A World On A String

[Madjag]

I'll tell you about breathing from the center in my world one day.....I was a 13 year-old freaky kid studying Judo at the YMCA in suburban Chicago Illinois, finding a book about "belly breathing" that changed my life. My teacher there, Dr. Evan Baltazzi, was an Olympic fencer and judo instructor. Dude, books have always been my saviors....not that I read a lot of them, but that the few that I have found and that have called me have shown me just what I needed to learn.

Misogi breathing.....check that in Google. Look for my teacher, Koichi Tohei.

 

[unclefishstick]

i just did a ride the other day that i recall as being a day wrecker not too long ago..if it hadnt been for the washboard section beating me up i was still ready to ride at the end of it...it felt pretty easy actually...my legs just had the 'glycogen depleted" feel rather than a lactic acid burn...thats good,the next set of camping spot are all in the 60+ miles away range...so my next training goals will have to include at least one 60-80 mile ride per week....more hill training for now....for the most part if im going anywhere 60-80 miles out it means climbing a big hill or two on my way out of the valley...

 

[Jericho Mile]

My brother, you are delving deep into the Buddhist void. I know, I know, it's not a religious thing, however it's a Real Thing. You and I recognize the diff.

I have great respect brother for such a Free Spirit.....

whatever it is...I'm not sure I'll ever grasp it whole. I just get flicks...where I'm only in the moment. Not able to hang there long..but it happens more often than it used to. Pockets of energy recognition.

...was pondering too if this unstable atmosphere is perhaps a more revealing energy source. It's blowing harder now than when I was running...going into the 2nd day of the event..when the sun set it began howling louder...be like this all night

* In the morning I'm pollinating and harvesting...feel like I should ride out this Santa Ana being productive. I imagine my girls are feeling a bit array and crazy in these conditions. Good time to hit my "pig" expression Hell Hound...she's like that...crazy..the pollen will be good on her..now's the time..so says this devil wind..dust her up

be back out in the hills again..as well.

 

[Jericho Mile]

Pollination of the Pig

Pollination of the Pig

Winds continue to howl/haul down the canyons...ended up sleeping on a couch..in front of the fireplace until 3:30 in the morning..then to bed to be up at 6....had my headlamp with me..in preparation for power outs (thankfully haven't happened yet)

The dust does fly



^ The "Pig" expression Hell Hound IX1 day 28...before and after defoliation and partial pollination. A beast of a grower...prolific even. Still not sure which parent she will represent...but she looks like she'll be a quicker finisher...and a probable good yielder.



^Wired a couple of her bottom branches together...then using my good old paintbrush...dabbed her with the pollen grains of 6 males.

* This would be the 8th female pollinated. The count is now 5 Hell Hound IX1 and 3 Mox Mox IX1 mothers

 

[unclefishstick]

im about to do a little seed run here...but im old fashioned..im going for the one male and a harem of females and just let him spew to his hearts content...a strawberry diesel f3 male and gorilla glue,chemdog99,and strawd females... i will collect some pollen for later use as well..

back to life mode on the bike...just a laundry day and groceries,then some beers this afternoon...still a 2 bike day! i didnt really mean to but im assembling quite a fleet of bikes over here...by the time im done i will have 4 bikes and 2 trailers plus racks and panniers and frame bags and such but by the end i will be able to haul up to 350 lbs and be able to move 99% of everything i need on my own,i will even be able to move larger things like plywood.i will have the ability to do everything from ultra lightweight deep backcountry camping up to full on trailer and pannier touring on anything that even vaguely resembles a road...plus a fully suspended mountain bike for trail fun and a good road bike for gofast time...
lol,toys are fun!

 

[Jericho Mile]

The Harvest of the 2nd Mox Mox IX1 mother

The Harvest of the 2nd Mox Mox IX1 mother

Just cut her down...day 68. This expression too...has a harvest window of 65-75 days. I took her this morning because I wanted something to trim on this evening...and more importantly...I need her space.



