[Croissant]

he is the magician behind the illusion of reality. He is indicated by the symbols the crown, or hat, the phallic symbol like a wand or scepter and often a rabbit.



in folklore the trickster is usually a rabbit. Like the white rabbit from alice in wonderland. or the mad hatter and the rabbit.



In Jungian archetypes he is the trickster archetype. In Lacanian psychoanalysis he is refered to as the big other.

I am telling you dude... see a psychoanalyst preferably a Lacanian because they use the symbology correctly and they aren't looking to sedate you and they aren't trying to be scientists with zero understanding of the symbols like the vast majority of mental health professionals.

[Croissant]

your mother

[stonedfly]

yo hermdog,

I too suffer from bi-polar. a lot of your first post rings true to me too...

I found in my late 20's I cycled much more frequently. Now in my early 30's I feel I miss my constant "ups" and have lost some of my "personality" , if u will...

I don't take meds, I self medicate with pot, and growing.

I try to read books about my disorder but it only makes me more depressed , lol...

keep working on it buddy.... don't drink as others have said... I love booze. lol... I cannot stress how important it is to remain free from depressants like alcohol .

exercise and getting outside is a key element in my life. Camping, being alone... all ground me.

I do miss my extreme highs I got in my 20's ... pushed me to great things... but for me I crashed hard eventually... I was on a 6 year high no lie... it was crazy... I accomplished some amazing things, luckily I didn't kill myself or anyone near to me, but it was close many times

[stonedfly]

oh and find a couple strains that can trigger you both ways...

knockout indicas to ground you and a uplifting sativa to pull the goblin outta your head.

Croissant you are obsessed

[ReikoX]

Bipolar is a serious illness that requires medical professionals both to diagnose as well as to treat. When I was your age, I was misdiagnosed as having anxiety disorder and was put on a string of anti-depressants before finding one that worked for my "anxiety".
That worked for a while but the problem was it superseded the depression which left me always manic. Years later I had a traumatic event that sent me over the edge. I became angry and violent. I got delusional and would do things out of character yet have no recollection. Finally I started cycling multiple times a day. I was about to commit myself, but managed to get into a therapist and psychiatrist.
For almost a year we tried different medications to get things under control, some helped, some had nasty side effects. As part of this treatment (along with PTSD) I got on the medical cannabis program.
Of all the strains I've tried the high CBD strains work the best on my mania. For me a 1:1 THC:CBD ratio is best. I am currently growing Juanita de Lagrimosa for this very reason. This works for me better than any kind of tranquilizer.
Another thing that helps me stabilize my mood is a combination of fish oil and vitamin E.
More than anything the professional help and medications have helped me get my life on track and manage my mood swing. I still have them, but they are less frequent and not a serious. Without both a therapist and a psychiatrist I would be dead, in jail, or in a mental hospital right now.

[hermdog]

Tahoe OG is taking care of me, I've been practicing patience and mindfulness.
The last week I've gotten 7-8hrs of sleep, I've stayed motivated and on point with tasks and plans, and I don't have a negative voice in my mind filling me with doubt anymore.
The few slip ups where I rush with something or think something negative I've been able to catch myself before they get out of control.
I know I'm on a path of healing now, I can't remember having such a sustained even mood without pharmaceuticals.

I'm really enjoying my perpetual grow now, I know this plant is the only medicine I need.
I have some enjoyable harvests coming soon.

[Easy7]

I'm schizoaffective, it's bi-polar with traits of schizophrenia. I've only smoked once in the past five years, this spring. I do know that it's like smoking anything else, it works better when you use it religiously. I'd rather smoke cannabis or tobacco all the time like normal or not at all. It's too much of a head game to want something and not have it. I also suggest having a stable life. A home, income and people you can rely on and trust with your love!

I hope to smoke and grow again. All I have now that's an attachment to cannabis is the internet. Not even buying seeds anymore until I know I can be secure in the pursuit.

I've done a lot of psychedelics and was usually darn good at handling my shit. Stay away from PCP, don't trust other people's stash. Some shit bag sooner or later passes something wet.

Maybe meds would be more stable for you. I know the path of the shaman is criminal in western society. I know I require drugs stronger than my illness. It is a spiritual illness at it's core.

Balance and stability

[Runt]

PS a lot of people nowadays are given the dg "bipolar type II" which is a rather new phenomena and could be linked to using SSRI´s for extended periods. The pros are talking about a "kindling effect" which essentially that your serotonergic system is on overload for so long that the condition appears to be bipolar but is actually a side effect of the extended mediciation.

[Easy7]

There was an article in Discover magazine sometime in 2001. They showed pics of microscopic neurons which exploded from SSRI's. Somehow these drugs are legal and favored over cannabis?