I dont know if many of you feel this way,I'm sure folks in legal states dont give it a second thought.I've taken just about every precaution imaginable,have a near perfect setup and have been growing constantly for 6 years now.Everything seems cool,I couldnt have been smarter about it I dont think.Then why the hell do I always carry this feeling that someday I'm going to have to pay for all this,it really takes the fun away sometimes.Its just a permaturd stuck in my gut,I hate it but cant seem to do a thing about it.I've fancied when they do come I want to be like Newman on Seinfeld when he kidnapped the dog,have a cigarette hanging from the corner of my mouth and say,"what took you so long"?In reality I'll probably sob and cry like a schoolgirl.I try working hard around here teaching people to grow their own in the hope someday they can do it free from any guilt or fear,maybe it'll be in my lifetime who knows.I'd more than gladly give the gov't 50% of what I gross just to shake this guilty fearful feeling,its too lucrative anyway and that probably adds to me questioning myself at times.Why are both the gov't and me unhappy with the situation when it could be changed to suit us both?Camping with the convicts is something I want to avoid again at all costs.State of Va took 17 months of my 19 year old life over cannabis once and man I'm trying to avoid that scene again.I'm too old now,advantage is I aint as pretty as I used to be lol.Man I shouldnt even think this way

[pieceofmyheart]

My advice, go to the NORML site and find an attorney from your state and call. Tell them your situation, how many plants you have and your past trouble with the law. Find out exactly how much trouble there would be should you get busted.

Then remember, are your fears of getting caught unfounded? Is there anyway you could get narced on? if not, if you are stealth and quiet about your small grow, then how are the cops gonna find out anyway?

Be reasonable with yourself and in your head, paranoia can be a good thing but it can also be a very unreasonable emotion.

My fears are unfounded,but I am guilty.I'm just a little goofed in the head this morning lol.If only the gov't would tax the fuck out of me,I wouldnt be.

[pieceofmyheart]

It sucks that we can't enjoy the fruits of our labor without looking over our shoulders all the time man.

Try to chill out and enjoy.

[marx2k]

When I was growing back in the day, the times I wanted to tear down my flowering ladies most is when I was high.

Keep your head about you and as long as you're stealth and you don't rent, you should be a-ok.

Of course, a fire breaking out is the best way of getting caught.

Originally Posted by smilin bob

I dont know if many of you feel this way,I'm sure folks in legal states dont give it a second thought.I've taken just about every precaution imaginable,have a near perfect setup and have been growing constantly for 6 years now.Everything seems cool,I couldnt have been smarter about it I dont think.Then why the hell do I always carry this feeling that someday I'm going to have to pay for all this,it really takes the fun away sometimes.Its just a permaturd stuck in my gut,I hate it but cant seem to do a thing about it.I've fancied when they do come I want to be like Newman on Seinfeld when he kidnapped the dog,have a cigarette hanging from the corner of my mouth and say,"what took you so long"?In reality I'll probably sob and cry like a schoolgirl.I try working hard around here teaching people to grow their own in the hope someday they can do it free from any guilt or fear,maybe it'll be in my lifetime who knows.I'd more than gladly give the gov't 50% of what I gross just to shake this guilty fearful feeling,its too lucrative anyway and that probably adds to me questioning myself at times.Why are both the gov't and me unhappy with the situation when it could be changed to suit us both?Camping with the convicts is something I want to avoid again at all costs.State of Va took 17 months of my 19 year old life over cannabis once and man I'm trying to avoid that scene again.I'm too old now,advantage is I aint as pretty as I used to be lol.Man I shouldnt even think this way

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bob, if you didn't feel that way then that would be fukt up man. you have that feelin cuz you already gave time up and know exactely what it means.
i gave 2 yrs myself and know where the very last place on earth on earth i wanna be is. i feel yer pain man. yesterday as i was drivin on the interstate w/2 elbows thinkin bout my 7 yr old son and conjurin up all kinds of ideas and scenerios in my own stoner(but productive) head all i do is wonder if it's all really worth it. gettin caught would suck elephant balls but i also justify it by makin sure my boy will have a more comfortable life than i had and enuff dough to go to college and beyond. screw archaic laws and titey witey wearin, snot nose, suck ass, do gooder cops, prosecuters and judges. i'm doin what i hafta do to make a life. if i go away, i go away knowin i did what i know how to do and did it well. if i dont get caught then i'll be proud i did what i know how and did it well. be as safe as you can man.
wm

We should all be able to do what we do best and enjoy most so long as its not harming anyone,changing to R/o and getting a co2 controller recently has shown me what I can do now,I'm defiantely in the wrong state.I should be helping people I'm not doing this for the money,honestly I've found myself a single homeowner in his 40's with no kids wife,real responsibilities,hey did I just die and go to heaven lol?Really man I just need to last now,there's going to be oppurtunity for me to do this legitamitly someday somewhere that catches my fancy.Right now except for Texas lol,I couldnt be in a worse state..

Isn't that the worst? I recently completed my second grow and dismantled, according to plan, and the final month, two weeks or so I remember thinking "If I get busted its going to be in the next x weeks, get ready mofo"

horrible vibrations in this place

[marx2k]

Theres nothing more relaxing than the feeling of finishing up a harvest and only having vegging little ones or nothing at all for the time being.

Theres nothing more anxiety provoking than being high and staring at your closet rainforest and considering the penalties for each gram of it

agreed 100%, couldn't have said it better myself. I just tore down my grow for now, and my god is it a weight off my shoulders. At least everything turned out.