^ You can see she is a flimsy bitch. Not a huge expression...but not bad either...flowers being copious and dense. Another one that showed intersex in wks 3-4..then on..an occasional nanner..but not any kind of a problem

Has that DD influenced aroma....baby poo skunk fuel...but also some Flo perfume/floral. The Flo does play some part in this the "most common" expression...the deep green foliage along with some deep rose blushing...the floral(ness)....some clawing..Flo influences



^ what her flowers look like. As I said yesterday....I've already vaporized early harvest samples off this plant:....primo..potent..motivating..flavorful...enjoyable high (I'm high on her as I type this)...all and all...solid expression

Nothing out of the ballpark attraction wise...I'm looking for other things...but yeah...a solid expression to mother off of (for consistency anyway)

* I flushed this plant for around 20 days...very little fade out..none of these deep green Mox will quickly flush to fade. It's a common theme within these expressions...and as stated...I find this a Flo influenced trait.



^ the blushing I'm talking about...evident on the stalk...again...reminds me of Flo coloring



^ The seeded flowers...a productive output

 

[Jericho Mile]

Gems from the above Mox Mox IX1

Gems from the above Mox Mox IX1



^ easy to trim...greasy flowers..goo up the scissors quickly. Bells and whistles...torpedos and bombs

 

[vta]

Everything is looking great! Wish I could send an amazon drone over for a bowl of that Mox cross...looks tasty!

Winter is here! Granted the past few days were nice, once the sun goes down it's downright cold. Last week we had icing and temps in the 20's....oil heater cranked, plants elevated off the concrete. I'm running some of my sours and finishing up a test run that has turned into a major dyke fest. These fems from ojd are just crazy. 80 something days and with maybe a couple more weeks left. Straight fire! The smells are intoxicating, the colas are fat. These babies are BIG plants for indoor....esp my indoor. I can't wait for Spring to throw some outdoor.

My sour ogs always turn purple in cooler temps. I don't mind

Keep up the good work! Who knows...maybe some day we will all be fortunate enough to see some of your shit on seedbay...

 

[Jericho Mile]

^ Beautiful. Wonderful looking stuff. Me too...I'm growing the biggest indoor plants I've ever grown. Some of them have been in veg for so long...topped so many times..that they are just full on...out of control.

Up before the sun...already did some gardening..and now..just getting ready to get in a couple hrs on the trails...then I'll be working the rest of the day

* was in court all day yesterday for my bro's case. It was an extremely tense situation...listening to witness testimony while sitting 15' away from the dude who killed my friend.

One thing that I came away from yesterday with::::::::::::::::: our worlds revolve around in lies and more lies...on top of...more lies. There is no single truth...and if you believe there is....I feel contempt for you. Another day finished...and felt the need to wash humanity off me

** I missed my calling. I should have taken on the law as a profession.

 

[Madjag]

* was in court all day yesterday for my bro's case. It was an extremely tense situation...listening to witness testimony while sitting 15' away from the dude who killed my friend.

One thing that I came away from yesterday with::::::::::::::::: our worlds revolve around in lies and more lies...on top of...more lies. There is no single truth...and if you believe there is....I feel contempt for you. Another day finished...and felt the need to wash humanity off me

** I missed my calling. I should have taken on the law as a profession.

After watching superb lawyers doing their work for me in court, I realized how the best ones are outstanding actors. One attorney threw his hands up, tossed his pen on the floor, and marched over to the jury where he then said something out of disgust to them and walked away. I thought such antics were only found on TV law shows.

Anyone on the boards could benefit by sitting in the visitor zone during a jury trial. Find one with high stakes like a muder trial or a heavy drug case or see if you can find a jury trial that features a dynamic, high-powered criminal attorney for the defense. It will blow your mind to see how our justice is actually meeted out.

Later, one attorney who was representing my sister during a weed growing case said that he knew that the presiding judge was a Mason. This lawyer was as well and had "attained" a high rank within the Masons, too. During the trial I saw him wipe his hand across his shoulder and then rest it in some sort of sign, just for a second or two, on his chest. He said he was letting the judge know that he was a Mason and was indicating what level he was in order to help in the case. Spooky shit but come on, we all know many things take place behind closed doors. I was just amazed that some of these helpful factors take place right in front of a jury and they don't even see it.....unless they're a Mason, too.

