insomniac_AU
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Man that's rough. Don't get too down on yourself. Life can just be like that. As you have found you can also have long periods of good things happening.Hi all. You know, its hard to express my frustration here in words. It seems as though life has it in for me the last couple years. Maybe I am paying for all the nice life I have had in the past, not rich but nice none the less. Found mites on all my stuff today. Been fighting them and thought I had it handled but no....there everywhere. Moms, clones, flowering stuff....hundreds... This is like the last thing I really needed in my life right now.
I got like zero budget for fixes, nearly out of meds and not really sure if I can even get this crop another 3 or 4 weeks to finish. I made a big move last year and took a chance of a lifetime on working on a farm and mining crypto. Got scammed out of all my wages and the dude stole the mining rig. That was a real big set back for me emotionally and financially. Then not a week later I had one of my dogs die unexpectedly. My dogs are my life and another devastation for me. Now here I am a year later. I am unemployed, depressed and crypto mining is banned where I live as well as outdoor growing....I mean wow legal state my asshole. The 2 things that motivated me ever in life was weed tech and crypto.
Alright I had my rant. I am not looking for sympathy I just needed a place to vent my fucking feelings before I go fucking off the wall.
Just spent the last 7 hours bleaching and cleaning what I can. Throwing out clones and some moms. I am going to try to save my GG4 mom. I mean I have never had better and I cannot bear to lose it. No idea how I would even try to replace it. I have NO contacts in the weed game even though I am in a legal state.
So I load a bowl of the 3 year old outdoor I have and ponder what the fuck...
negative.
I think anyone who has grown for more than a couple of years has been there. The last time I had the Borg was 2015. I'm not trying to advise you but if it was me I'd nuke them from orbit immediately. Get rid of everything (with the possible exception of the prize mother) and fumigate and clean the whole set up. It sucks I know but if the techniques you use to get rid of the mites don't work you're just prolonging the time it will be till next crop. You've already lost the crop you have to decide how much time you're prepared to lose in addition to the crop. Smile mate, things will improve.