[Green W. Bush]

I used to smoke on only the most rare of occasions; i'd cherish every last bit when I did smoke once or twice a weekend, and be so high I couldn't even function.

Now when I smoke on the way to NORML meetings people assume i'm the only one sober there just because I don't reflect intoxication at all.

Throughout my years my highs have been cross-addicted (alcohol, speed, and porn most notably) and my highs have been productive.

As Crazy Composer mentioned in a post, I truly believe cannabis-smokers have to face a more complicated learning-curve in life than most.

Now while I still feel that my use of cannabis can border on the abusive I am happier with my highs than ever. Part of this has to do with my humble personal grow that tests me to stretch an ounce over two months or more.

How have you grown with the herb??

[bleak]

Well at the beginning getting "high" was just a recreational thing...but as the years went on (haha just about 4 to be exact) I began to get a diffrent perspecitve on things when i was stoned. My present day highs have turned into an almost enlightening period for me. When I smoke now it seems as I almost know the answer to everything. Smoking now enables me to have a clear perspective of all the things that are going on in my life, and sometimes it gives me the ability to realize things i need to accomplish.

now this post may make no sense since I have had a rough night but smoking has def had a great impact on my life, and thats why i am here today

[BenitoCereno]

I have a love hate relationship with the herb...

I am one of those wierdo solitary smokers. I get paranoid easy...and this is the lame part...I;ve been smoking for like<GASP> 15 years!!!! I'll go months without the fear and then WHAM!!!!

I was in Amsterdam last year for a weak and I was paranoid every friggin day. I would sit down in a shop buy a gram roll a joint take 3 to 5 hits and jump right the hell up and go for a hike around the city until I came down. Sativa or Indica it didn't matter. I would walk into a shop and be like, "What is the sleepiest and Heaviest shit you got. Or gimme the medicinal." Every time-Wham! But at the end of the trip I discovered Buddhas Sister...sure it made me paranoid---but it was a fun kind of paranoid.

Anyway, I got a vaporizer and that has cut down on the fear quite a bit.

I'd still go back to A'dam any day to spend another fearful week.

i started smoking heavily around the age of 16. like 2 to 8 times a day. i devoted all my time to getting sacks and smoking herb. i stopped giving a shit about school, and my family. Now that i am in college i tried to continue the hevay smoking, but found that college courses are much more demanding than highschool....

So now i am facing drug charges because of stupid drunken nights, and am border line about to get kicked out, because of my lack of participation in my classes. For the first time in 4 years i am smoke free. Its been like 2 + months now, and i feel awesome. I also am realising that my relationship with herb was completely unhealthy. I know that my young mind didnt understand it at all. I used it for recreation and to escape my life. It robbed me of alot of great times. Now i have begun to understand life in a greater perspective, and see cannabis for what it is. An awesome, completely under appreciated plant. I have gotten to know both sides of the court systems, and feel stronger for it. I know how i need to act around police, and am stronger for it. I have spent time in an inpatient treatment center, with heroin, meth, sherm, and 60 year old alcoholics. I have learned how bad addiction can be. I feel my mind is greater for having jumped into the sea of weed so early. In a way, it has shown me the adult side of life well before most of my peers.

Most importantly, it has changed my outlook on life. I have learned to hate all that TV stands for, and to despise the rationalizations that stem from thing capitalisticly. I know that Dubya and his cohorts are wrong, and they already are living in hell. I respect the land i grew up in, and want nothing more than to see the natural world protected. i think that without cannabis i would have come around alot slower than i have.

thanks for giving me a chance to think about my life in regards to cannabis.

[Bodhi]

That was a really great post smotpoker! I can relate in many ways being a young cannabis enthusiast like yourself. At times I too have felt that I am abusing the plant and not using it to it's full potential...but having realized that has improved my life immensely. Now I use it in a beneficial way and I think the only negative impact it has is on my waistline lol :p Damn munchies!!!

[NOKUY]

Originally Posted by Green W. Bush

... and porn most notably) and my highs have been productive.

good ta know!

