[Stoner4Life]

Hey Brendon, I won't wish you luck because it takes more than that to stay sober, instead I wish that you continue to find the strength & fortitude to live life in a state of sobriety. You do this for yourself of course & then secondly for your loved ones as well, as you grow older & more mature (an addict since 17? you're still immature. pls don't be insulted by this) you'll realize the fear that you've instilled in all of those around you, and for several reasons.

Smoke weed, it helped me through the toughest times as I tried (successfully) to quit cocaine/freebase/crack. I was addicted for nearly 9 yrs. This August 1st I get to celebrate 30 yrs of sobriety, and I can tell you this, "I ain't NEVER turning back to that shit!"

You & I have a lot in common in our 'maturing' into the drug scene, I started smoking weed in the '68/'69 school year, that was 7th grade for me @ 12 yrs old. I drank hard (no cigs though) and never turned away from an opportunity to party, I didn't know how to say no. Those were the yrs of 'free love' and I had my share of sweet young gals over the years as well, never really respecting monogamy.

By the time I started freebasing (1980) it was too late for me to make intelligent life choice decisions, I thought that this was gods gift to me, nothing made me feel better than basing. All those years, I really thought I was having a good time, I was F'ing sick!

One day in mid June of '88 I woke up feeling like a bag of poop, I promised myself to never feel that way again; I waited about 5/6 weeks for the weather to clear of rain so I could start my cross country motorcycle ride, looking for a quiet place in the midwest to stay sober. On Aug 1st I found that place, the hometown in which my father was born, way up north in Minnesota.

Although mid June was really my sobriety date I prefer to call it Aug. 1st as that's when I landed in a place where I could find some inner peace.

Staying sober for me meant more than just staying away from coke, quitting cold turkey is fine but I needed to replace drugs with something else; my return to nature, all my life I'd enjoyed hunting & fishing, now I lived in the land of plenty!

I called this 'replacement therapy' because you just can't take something away from a person (especially an addicted one) w/o giving them something else that's fulfilling to do with their time. Find a real hobby, rekindle and old passion of yours, would that be skateboarding for you?

If you don't feel like boarding then maybe try buying/selling skateboard decks, I understand some are very collectible. I still buy & sell classic antique bone handled Remington knives on eBay. I've made a bunch of money on them too. I'll assume that w/o spending on drugs & booze that you might have a few bucks to invest in a hobby.

I mentioned this in my 1st posts here, stay away from any and all alcohol. It's a depressant & will very quickly break down your willpower to remain sober. Stay away from any and all of your old cronies, including & especially addicted chicks, nothing will make your mind mushy faster than that.

You're fortunate for living in Oregon, a weed legal state, use cannabis to keep your mind away from that smack, I stayed sober thanks also in part to weed which I/we don't consider a drug. find a variety that calms and satisfies you.

It's gonna be 30 yrs for me quite soon and even though I didn't succeed at all my life goals after that sobriety began I don't have a single regret in the world, I'm satisfied with who I am and where I am today.

Enjoy your sobriety Brendon.......

[HerbGlaze]

Prayers and good vibes
I can always count on ICMAG, swear Im emotional over this forum. Such a big part of my journey.. struggle and youth. Part of me still feels indestructible. Not being in a relationship sure is new and strange.

Thank you Cannabis Family!

[Joint Lock]

U got this bro u ever need anyone talk to (listen) who wont judge you pm me .

[Spaventa]

You found the will, the intent to win this and not let IT destroy you - I say hats off to you already and I sincerely wish you all the strength you need

[redlaser]

I’m aware of very few people who were able to quite opiates or cocaine without some type of “bottoming out” occurrence in their life. Either heath/medical wise, legal or financially.

The severity of that bottoming out varies, not good to use others as a yardstick for how much can be withstood. Mileage may vary. Can be hard to predict an eternal nap when you feel invinceable.

[944s2]

I wish you all the very best,,,
keep on keeping on,,,,,s2

[JustSumTomatoes]

On the positive side of things I forgot to mention that I have had many friends overcome opiate/opioid addiction and survive against the odds considering how bad there addiction was and the environment they were in. One in particular, I was positive wasn't going to make it through. Somehow he did and is doing great living smack free and being successful at skateboarding again. It really is amazing what hardships people can survive.

I have the upmost confidence in you Brendon, and believe you will be successful given your determination and what you have been through already. You got this man.

[Medfinder]

Originally Posted by HerbGlaze

Prayers and good vibes
I can always count on ICMAG, swear Im emotional over this forum. Such a big part of my journey.. struggle and youth. Part of me still feels indestructible. Not being in a relationship sure is new and strange.

Thank you Cannabis Family!

been down some addiction roads and had a pin cushion for an arm myself.

you mention church.

ive been an member at many churches.

60,000 churches and religions out there.

God has said our ways are not his ways.

after what ive been through... even on TV with benie hinn that blasted me of my feet twice ... i gave glory to God not to benny.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a54iqEr1flQ

God said the Gospel is preached to the poor.

where do the poor hang out? the dollar store, thats where the real bible is. king james bible.

see...there are now 400 bibles that are patented and copyrighted and don't say the same thing.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_o...h_translations

first believe that jesus is the son of God and repent of your sins and be baptized for the remission of your dins at a church from the bible.

the church of Christ. the one that is in the bible.


King James Version
Salute one another with an holy kiss. The churches of Christ salute you.

no other foundation can any man lay than christ.

people want to do things there way.

i am praying that what you have been through will lead you to the truth of the word of God and set you free in christ jesus amen.

[OakyJoe]

wishing you all the best!

[HerbGlaze]

Originally Posted by Medfinder

been down some addiction roads and had a pin cushion for an arm myself.

you mention church.

ive been an member at many churches.

60,000 churches and religions out there.

God has said our ways are not his ways.

after what ive been through... even on TV with benie hinn that blasted me of my feet twice ... i gave glory to God not to benny.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a54iqEr1flQ

God said the Gospel is preached to the poor.

where do the poor hang out? the dollar store, thats where the real bible is. king james bible.

see...there are now 400 bibles that are patented and copyrighted and don't say the same thing.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_o...h_translations

first believe that jesus is the son of God and repent of your sins and be baptized for the remission of your dins at a church from the bible.

the church of Christ. the one that is in the bible.


King James Version
Salute one another with an holy kiss. The churches of Christ salute you.

no other foundation can any man lay than christ.

people want to do things there way.

i am praying that what you have been through will lead you to the truth of the word of God and set you free in christ jesus amen.

Thank you, I've studied philosophy because its always interested me. Mainly Eastern! More practical and easier that's for sure. Christianity is awesome too. I consider myself to have a relationship with Christ. Just don't really walk the talk so I try not to preach the gospel. Still love a lot of things that I choose not to let go of quite yet. Nicotine is so evil, same with the women I tend to fall for! ��