I lost my mind!

[dddaver]

Dude, all I can say is that it could be way worse. My old lady killed herself. Lots of explanations. She was Asian (accepted), she had Lupus and it was getting worse, she had family that had done that, etc., etc., blah, blah, blah. I STILL feel shitty.

I purposely avoided turning to drink. I saw too many people do that and they ALL regretted it and had a real hard time coming back, and being a drunk did nothing but just delay everything. Besides I still had an 18 year old daughter who needed by sober ass. She's fucked-up anyway, of course, but she would have been worse if I became a drunk.

So, what I'm trying to say, it could have been much worse, she could have laid a guilt trip on you you'll have the rest of your life. People keep saying new pussy is the answer. Go for it. Me...I'm done with that shit. No thanks. Enough is enough. I been fucked over just once too often.

 

[moses wellfleet]

Thanks for all your advice, stories and asinine comments!

I've been drinking less and my rooms are running around 75% capacity. Been smoking lots of AK hash. My small room is perpetual so it takes a bit to get that going like clockwork again, but it shouldn't be long.

I know a year is a long time to still be mourning the relationship but I really loved her. She apparently still loves me, so she says. She reminds me every once in a while, last time I just ignored her. Whether shes doing it on purpose or not she's fucking with my head. We were spending time together a few months ago for a while, that was a bad idea. I've been with other girls, it's just not the same. I don't love them.

Whatever, onwards and upwards or a shotgun blast to the skull. I've given myself an ultimatum. I'm thinking onwards and upwards is the way to go.

Thanks again guys. You're good people.

hey bendoslendo please let us know how you are getting on? are your rooms up to 100% capacity yet?... i hope things are coming together for you man!

 

[Stoner4Life]

I lost my mind!

if you haven't found it by now perhaps Igor could help you.......

 

[barnyard]

taking a daily Vitamin B complex may help reduce craving for alcohol

 

[Suspect]

Forgive yourself, everyone else
Allow yourself to have fun
Be good to yourself, everyone else
Light a fatty and contemplate on yourself
Attract what you want by doing that

 

[Snoopster]

When you are in bed ready to go to sleep remind your self of 3 positive things you have done that day.

It doesn't have to be epic, it can be as simple as "I took a walk today. I ate some great fruit. I made a sandwich for my daughter."

You will feel better in a week, guaranteed.

 

[TPIMP]

Best tip I can throw out there is start meditating. It really helps you keep you eye on the ball if you know what I mean. Meditation is not that hard, simply its just time for yourself, with everything else. Ever since I got into it I feel like I have a different outlook on life I feel like I am part of something much bigger and don't get as easily influenced(irritated) by others like before. It also helps you control your emotions better and think clearer.

 

[WelderDan]

Been there, done that, won the dumb ass medal myself.

Grow a pair. Drop the "poor poor me" shit and take the bull by the horns. Life is what you make of it.

Easy to say, harder to do, but that's it in a nutshell.

 

[dagnabit]

Collect you some haters...
Doing well is like hater bait.
Get some today!

 

[catalyte]

i can definitely relate to the OP..

concentrating on what makes you happy and productive can alleviate your regret about the past....

 

[moses wellfleet]

Collect you some haters...
Doing well is like hater bait.
Get some today!

best advice in this whole thread!