[Moonshine*]

Back into the doc's office on Tuesday........Cant seem to get well.....Getting over the last batch of chemo was hell....Now Im having all sorts of pain and nerve issues from the surgery I had in early Jan......10 out of 10 on the pain scale type of stuff....

I keep joking that I think the doc left a sponge or something in me........Im starting to believe maybe he did....

Moonshine

[RESINvention]

Moonshine bro, my deepest thoughts are with ya and I am praying for a full and painless recovery. The power of thought is very influencing, so I hope you are in good thoughts and in very good company, and if not, just remember we are all blasting yah with rays of light and love from here, always. Peace to you my friend.

Hang in there Moonshine :-) You are tougher than you ever know.
Ever need to talk, I have a good ear :-)

[Grapevine Seeds]

so sorry to hear of your troubles moonshine...
i hope you are feeling better pronto and make
a quick and painless recovery!

[DoobieDuck]

Moonshine I hate to hear of anyone in pain..hope you find some relief..you have many friends here if you need to visit..DD

[Moonshine*]

Thanks Everyone......Ive come to appreciate over the last 4 or 5 months what great friends I have here at home and on the net .....The power of prayer and positive thinking is a very amazing thing.....I wish I could say, I stay as positive as I should.....But as anyone who as dealt with a chronic issue the pain wears on you to a point ya just cant deal with it anymore....

I do my best to show up to work everyday with a good attitude and the understanding there are a whole lot of people in a lot worse shape than I am.....Ive always been a fairly thick skinned person, heck you have to be to be a grower or a seedmaker....This whole cancer thing has deffinitely put a few puncture wounds through that thickness.....

bout to head out the door to the Dr's.........fun,fun.....

MSM

[Moonshine*]

.... nother round of cipro, lingering infection not gone yet...Im starting to think whatever the infection is its pretty bad ass.....it survived chemo and 60 days worth of antibiotics starting way back in Dec......new form of superbug.....

of course he had to throw in that it could also be risidual cancer cells spreading throughout the area as well........unlikely , though.....I thanked him for adding that, what an ass.........I have CT and PET scans again in 3 weeks with blood tests.......

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRG GGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

I feel better now....

MSM

Hate to hear that man.
I hope you pull through.

[jochen_45]

Hello Moonshine,

When I hear how strong your pain is, I get a shower,`cause I know what that means, I was serious ill too and I`m so lucky to be without symptoms the 7.th`s year now. But the pain I will never forget, I had a lot of doctors talking lot of shit, like they would know how I felt.
It needed a lot of time until I met a doctor, who had the intention to take the pain away first, as much as he could with strong medics like morphin, oxycodon usw. That in combination with some benzodiacepin could handle the pain a little bit and it did it much more than all medics before. Cannabis and opiates are also working together and will give you some bodyrelaxing time. I dont know, if you get those strong painkillers, but you should, because no one can stand that without them, you will not have any quality in life. I´m sorry that I can`t help you more but I will pray for you, my brother! If you need information about medics and pharmacas, call me, I have studied pharmacie. I wish you a long life without depression and pain and I`ll think of you.
Take care,
Jochen

[Moonshine*]

Thanks for the replies and prayers.....Living with pain everyday sux...

Currently, the pain left behind by my surgery and chemo is about as bad as anything Ive ever gone through....Ive woken up everyday this year is some sort of horrible condition.....Im unable to medicate with narcotics due to allergic reactions to synthesized medications......So Im left to puff my brains out, vape hash, consume edibles till I puke and unfortunately herb only does so much and the shockwaves of pain are getting worse.......

I told my wife that I dont feel like myself anymore, Im a shadow of my former self, a much weaker, beat down, hurting shadow.....If I didnt have such a wonderful group of family and friends I honestly dont think I could keep going everyday in the shape im in.....

I am very thankful that my cancer was caught early and what Ive undergone ,though major, is minuscule in comparison to what some people are going through.....

I just need to get over this hump and get back into the swing of things.....My garden is looking spectacular, now, if I can get to feeling as happy as my plants are, life will be good.....