Severe Depression

[MedScientist]

WooHoo! Same Concept, different Metaphor!

Either way, and many more... as you make Peace with your Thoughts, you Release the Subliminal TRIGGERS (Habits), and you are FREE to CREATE your own NEW/BETTER THOUGHT PROCESSES!

Hopefully, those that have Not discovered that they TRULY are the Masters of their Mind, will give it a GO!

 

[Red Berry]

have you ever been hunting or fishing b4 ?

 

[AltarNation]

WooHoo! Same Concept, different Metaphor!

Either way, and many more... as you make Peace with your Thoughts, you Release the Subliminal TRIGGERS (Habits), and you are FREE to CREATE your own NEW/BETTER THOUGHT PROCESSES!

Yarrrr... good show MadScientist... appreciate the talk-through as I'm totally getting triggered a lot on a conscious level simultaneously today, lol. So it's good medicine to be able to come back and re-read this stuff too.

 

[Ph-patrol]

I am seeing some amazing dialogue from some new comers and old. With a great spirit of wellness and help. I have not bin contributing and that's not right. I want to apologize for my part in recent posts made by me. That being said I shall not create any new post on that subject matter. Because I'm not bringing any thing positive to you fine people.

Case Closed PH-patrol

 

[MedScientist]

I am seeing some amazing dialogue from some new comers and old. With a great spirit of wellness and help. I have not bin contributing and that's not right. I want to apologize for my part in recent posts made by me. That being said I shall not create any new post on that subject matter. Because I'm not bringing any thing positive to you fine people.

Case Closed PH-patrol

Apology not needed for a Simple Mis-understanding and/or ACCEPTED.... you choose!

I DO appreciate YOU and your Input!

So... stay and Play?

 

[Ph-patrol]

I'm still in the sand box with the rest of you.

Thanks for the support Med

 

[AltarNation]

I had to just let it all go. LET IT FUCKING GO!! All that shit that I did that was making me hate myself was in the past. Say thank you to all the people you hurt, to all pain , to all the despair, Thank you for pushing me to a place of freedom. Your free now to get up go outside and start fresh. Pic up an old childhood hobby like fishing or kite flying, not break dancing though, and just start over. And when you fill your days with actively thanking the past for todays opportunites youll find the past easier to live with and can focus on today. depression sucks but its beatable. Peace

Amen Sir... well said! I would like but I can't like yet.

 

[AltarNation]

I'm still in the sand box with the rest of you.

Thanks for the support Med

Stick around fo sho... you guys were just trying to find some clear understanding through the limited medium of language... it happens. Everyone had good intentions, semantics can be a bitch sometimes.

Glad to have found a forum with a heartfelt vibe... riu was going downhill with an endless glut of trolls and endless meme-posting... ugh.

Having a bit of a hard time in life in general as I have been planning to move/buy a place but having a hard time making it happen due to circumstances and financial limitations... it's coming around but I'm really burnt out now because it takes so much effort for me to conquer big things like that. And winter's sneaking up quick and making it feel more hopeless to get it done before the season hits.

Combine that with tolerance build up and only have a little low quality bud now, so my levels are fluctuating a bit and it's more challenging to keep straight with the horizon, so to speak.

But keeping a fair shake about it... trying to keep myself right. Had a little bit of a meltdown earlier but got on top of it before making too much of a scene, so that's always nice, heh.

I was thinking about how one of the hardest parts of getting over a depressive episode is that I have to sheepishly acknowledge that I was out of control and that I am regaining control. That has a really weird effect on my relationships, where I feel really guilty and end up apologizing "yet again" to people who are really tired of hearing me apologize at this point. For me, this guilt is often what I am subconsciously avoiding until I finally do acknowledge that I am in control in this way... and even then it becomes a whole 'nother ball-game when that happens because guilt itself is an excuse to maintain the depressed state, thereby prolonging the actual resolution and thereby exacerbating the guilt even further.

So I'm working on seeing a way to identify the guilt quickly and move through it instead of getting caught in a sense of being ashamed of having been a burden upon others.

Anyhoo... just some thoughts I thought I'd share since I'm here... peace y'all.

 

[Ph-patrol]

Stick around fo sho... you guys were just trying to find some clear understanding through the limited medium of language... it happens. Everyone had good intentions, semantics can be a bitch sometimes.

Glad to have found a forum with a heartfelt vibe... riu was going downhill with an endless glut of trolls and endless meme-posting... ugh.

