R.I.P. Dad

[Puffinstuff420]

I lost my father last christmas day and this is a tough day. Happy fathers day to all the other fathers on this site. Peace.

 

[Feijao]

Wishing you the best Puffin!

 

[PoopyTeaBags]

havent had to go through this one yet bro keep your head up and remember the good times!

 

[bench warmer]

Watch for little miracles in the near future, often noticeable only to those of you whom knew your father well.
It's really awesome.
My condolences, but he's still with you bro. Just wait for the signs.

 

[greenmatter]

keep your head up brother!

if you miss him you had a good relationship,and not everyone can say that about their dad.

 

[the gnome]

hang in there puf
I'm hoping you have lots of good memories to reflect on.
my father passed 3 days before christmas over 10 yrs ago.
I think of his wisdom and how it has faithfully guided me through the years
and try to pass that on to my children


I still dream of him

 

[kinger]

I know how you feel bro,I lost my dad last july. I miss him more today. It will get better everyday. I am glad I have this lil boy of mine so I can try and be a great father to him.

 

[Stoner4Life]

sorry to hear that Puffinstuff, it's said to be the hardest time in a man's life and it was for me.

 

[Puffinstuff420]

Thank you everyone for your kind words.

 

[ydijadoit]

I lost my Dad around Christmas of 1997. He fought brain cancer for 14 months, and died at 58 years old. I held his hand, and felt his heart stop.
That was the most intense experience of my life, and I have been "around", as they say.
There was no silence as great as when I drove home from the funeral home that day, and sat on the couch in his house looking around. I can't honestly say what I did for the next few months. It is basically missing time from my life. The good news is, I am a hundred times stronger than I ever knew, or would have believed, before that happened. I think you will find the same, as time goes by. I don't cry over his headstone anymore, but not a day goes by, that he isn't in my mind.
I no longer celebrate Christmas. I just can't get into the mood. I hope your experience is different, but at the same time, the strength and self awareness I gained, far outweighs a holiday.
"I'm sorry to hear it" sounds so lame, but what else can humans say to each other, when faced with such pain.
I will say I have walked in your shoes, and I thought I could never survive his loss. Now I am a stronger man, and I love my Father even more than when he was alive.
All the pissy "Father Vs. Son" crap most of us go through went away in his last few months. We were just two human beings who loved each other. One leaving too soon, and one desperately wanting him to stay. I am only left with the good memories, and the memories of the mistakes I made.
His legacy is being passed on to my children, in hopes they become better men than I, or even my Father.
I think Dad would be proud.
Hang in there!

 

[DJXXPLATINUM]

SORRY..............DJ

 

[DJXXPLATINUM]

I lost my Dad around Christmas of 1997. He fought brain cancer for 14 months, and died at 58 years old. I held his hand, and felt his heart stop.
That was the most intense experience of my life, and I have been "around", as they say.
There was no silence as great as when I drove home from the funeral home that day, and sat on the couch in his house looking around. I can't honestly say what I did for the next few months. It is basically missing time from my life. The good news is, I am a hundred times stronger than I ever knew, or would have believed, before that happened. I think you will find the same, as time goes by. I don't cry over his headstone anymore, but not a day goes by, that he isn't in my mind.
I no longer celebrate Christmas. I just can't get into the mood. I hope your experience is different, but at the same time, the strength and self awareness I gained, far outweighs a holiday.
"I'm sorry to hear it" sounds so lame, but what else can humans say to each other, when faced with such pain.
I will say I have walked in your shoes, and I thought I could never survive his loss. Now I am a stronger man, and I love my Father even more than when he was alive.
All the pissy "Father Vs. Son" crap most of us go through went away in his last few months. We were just two human beings who loved each other. One leaving too soon, and one desperately wanting him to stay. I am only left with the good memories, and the memories of the mistakes I made.
His legacy is being passed on to my children, in hopes they become better men than I, or even my Father.
I think Dad would be proud.
Hang in there!