[masterlow37]

It could be the BH !

Hmmm cool thread. Kinda old but whatever.

When I first started using weed, I considered it a therapeutic thing. Well, after the first few times at least. I noticed if I smoked one night, the day after I felt so much clearer, more productive, etc etc. I noticed my anxieties were lower also.

I moved to Cali and got my prescription, and would buy pure or sativa dom strains at the clubs. I would take a little puff or two every 3 hours or so throughout the day. The small amount I puffed make it a good stimulant, and thats what i used it for. Kinda like how the jamaicans will just take a puff and let the joint go out...that was me.

I stopped multi-daily use after it was starting to give me anxiety, and make me feel weird. Of course, this anxiety only came through when I went off Paxil. I figured I needed to just stick with indica domns from then on, but didn't have the same sources. Nevertheless, I stopped the daily usage. Since then, the last few years, I usually just smoke either a few times a week, once a week, once every two weeks...or sometimes months in between. With this usage its far enough apart most of the time that I forget what the high feels like. When I use it now, I just smoke to get a change of head, but nothing really more. The only reason it varies so much is because I can never get weed where I live now, once I moved away from Cali. :(

My usage has changed from something I thought I couldn't live without really (or at least didn't want to), to something that I don't think about much. Weed is just one of those things. You use it a few times and you start wanting it more, but if you stop using it you kinda forget about it some. IME

I find, at least with my present job, that I don't like using cannabis before work. A week ago I smoked a small tiny hit, and was singing on the way to work. Just in a really high mood. I was really excited about some of the work I was doing, and then all of a sudden I was told to work on something else, and I realized how much I didn't like the new task. If I was straight, I would have been able to deal with it easier, but mj was opening me up more to how I felt about things...and the shitty feelings of going from something I liked to not liked, really kinda came through that opened hole mj gave me. I decided I would rather just have a straight head while I work. At least with this job.

When I look into the future, I do see mj being a part of my life. I can see it as an aid to meditation a few times a week... or some mornings make a marijuana tea. Or, even smoke some good narcotic indicas a few times a night. I'm not sure though if I'll ever go back to using it throughout the day like I did. I'm not sure I trust myself to do that again... not saying its bad, but I kinda like feeling sobriety in between highs, so I can get that perspective. Plus I'm still not sure how I originally broke up with my gf who I wanted to marry, in Cali... and I wonder if I was only able to be with her because I was permi-buzzed... or did I really like her that much? Thoughts like this just make me somewhat cautious of the herb.

I love marijuana though. At times I think it has saved me from suicide, back in the day. But I do know that something that has this much power in my life needs to be used conscientiously.

[masterlow37]

belated lmao, had to restart my computer !
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[Irishslappop]

Back in the beginning getting high was a whole ordeal. me and my buddies would walk out into the big park outside of town, smoke a joint or a pipe and head on back giggly and idiotic. we would sit in my car and just listen to music for an hour or walk in the park, and it was really fun. As time went on i discovered that video games and movies were also 10 times better when i was high. so i bsically started smoking anytime before a big, fun event. Eventually, lunch became a "big fun event" and i found myself smoking 3 or 4 times a day.

Alot of people said they noticed a change in me, i wouldn't be as loud or crazy as a usually was which was nice for me. it really gave me a chance to stfu and listen instead of talking.
But as of late things haven't been going so well for me, a lot of bad energy flowing through and around me. i can feel it when im sober, so naturally its amplified when im high. i'll get terribles feelings, i'll become really self concious some times in a good way, but most of the time in a overly critical way. i've been taking a break fro the past 2 months to let all the bad times pass so i don't start to get a bad bias toward herb since i feel like shit every time i smoke now. i know it's not the herb's fault and it just whats going on right now.
im also strained for cash at the moment so it's probably a good thing im not looking to smoke right now since im unable to have a grow of my own.

Herb has been good to me so far, i'd day that most of the best times in my life were experienced while high. My relationship with MJ may be at a low point right now, but i see good things in the future, specifically when i leave this herb-unfriendly environment that im in right now.