Having a bit of a hard time in life in general as I have been planning to move/buy a place but having a hard time making it happen due to circumstances and financial limitations... it's coming around but I'm really burnt out now because it takes so much effort for me to conquer big things like that. And winter's sneaking up quick and making it feel more hopeless to get it done before the season hits.

Combine that with tolerance build up and only have a little low quality bud now, so my levels are fluctuating a bit and it's more challenging to keep straight with the horizon, so to speak.

But keeping a fair shake about it... trying to keep myself right. Had a little bit of a meltdown earlier but got on top of it before making too much of a scene, so that's always nice, heh.

I was thinking about how one of the hardest parts of getting over a depressive episode is that I have to sheepishly acknowledge that I was out of control and that I am regaining control. That has a really weird effect on my relationships, where I feel really guilty and end up apologizing "yet again" to people who are really tired of hearing me apologize at this point. For me, this guilt is often what I am subconsciously avoiding until I finally do acknowledge that I am in control in this way... and even then it becomes a whole 'nother ball-game when that happens because guilt itself is an excuse to maintain the depressed state, thereby prolonging the actual resolution and thereby exacerbating the guilt even further.

So I'm working on seeing a way to identify the guilt quickly and move through it instead of getting caught in a sense of being ashamed of having been a burden upon others.

Anyhoo... just some thoughts I thought I'd share since I'm here... peace y'all.

Altar you seem to have breathed some new well needed life into this thread. I think you may not realize but you helped open the drapes and let the sunshine in.

So your on the cusp of moving. Some times a change of scenery can be the start of new beginning. My heart goes out to you on the tress that goes along with it.

When it comes to shame. Don't do it. You don't need to and its harming. If I make a mistake I fix it and move on. I know I know easer said than done.

Your a beautiful person and smart to boot. Your partner is crazy about you.

Guaranteed

 

[MedScientist]

Stick around fo sho... you guys were just trying to find some clear understanding through the limited medium of language... it happens. Everyone had good intentions, semantics can be a bitch sometimes.

Glad to have found a forum with a heartfelt vibe... riu was going downhill with an endless glut of trolls and endless meme-posting... ugh.

Having a bit of a hard time in life in general as I have been planning to move/buy a place but having a hard time making it happen due to circumstances and financial limitations... it's coming around but I'm really burnt out now because it takes so much effort for me to conquer big things like that. And winter's sneaking up quick and making it feel more hopeless to get it done before the season hits.

Combine that with tolerance build up and only have a little low quality bud now, so my levels are fluctuating a bit and it's more challenging to keep straight with the horizon, so to speak.

But keeping a fair shake about it... trying to keep myself right. Had a little bit of a meltdown earlier but got on top of it before making too much of a scene, so that's always nice, heh.

I was thinking about how one of the hardest parts of getting over a depressive episode is that I have to sheepishly acknowledge that I was out of control and that I am regaining control. That has a really weird effect on my relationships, where I feel really guilty and end up apologizing "yet again" to people who are really tired of hearing me apologize at this point. For me, this guilt is often what I am subconsciously avoiding until I finally do acknowledge that I am in control in this way... and even then it becomes a whole 'nother ball-game when that happens because guilt itself is an excuse to maintain the depressed state, thereby prolonging the actual resolution and thereby exacerbating the guilt even further.

So I'm working on seeing a way to identify the guilt quickly and move through it instead of getting caught in a sense of being ashamed of having been a burden upon others.

Anyhoo... just some thoughts I thought I'd share since I'm here... peace y'all.

I am SOooo Confused! I would NOT have guessed that YOU were having trouble with Negative Emotions? You Speak the Speak of a Healer!

Good News is... you DONT need to try and figure it out! There are allready PROVEN Coping Skills out there that can TRULY ENLIGHTEN YOU! I posted this a while back, I will try to copy and paste it Here. This stuff literally CHANGED my Life! These FREE Videos CAN Help you reach a level of Emotional Intelligence that puts YOU in charge!

Something McFreakingAwesome happened to ME over 3 years ago! I found a FREE Alternative Healing Therapy that CHANGED MY Life, by Helping ME Understand and Apply some Coping Skills that WE ALL have access to... OUR MINDS!

I can relate to all the Explainations and Feelings posted in this Thread! But from standing on the OTHER side NOW, I DO REALIZE that I was CREATING the Stress, Anxiety, Depression, Pain, Fatigue that was once Dis-Abling ME!

Of course, that only PROVED that I was Crazy, afterall, You CANT HEAL YOURSELF by CHANGING Your MIND?

Long Story short... I DID! Many people that I shared the info with DID TOO!

