hey IC . . . umm . . . really going through a dilemma here.
reeeally thinking about chopping #3 early as to have a lil to blaze on. been jonesin' real bad for a lil bit of something.
cant copp from anyone around my way cause i cant do that, its the area and the fact that i grow.
things are kinda tight right now so no real way to copp anything from who i know, that would be a trip into NY, short as it may be when youve got those responsibilities indulgences just don't seem as simple as they used to, can seem down right flagrant.
cant just make a call and get a dub like i used to, gotta rely on self these days.
its been 6 weeks so far into flower BUT since i dont count the first two wks its actually 8.
i admit im looking for reasons, since its been so long. havent really thought about it, but once i started to i realized how long its been . . . . hooooh this is tough!
my rule so far has been to not smoke anything until i smoke my own, once ive got plants in the ground especially in flower, ive always been able to wait but right now im feelin like pooky.
i feel like im becoming a regular stiff or average joe, the couple of tats and piercings are starting to seem mundane, i dont feel "counter culture" at all. . . i feel its starting to slip away.
i feel like by my growing im not making/taking a stand, not making a difference if im not smoking my own!! its just not right, feels off to me to not be smoking my own.
i think just a lil taste, but then i go and smell the plants. i figure "hey whats the difference, its just bagseed anyway right?" BUT THEN i smell it . . . it smell like orange peels, fresh orange peels!
i look at it, you know , reeeeally look at it and alot of the trichs are cloudy very few are clear and very few are amber BUT there are more amber than clear and mostly cloudy.
aawwwwe! this is tough you guys. i start to think, i know i need to ditch it, but how can i not keep anything, not even one for myself? what would be the sense in growing right.
its just a taste it wont hurt anything right.i try to watch tv, hang out with the wife, play with the baby BUT i cant get that smell outta my head and nose!!! it looks so good! some brown hairs some white, dont even need to microscope to see the trichs man!!
awwwwwe -ahh!! this is soo hard!
i know im supposed to wait, i should wait. . .. but ive worked hard right? ive put in the work right? dont i deserve it? reap what you sow and all that? i tooka chance on some bagseed and look at what i got!! best damned bagseed ive ever seen by far and i grew the plants, me!! i did that, i put those seeds in there, shouldnt i be able to "reap what i sow" ???
im on the ledge ya'll . . . gonna go and walk around the house a lil, go watch something on demand or some shit, try to take my mind off of it all, try to keep busy.
im gonna try guys wish me luck
reeeally thinking about chopping #3 early as to have a lil to blaze on. been jonesin' real bad for a lil bit of something.
cant copp from anyone around my way cause i cant do that, its the area and the fact that i grow.
things are kinda tight right now so no real way to copp anything from who i know, that would be a trip into NY, short as it may be when youve got those responsibilities indulgences just don't seem as simple as they used to, can seem down right flagrant.
cant just make a call and get a dub like i used to, gotta rely on self these days.
its been 6 weeks so far into flower BUT since i dont count the first two wks its actually 8.
i admit im looking for reasons, since its been so long. havent really thought about it, but once i started to i realized how long its been . . . . hooooh this is tough!
my rule so far has been to not smoke anything until i smoke my own, once ive got plants in the ground especially in flower, ive always been able to wait but right now im feelin like pooky.
i feel like im becoming a regular stiff or average joe, the couple of tats and piercings are starting to seem mundane, i dont feel "counter culture" at all. . . i feel its starting to slip away.
i feel like by my growing im not making/taking a stand, not making a difference if im not smoking my own!! its just not right, feels off to me to not be smoking my own.
i think just a lil taste, but then i go and smell the plants. i figure "hey whats the difference, its just bagseed anyway right?" BUT THEN i smell it . . . it smell like orange peels, fresh orange peels!
i look at it, you know , reeeeally look at it and alot of the trichs are cloudy very few are clear and very few are amber BUT there are more amber than clear and mostly cloudy.
aawwwwe! this is tough you guys. i start to think, i know i need to ditch it, but how can i not keep anything, not even one for myself? what would be the sense in growing right.
its just a taste it wont hurt anything right.i try to watch tv, hang out with the wife, play with the baby BUT i cant get that smell outta my head and nose!!! it looks so good! some brown hairs some white, dont even need to microscope to see the trichs man!!
awwwwwe -ahh!! this is soo hard!
i know im supposed to wait, i should wait. . .. but ive worked hard right? ive put in the work right? dont i deserve it? reap what you sow and all that? i tooka chance on some bagseed and look at what i got!! best damned bagseed ive ever seen by far and i grew the plants, me!! i did that, i put those seeds in there, shouldnt i be able to "reap what i sow" ???
im on the ledge ya'll . . . gonna go and walk around the house a lil, go watch something on demand or some shit, try to take my mind off of it all, try to keep busy.
im gonna try guys wish me luck