[Moonshine*]

So I spent another 3 days in the hospital last week. I formed a huge abscess in my pelvis/abdomen that had to be drained before it ruptured into my abdomen. Now they are telling me that Im going to have to be cut wide Fuk'n open to remove the dead tissue and cauterize the spot where the abscess formed. WTF???? Absolutely ridiculous.

Between the Surgeries, Chemotherapy, the Pain and Depression and feeling of hopelessness are overwhelming.

Im either really happy and ready to get well or ready to have Dr Kevorkian on speed dial.

The roller coaster of emotions and feelings have me ready to get off and not ever wanting to ride that ride again.

Just when life seems to be getting somewhat back to normal something goes wrong and it all gets weird and complicated again.

Moonshine

[Abja Roots]

Just try and stay up MSM. Was thinking about you the other day and all the opportunities you were considering out there, with your restored health. You'll make it through again.

Stay strong for your friends and family as well as the community which benefits from having you as a member.

I'm sure you've seen enough of life to know how crazy it is. Something positive to try and cheer you up.

[Irie_Lion]

Hang in there bredren....life is full of ups and downs and Jah know u been thru quite a few just from the few posts ive read. Good vibez and prayers your way wishing all turns out positive & that You get back on the road to recovery!!! Take care Moonshine

[SELFHEMPLOYED]

I pray for you, good luck with the recovery and remember that a positive attitude can accomplish impossible goals.

[unclefishstick]

stay strong and finish healing MSM,sounds like life is waiting for you to grasp it,small steps bro!

[MagdaAndBernie]

Every night seems endless when you have health problems, but sure as shootin' the light comes back and all is beautiful again. Just hang in there, and the light and beauty will come back. If you accept the pain and procedures as just a necessary consequence of the healing, it will all be OK. Know that you, and your work, are loved and appreciated, hang on, it will get better.

[monkey5]

Moonshine, Please keep your head up brother! We are praying for you! Keep thinking good thoughts! When your thoughts are not possitive..talk with some one you trust! And remember we are praying for you! I still have some of your goodness! I'd love for you to see it grown out on here! Thank You for all you have done, brother! monkey5

[zenoonez]

No matter how bad the bads are, just keep the good times in mind and let the light shine in man. Keep your head up.

[Moonshine*]

Thanks ya'll. Been a tough few weeks. Trying to look and act positive while feeling so bad is a tough mask to wear. I do a pretty good job. Though if I need to look and act like a sick dude it doesnt take much to switch over. Came in handy the other night. I wasnt feeling good and had to speak at a city council meeting I watched the video replay and I look sick as hell. works in my favor sometimes.

[Easy Skanking]

Keep your head up MSM! The amazing work that you do helps so many other people to be able to maintain a better quality of life. Hopefully all of your pain will eventually go away and leave you knowing that you survived the worst and now only have good things coming to you!