For a Detailed explaination about how we CREATE OUR Problems, Goto YouTube channel HealingMagic and watch video (Google - "HealingMagic 540" for a link to the video)

# 540 - Discover the Power of your Mind, why we have problems, and the power of beliefs

Then watch and follow along to as many Free Videos that pertain to You, and Learn how to Let It Go, Change you Mind, Emotional Intelligence, Change your programs, whatever you want to call it! I would LOVE for the Spirit of THIS Thread to turn to one of HOPE, HELP and HEALING!

Good Luck! I HOPE you ALL have as much LUCK as I DID!

 

[AltarNation]

Haha.. I didn't say I walked the walk perfectly... but I do have a very firm grasp on what's before me and what i'm up against. Sorry if it seemed like I was saying my life is never tumultuous... it's not that... it's just that now I am equipped properly to deal with these episodes so that they do not turn into long drawn out events. I am more likely to move through negative thoughts quickly and to reprogram on the fly.

Anyway... I did see your post and will check that out! Thanks.

 

[AltarNation]

Altar you seem to have breathed some new well needed life into this thread. I think you may not realize but you helped open the drapes and let the sunshine in.

So your on the cusp of moving. Some times a change of scenery can be the start of new beginning. My heart goes out to you on the tress that goes along with it.

When it comes to shame. Don't do it. You don't need to and its harming. If I make a mistake I fix it and move on. I know I know easer said than done.

Your a beautiful person and smart to boot. Your partner is crazy about you.

Guaranteed

Thank you for the kind words Ph. I agree about shame. It's not too hard to release but definitely is one of those easier said than done things.

It is pretty common for empathic healer types to need a bit of the good healing themselves. It's sort of a 'takes one to know one' thing. The most common pattern for empaths is that we tend to sacrifice our own needs because we are so focused on figuring out how to serve others. This is extremely depleting on an energetic level, and I have only recently even realized this situation was occurring. Since then I've really been working on cultivating awareness of my self as a primary focus.

 

[AltarNation]

So far this guy is definitely on spot MadScientist... digging it, thanks.

 

[Loc Dog]

What helped me, 30 years ago, was a book, Zen mind beginner's mind. That and positive mental attitude self hypnosis video tape by Dick Sutphen. They helped me a lot.

I will try them again.

Just looked at his website, and he is into a lot of new age stuff, I would consider hokum, but his video hypnosis for positive attitude, brought me out of a bad time in my life.

 

[LEF]

I also enjoyed dick sutphen's stuff

I also think he seemed like a bit of bs, like how can you live with yourself if you produce so much bs ? I gave him a shot

I read one of his books, master of life manual
out of print

it was a fun eye opener

 

[Ph-patrol]

Thank you for the kind words Ph. I agree about shame. It's not too hard to release but definitely is one of those easier said than done things.

It is pretty common for empathic healer types to need a bit of the good healing themselves. It's sort of a 'takes one to know one' thing. The most common pattern for empaths is that we tend to sacrifice our own needs because we are so focused on figuring out how to serve others. This is extremely depleting on an energetic level, and I have only recently even realized this situation was occurring. Since then I've really been working on cultivating awareness of my self as a primary focus.

Recharging the emotional batteries is essential for everyone's wellbeing. We all get centered differently

 

[AltarNation]

While we're throwin stuff out there... I think Alan Watts is an excellent source for zen understanding from a western perspective... The Book On The Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are, is an excellent starting point. His "Out Of Your Mind" lecture series is like 8 discs long and extremely powerful as well.

 

[LEF]

yeah when I said fun eye opener, I didn't think it opened me to some kind of big truth or something like that

but simply that the way he brought things up is like you have responsibility over the way your experiencing things, the way you react and feel about events.

He brought up lots of people's experiences, with their perspective on things, and how they we're struggling to accept what he was telling them, and to see things from another perspective.

I don't particularly remember so much, but I know I enjoyed that book and some others

fun books

 

[Loc Dog]

yeah when I said fun eye opener, I didn't think it opened me to some kind of big truth or something like that

but simply that the way he brought things up is like you have responsibility over the way your experiencing things, the way you react and feel about events.

He brought up lots of people's experiences, with their perspective on things, and how they we're struggling to accept what he was telling them, and to see things from another perspective.

I don't particularly remember so much, but I know I enjoyed that book and some others

fun books

I only watched video self hypnosis, for positive thinking. There are a ton of them on youtube, for depression and positive attitude.

 

[Red Berry]

this thread needs a new tittle . .