[hermdog]

I think I want to keep this simple, I've seen both God and Baphomet with my naked eyes in the last six months, the latter last week. I know my purpose here now and I'm a man of God now.

Words of advice, depression is not your enemy, giving into the fast paced, self centered life is. Thank you all, you're angeles whether you know it or not.

[Ph-patrol]

Hermdog if things are becoming to difficult.You can go to a emergency room and tell them what your going threw and you will get instant help.
Hospitalization can be the start of getting your life back in some cases.

Take care PH

[jesbuds]

Originally Posted by Croissant

You are on the right path though looking for someone else to connect with to work through your stuff, just please for your own sake go to someone trained to guide you through it. When you are in a vulnerable state reaching and out someone that is psychotic may seem like they have all the answers and be attractive as a person to connect to. I am warning you I have seen it before ; on here even and recently.

I recommend you find yourself a psychoanalyst preferably from a Lacanian orientation and expect to dedicate several years to analysis. There are no quick fixes or shortcuts as those are only forms of repression and self policing.

Really good advice.

Glad you've found your purpose and path. I'm by no means a man of religion but can respect how people can benefit from it. All the best man.

[hermdog]

I've never felt more purpose in my life, thanks for the concern Ph.
I think it would be most ironic to calmly walk into a hospital with crosses on the walls and declare to them I found God and all his prophets in my heart, please sedate me.

[Runt]

I was given a bipolar dg (type II) years ago and did all the meds: lithium, SSRI´s, benzos and you name it. Cognitive analytic therapy helped a lot and last summer I went to Peru for a period and tried ayahuasca and since that I´ve been in pretty good balance. I wouldn´t say I´m cured but at least it seems to be dormant for the first time in 30 years.

[Croissant]

hermdude,

if you are having the sort of experiences you claim. I very very highly recommend a Lacanian or Jungian analyst with my preference towards the Lacanian. Within their training they focus very strongly on the symbolism that seems to be a strong part of your experience. Most other modalities will be dismissive to those aspects although you may find a good therapist that strays from their training and the dehumanizing medical gaze.

[DemonTrich]

42 and have bi polar (lithium 600mg x 2 daily) and Depakote (500mg er daily). super shitty disease to have. meds, suck, and the holidays are even worse as im in a "funk" from mid nov to mid jan. I just harvested a new strain, cannatonic4 cbd. I haven't had her tested yet, but it surely makes me super chill vs my other 7 strains I grow. kinda like super laid back and "level", you know what I mean. and my g/f.. wife of sorts, doesn't NOT believe in any of these types of diseases (depression, bi polar, ect), but she is in fact the looniest bitch ive ever known in my 42 yrs of living. she needs the hardest of hard core drugs, but denial is huge with her. if I didnt have a 2yr old son with her, id be gone last week.

[CoCoSativas]

Originally Posted by DemonTrich

42 and have bi polar (lithium 600mg x 2 daily) and Depakote (500mg er daily). super shitty disease to have. meds, suck, and the holidays are even worse as im in a "funk" from mid nov to mid jan. I just harvested a new strain, cannatonic4 cbd. I haven't had her tested yet, but it surely makes me super chill vs my other 7 strains I grow. kinda like super laid back and "level", you know what I mean. and my g/f.. wife of sorts, doesn't NOT believe in any of these types of diseases (depression, bi polar, ect), but she is in fact the looniest bitch ive ever known in my 42 yrs of living. she needs the hardest of hard core drugs, but denial is huge with her. if I didnt have a 2yr old son with her, id be gone last week.

Bummer dude. Sorry to hear that. I hope your strain you harvested helps.

Reef offers some neat looking cbd crosses, willie and og (fire) the willie they state still has high thc phenos but can find nice cbd phenos too, and a buddy said he loved the cbd og

[Croissant]

anyway hermdog,

you call him baphomet, well I have seen him too. WHen you were little he used to be your imaginary friend like in the movie inside out. I seen him when I had sleep paralysis, they call him "the hat man." He is in movies often, willy wonka, freddy kreuger, V from v for vendetta, Woody in toy story, morpheous, the ghost of christmass past etc.



he might appear to younger folks as a dinosaur because of barney. They comment on that in the film death to smoochie. as you see there is the hat man and smoochie who is basically barny.

[Croissant]

you see in inside out this is him. basically a combination of the hat man, barney, the cat from alice in wonderland with a huge nose which represents the phalice.

here he is in Egyptian religion as Osiris. Notice the hat and phallic chin like the trunk on the character from inside out.