Wishing you the best friend.

[mdk ktm]

I feel ya bro, I am dealing with the same shit. I have been on suboxone for the last few months, and it really does help. I tried quitting cold turkey a few times, and made it to about 10 days both times, and something would trigger me to go find any opiate. I was going through some horrible things when I tried to quit, and I was suicidal... If you are not in a good mental state, I would advise not quitting and going with suboxone.

I was spending 4-500 a week on anything I could get my hands on. And now being on suboxone for these few months has given me time to try and overcome my depression and other issues. I have made a little progress but you would be surprised how long it takes until you are mentally ready to quit. After awhile you get over the urge to want to be nodded all day. You can hit me up with a PM anytime.

suboxone will not give you the feeling of being faded, it just gives you time to not be sick and get shit straightened out IMO.

and why dilaudid man? Is that all that's available?

asking for help is a great start. you're on way to recovery. the word tells us to pray without ceasing and to believe without doubting. train is only physical you obviously are cognizant of the situation all you have to do is beat the withdraw with the power of your mind. you know that prayer helps so, help yourself by taking the time to read the word beginning to end. feed you mind and nourish your soul and you will come through the tunnel far better of then when you entered into the darkness. God bless you, i have you in my prayers.

[Natagonnaworrie]

Hey Bro lots of people thinking of you here and many that have gone through what you have too..

Just keep us posted in how you're doing... Everyone needs a little help sometimes.

[HerbGlaze]

I want to thank all of you for the kind words and support, I really do need it.
Much love to all!

I went to a local recovery center and talked to a counselor who said I might wanna get on a Suboxone program to help me with the withdrawals because with the rate I was "slamming" this crap it can be dangerous to my health just completely stopping.

Its hard to avoid all these things that trigger my use, i live in a small town of 12,000 people and I see my "user" friends everywhere and they constantly ask me for some or if I need some. So its extremely hard to escape this.

Here is how my first day went... overall it was a disappointment.

I woke up feeling completely rested, later on I went to town to get some groceries and someone I know wanted a 20 sack so i kindly donated it to him. By now i'm back home and its 24 hours since my last "hit", i'm having a full blown anxiety attack sweating my balls off in my bed, then all of a sudden freezing, then i go downstairs and puke and I look in the mirrior and my pupils are literally the size of dinner plates, it looked like I was on LSD. I couldn't help it, i called a friend and recieved a standard dose i usually do which is 8mg of Dilaudid. I feel completely normal now, but i just can't stop completely. I guess ill wheen myself off because for me just doing one shot a day is a great step in the right direction.

Keep praying...

Much love to IC!

[Murphle]

Pushin positive vibes your way!

As a ex coke abuser from the late '70's I feel ya bro. Although on the opposite end of the coin the consequences are the same in the end.
Stand strong and let your inner voice from your HEART control you. The beast can be beat. NEVER, EVER give up.
Prayers and good vibe your way bro.
EDIT: Sometimes it's hard to go this alone. If you need to seek help from a qualified individual that's been through it as well then do so. You'll be thankful in the end.
Just remember like me and others you'll fight the beast every day. But it does get easier every day you say NO.

[kmk420kali]

Originally Posted by HerbGlaze

I want to thank all of you for the kind words and support, I really do need it.
Much love to all!

I went to a local recovery center and talked to a counselor who said I might wanna get on a Suboxone program to help me with the withdrawals because with the rate I was "slamming" this crap it can be dangerous to my health just completely stopping.

Its hard to avoid all these things that trigger my use, i live in a small town of 12,000 people and I see my "user" friends everywhere and they constantly ask me for some or if I need some. So its extremely hard to escape this.

Here is how my first day went... overall it was a disappointment.

I woke up feeling completely rested, later on I went to town to get some groceries and someone I know wanted a 20 sack so i kindly donated it to him. By now i'm back home and its 24 hours since my last "hit", i'm having a full blown anxiety attack sweating my balls off in my bed, then all of a sudden freezing, then i go downstairs and puke and I look in the mirrior and my pupils are literally the size of dinner plates, it looked like I was on LSD. I couldn't help it, i called a friend and recieved a standard dose i usually do which is 8mg of Dilaudid. I feel completely normal now, but i just can't stop completely. I guess ill wheen myself off because for me just doing one shot a day is a great step in the right direction.

Keep praying...

Much love to IC!

No excuses bro-- Better luck tomorrow-- I'm pulling for you!!

[mean mr.mustard]

Originally Posted by Sleepy

please find a way to stop before you are gone.

please stop.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSYKe...eature=related

Be good.

We're praying for you.

Much love!

[Trichromedout]

Hey brother wishing you the best of luck on the most important and difficult undertaking you will ever make. Going cold turkey is not a great idea medically or otherwise. I've been clean for almost 7 years by way of methadone taper detox, but I don't recommend that except for a last resort after you have tried a few other things.
1) Move somewhere you don't know anyone that uses and into a place with someone that doesn't use.
2) Cut off all ties to those that do use and delete all those phone numbers. Eventually you will even forget them mentally if you don't call them long enough.
3) Have a few people that love you be your support network. People you can call to talk to when you get cravings or start thinking irrationally. These should be the only kind of people in your life if you are really serious about this which it sounds like you are.
Be willing to change everything in order to get better. I had to move from one coast to the other and be willing to start fresh to have a shot at it. It is possible but 90% of us don't make it. You can be one of those that beats the statistics just don't underestimate the power of an opiate addiction.
My recommendation is that you do an inpatient treatment for 20-30 days then move somewhere far away... If that is not possible then try to make it possible.
Fuck old places and things man, the future is so much better after each single minute of being clean, it just takes a few weeks to get through the really tough parts, check in somewhere if you can.
PM me if you wanna talk. You can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trichromedout