ALMOST A DUPLICATE STORY OF WHAT I WENT THROUGH IN 92....AFTER READING YOURS, IT WAS JUS LIKE YESTERDAY....HERE COMES THE FLOOD....I NEEDED A GOOD CRY IN HIS HONOR....GOOD LUCK GETTN THROUGH THE NEX FEW DAYS....DJ

 

[Ground Up]

I lost my Dad around Christmas of 1997. He fought brain cancer for 14 months, and died at 58 years old. I held his hand, and felt his heart stop.
That was the most intense experience of my life, and I have been "around", as they say.
There was no silence as great as when I drove home from the funeral home that day, and sat on the couch in his house looking around. I can't honestly say what I did for the next few months. It is basically missing time from my life. The good news is, I am a hundred times stronger than I ever knew, or would have believed, before that happened. I think you will find the same, as time goes by. I don't cry over his headstone anymore, but not a day goes by, that he isn't in my mind.
I no longer celebrate Christmas. I just can't get into the mood. I hope your experience is different, but at the same time, the strength and self awareness I gained, far outweighs a holiday.
"I'm sorry to hear it" sounds so lame, but what else can humans say to each other, when faced with such pain.
I will say I have walked in your shoes, and I thought I could never survive his loss. Now I am a stronger man, and I love my Father even more than when he was alive.
All the pissy "Father Vs. Son" crap most of us go through went away in his last few months. We were just two human beings who loved each other. One leaving too soon, and one desperately wanting him to stay. I am only left with the good memories, and the memories of the mistakes I made.
His legacy is being passed on to my children, in hopes they become better men than I, or even my Father.
I think Dad would be proud.
Hang in there![/QUOTE
Went thru the same thing in oct.2011... Felt like it wad yesterday, nothing feels worse.........all the best..E

 

[Bi0hazard]

Puffinstuff420,

I wish you the very best. What people did on this earth and the impact they had on others never dies. I think this is the true form of reincarnation in a sense, that the actions and impact we have on the world and other peoples lives, live on after we are gone.

Of course we know, everyone has their time - but it's always hard. But I'm sure anyone who has passed, would want people to think of them and all the good memories they had and feel blessed for the wonders that life brings, rather than constantly feel despair - every new day is defined by the actions and outlooks we take. There is so much beauty in life to explore - we should take our good memories with us as support for knowing what other incredible experiences in life also await us.

Sending you good vibes.

My Best Regards,

Bi0hazard

 

[SneekyFarmer]

Puff.. sorry for your loss man! Yesterday was a tough day for me as well! I lost my dad 2 weeks to day day before christmas day in 1984! He passed of a massive heart attack in his sleep! I had dreams that he was going to die before it happened so I went to where he was living and got to spend 2 weeks with him before he died! that was 27 years ago in december. Yesterday was very hard for me because I have'nt been able to go see my kids for 7 years now! I have 2 grandchildren I have never met! They sent me text messages and I got to talk to my 20 year old daughter last nite after she got out of the hospital from having a seizure! When I read this thread It brought a wave of emotions and tears to my eyes... I miss my children but can't do anything about it because work has been hard for me to get because of illegal's taking my work! Just remember the good times you had together and cherish those memories! We all cry when we loose the ones we love! Im truly sorry for your loss! Im sending good vibes to you bro! Sneeky

 

[mayan]

My thoughts are with all of you sharing your experiences. Thank you so much - and thank you, Puffinstuff for having the grit to get the ball rolling. Very tough but very beautiful facet of humanity being expressed.

 

[Puffinstuff420]

Peace

 

[SneekyFarmer]

Damn puffinsuff, sorry to hear about the raid and the disrespect for your belonging man! 6 times bro, that really suck's!!! I got caught 10 year's ago and it is shitty the way the system treat's us like we are hard core criminal's... It is a shame that something natural is'nt legall, it's a healing herb that help's many people! Only another 5000$ and I can get my right's back! Fuck um, I will keep growin for me and a friend with cancer! Keep your head up bro.. I have'nt smoked for 3 week's now and the dream's at night are more like nightmare's! Hang in there man... Im sendin good vibe's your way!!

 

[Puffinstuff420]

Thank you Sneeky

 

[SneekyFarmer]

Your welcome Puffinstuff... I hope everything turn's out well for you bro!