your programs, whatever you want to call it! I would LOVE for the Spirit of THIS Thread to turn to one of HOPE, HELP and HEALING!
Good Luck! I HOPE you ALL have as much LUCK as I DID!
DAT
Member
Hey ya'll! hope ur having a better day and night and finding positive outlets to deal with the pain.
Im doing really well lately. I got my grow op/studio all situated and ive somehow come to a wonderful place with my painting like never in my life. . My garden and my art help me... Gett in touch with the earth and spiritual in a positive way. Im trying to set some goals with my art and garden and maybe there are just pipe dreams and false hopes but I don't mind pretending because it keeps me happy.
I had this crazy ass idea for an art show. Like if we had gallery or warehouse at an art walk or something, we could bring our best plants to display in full flower and have all our best paintings, photographs , drawings on the wall., scultpures too.. all marijuana art...and then we could all meet at the grand opening and get stoned out of our minds. It would be FUCKIN AMAZING!
this is the painting im working on and my SuperLemonHaze scrog im growing.
Im doing really well lately. I got my grow op/studio all situated and ive somehow come to a wonderful place with my painting like never in my life. . My garden and my art help me... Gett in touch with the earth and spiritual in a positive way. Im trying to set some goals with my art and garden and maybe there are just pipe dreams and false hopes but I don't mind pretending because it keeps me happy.
I had this crazy ass idea for an art show. Like if we had gallery or warehouse at an art walk or something, we could bring our best plants to display in full flower and have all our best paintings, photographs , drawings on the wall., scultpures too.. all marijuana art...and then we could all meet at the grand opening and get stoned out of our minds. It would be FUCKIN AMAZING!
this is the painting im working on and my SuperLemonHaze scrog im growing.
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choom
Member
That idea for an art show is amazing....
glad to see other people in Washington
that are cool as fuck! Great shit there
DAT, I'd volunteer as security for said
show with huge ass plants in late bloom.
So many cocksuckers at Hempfest this
year snagged nugs off of the late bloom
display specimens this one booth had..
Really shameful IMO, was a chance to
show how mature a community could
be but whatever rippers did this may
have stopped it from happening again.
A lot of Hempfest attendees are the
gutter punk kind of homeless stoner
I noticed though, that probably got
something else in their unwashed bags.
choom(0:
glad to see other people in Washington
that are cool as fuck! Great shit there
DAT, I'd volunteer as security for said
show with huge ass plants in late bloom.
So many cocksuckers at Hempfest this
year snagged nugs off of the late bloom
display specimens this one booth had..
Really shameful IMO, was a chance to
show how mature a community could
be but whatever rippers did this may
have stopped it from happening again.
A lot of Hempfest attendees are the
gutter punk kind of homeless stoner
I noticed though, that probably got
something else in their unwashed bags.
choom(0:
DAT
Member
Thanks choom!
That would be awesome if you were the security guard.
Wow that is so lame of those cocksuckers at Hemp pulling off the buds. Yeah I was there too and I know what you mean about the Hempfest crowd. I see those punks sleeping outside in the streets in Seattle and you see all the fuckin tents pitched everywhere. its so discusting. These crazy ass fuckers are pitchin tents right on I-5 underpasses where just a small patch of grass is!!!! and they are everywhere.
Its mighty scary shit.
what about those fuckin Holy Roller Bible Belchers yelling into their microphones out side the fest telling us all how evil we are for smoking ganja... next time I go there im going to have some fake blood ready and I going to spi t it on them and tell them I am possessed...lol
where did everyone go? isn't anyone depressed anymore?lol
how are you jib? whats up homie?
im working on this painting right now for the show.
That would be awesome if you were the security guard.
Wow that is so lame of those cocksuckers at Hemp pulling off the buds. Yeah I was there too and I know what you mean about the Hempfest crowd. I see those punks sleeping outside in the streets in Seattle and you see all the fuckin tents pitched everywhere. its so discusting. These crazy ass fuckers are pitchin tents right on I-5 underpasses where just a small patch of grass is!!!! and they are everywhere.
Its mighty scary shit.
what about those fuckin Holy Roller Bible Belchers yelling into their microphones out side the fest telling us all how evil we are for smoking ganja... next time I go there im going to have some fake blood ready and I going to spi t it on them and tell them I am possessed...lol
where did everyone go? isn't anyone depressed anymore?lol
how are you jib? whats up homie?
im working on this painting right now for the show.
MedScientist
Active member
R
Red Berry
good advice . i didnt make it past that stuff yet . im like 1 month deep on a bender . dont like the feeling of not being able to take care of stuff.
DAT
Member
thanks BlackBuds, means a lot to me. not a lot of folks see my work.the only person that actually seen this one LIVE was the Russian furniture delivery man that dropped off my chair yesterday..lol..but that was so awesome. he didn't speak English very well but his eyes lit up and he said"BEAUTIFUL" and it made my day!
now its in my portfolio bag in the dark.lol.. Im glad I can share here with everyone.
now its in my portfolio bag in the dark.lol.. Im glad I can share here with everyone.
R
Red Berry
how many hours did that take?
