[troutman]

Take your time and get well.

[Snook]

hey PT.. sorry to hear of your predicament, GL with your progress. Heres to your complete recovery..

Stay strong and never give up....best wishes and prayers comming your way bro.

[Tynehead Tom]

a good friend had a stroke 2 years ago at 71 ..... my best wishes and blessing for you and your recovery. It's amazing how the body can recover , stay positive man.
My friend is back driving and has full mobility. Not 100% but enjoying life again. Stay positive, you will heal.... and I really think the weed helps too

[eyes]

I hope things improve for you and life gets better. Im truly sorry this happen to you. Best wishes to you and your family. Good to see you have a support system to help.

[noyd666]

yes all the best there mate, vibes from Tasmania.

[paper thorn]

12052,mmgd4, starke, Good Vibrations received.

Douglas.Curtis being able to communicate is so taken for granted till you come so close to losing it. Brain stem strokes can lock you in, affecting both sides. i talk anf think, don't always type perfect, and fixong it can be a bit laborious, so i am lucky i guess. Did a 300 pc puzzle, need to get some dominoes.

A walker and dominoes. good lord. a month and a half ago i was climbing around on mountains looking for rocks.

my cannabis use went from a couple grams a day to a half a bowl a day. that's less than a 1/4 gram. I'm at maybe 3/4 of a bowl now. i dump the bowl half way through, just can't stand the taste of burnt weed now.

thanks subrob. good to hear from you.

Shaggy, thanks for the prayers brother, i appreciate the hippy stuff too. I think i read a study once that showed that hippy stuff increased happiness.

troutman, i hope time is the key, because day to day, my outlook, at least in my head is like a yo-yo.

snook and dioni, saying that helps my mood more than you guys can know.

tynehead tom, hearing that kind of thing gives me hope, and i really need it after the way i've been feeling the last few days.

eyes~ my family and friends are better than i knew. work i needed to do outside has been done. THe grow is looking good in spite of my absence. A friend is coming this weekend to install a bunch of grab bars in my bathrooms. No charge for thebars or the install. his brother runs a medical supply biz. good friends.

noyd666~ felt around the world my friend.

reading these posts has pulled me out of a slump i had gotten into.

It's easy to feel sorry for myself and dwell on the bad. I have a tingling down my entire left side, yeah, all body parts like a line is drawn down the center of my bod. Seems the tingling is slowly becoming numb. scare the shit out og me. Where it's not numb it hurts in a weird electrical sort of way. i'm losing strength in my left hand. My left side was the good side. lol.

my right side feels normal but my right leg is way way wobbly, no balance control. PT is improving that though.

i sweat on my right side but not on my left. weird because in the hospital it was my left pit that seemed to sweat and smell, with none on the right.

the left side of my head sweats, but not the right. i'm numb on thr right from my scalp(mid head) to my bottom lip. pisses me off, bacause the numbness was above my top lip when i left the hospital.
starting to feel it in my lower jaw bone. on the right. bad part is the left side is getting numb above my ear down to my neck.

i think my speech is starting to slur a bit.

I tell my self that i need to stay alive for 10 years, so my lovely wife will be able to get a social security check, or she'll be screwed with no income if i die before she turns 62.

strange to talk and think like this. I have to 'get my affairs in order' and have talked to her about the things of mine to give to kids and grandkids. My prognosis for decent recovery is good, but i could at any time be locked in or kick the old bucket. i have to face that.

So i keep up the Physical Therapy, the swallow exercises, get some walking in, because i need to keep sharp and i need to regain some mobility. My biggest fear is another stroke that locks me in where i can only move my eyes for ten years. That would be a fate worse than death. Too late to end it with a bullet to the brain then though. Can't ask anyone else to do you that favor.

See, there i go, whining, thinking of the worst case scenario. i'm gonna go back and read you guys comments again and get cheered up. And light up this bowl of Cheese.

You guys rock, thanks again.

[Sforza]

Originally Posted by paper thorn

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I tell my self that i need to stay alive for 10 years, so my lovely wife will be able to get a social security check, or she'll be screwed with no income if i die before she turns 62.

My biggest fear is another stroke that locks me in where i can only move my eyes for ten years. That would be a fate worse than death. Too late to end it with a bullet to the brain then though. Can't ask anyone else to do you that favor.

See, there i go, whining, thinking of the worst case scenario. i'm gonna go back and read you guys comments again and get cheered up. And light up this bowl of Cheese.

You guys rock, thanks again.

Hang in there buddy. No doubt that you got dealt a bad hand, but we all have to play the hand we are dealt. You have enough to manage without making yourself feel bad by dwelling on how things can get worse. Things can always get worse, but you need to make every effort to think positive and concentrate on how you can make the best of the situation.

Best wishes to you and your family in your struggles.

[Snook]

PT, I've been vaping for years, (silver surfer) the taste of burnt weed from pipes and one hitters makes me gag from the taste of burnt paper and weed, can even taste the butane. I wont do it. Well, if someone touts a 'one hit' weed, Ill suffer , once.

[Snook]

Originally Posted by Snook

PT, I've been vaping for years, (silver surfer) the taste of burnt weed from pipes and one hitters makes me gag from the taste of burnt paper and weed, can even taste the butane. I wont do it. Well, if someone touts a 'one hit' weed, Ill suffer , once.

I tried to edit last post, its not being kind to me, so I'm here to say:


I should read the post after I type it and before I post it..