Go to a trial jury, watch and see what you hopefully will never have to experience. I felt the same way Jericho as you did, perhaps I should have stayed in the law field. I don't see being a trial lawyer, but I love the research side. I started college in pre-law, but the world beckoned too strongly for a young hippie like me and I left after 2 3/4 years. I had changed my major within the first month or so from pre-law to philosophy and enjoyed every minute of my explorations in that field. I guess it makes sense to stay open to change....never too late to change fields if your heart is into it.

 

[unclefishstick]

awesome ride today....went to the part of my personal map labeled "there be dragons here"

turns out there were no dragons...just a hill i had let grow in my mind until it had become a mountain...indeed it was sort of anticlimactic...i certainly didnt blaze up the hill in record time or anything,but it did feel fairly easy...40 odd mile round trip,about 3 hours of saddle time,smoked a big fattie on the way home in the saddle listening to pink floyd dark side of the moon...just fucking beautiful out...
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[Jericho Mile]

After watching superb lawyers doing their work for me in court, I realized how the best ones are outstanding actors. One attorney threw his hands up, tossed his pen on the floor, and marched over to the jury where he then said something out of disgust to them and walked away. I thought such antics were only found on TV law shows.

Anyone on the boards could benefit by sitting in the visitor zone during a jury trial. Find one with high stakes like a muder trial or a heavy drug case or see if you can find a jury trial that features a dynamic, high-powered criminal attorney for the defense. It will blow your mind to see how our justice is actually meeted out.

Later, one attorney who was representing my sister during a weed growing case said that he knew that the presiding judge was a Mason. This lawyer was as well and had "attained" a high rank within the Masons, too. During the trial I saw him wipe his hand across his shoulder and then rest it in some sort of sign, just for a second or two, on his chest. He said he was letting the judge know that he was a Mason and was indicating what level he was in order to help in the case. Spooky shit but come on, we all know many things take place behind closed doors. I was just amazed that some of these helpful factors take place right in front of a jury and they don't even see it.....unless they're a Mason, too.

Go to a trial jury, watch and see what you hopefully will never have to experience. I felt the same way Jericho as you did, perhaps I should have stayed in the law field. I don't see being a trial lawyer, but I love the research side. I started college in pre-law, but the world beckoned too strongly for a young hippie like me and I left after 2 3/4 years. I had changed my major within the first month or so from pre-law to philosophy and enjoyed every minute of my explorations in that field. I guess it makes sense to stay open to change....never too late to change fields if your heart is into it.

This defense attorney representing the killer is not a cheap one. He's a reputable shark. I understand he is doing his job...also understand that many a deal is made in...one of the many...downtown restaurant bars..over a couple drinks..perhaps at lunch. At the lunch break...I sat in one of these places..and watched lawyers do their thing. I don't doubt at all..that the Masons treat each other right. That doesn't even bother me.

This defense lawyer...I could see it plainly enough...even before researching him (and being told by a homicide detective) is for real. He ripped holes into the witnesses...had them angry..lashing out..and off balance within minutes. Not that these people are difficult to manipulate...most of them are well dissolved in their drug addictions...and most of them were...very clearly..not telling the entire truth (to protect themselves...there were stories created)...I also thought them...poorly coached by the DA team.

What made me mad...then very sad...was that this is what my friend's life came down to. These are the people telling his story...and that story is nothing more than..a pile of lies. I wanted to slap the witnesses..I was so embarrassed for my friend. There his killer sat...knowing damn well his story was a lie...and now getting to watch these people make fools of themselves as they created even more lies.

It will plea out. They have the gun ( and ballistics)...they have the motive...should be Murder 1 (it was premeditated)...yet I believe...there will be a plea bargain. Might happen on the next court date. The dude is looking at 50 to life.

I try not to be hard on people...the witnesses I'm referring to...they saw some very ugly shit happen. They had to relive it all over again yesterday. The details of my bro's death were brutal. It was bloody and very very violent. Had his old skool friends been there...I doubt the killer would need a trial. The dude is a complete piece of shit...and a fucking cowardly bushwhacker. When he smiled at his family...I wanted to kick his teeth in.

 

[Jericho Mile]

on a lighter note...to get my head out of this ugly bullshit

on a lighter note...to get my head out of this ugly bullshit

....cut this Mox Mox IX1 down....early 70's...didn't pollinate this one



^ she's fine enough I guess...but then...I guess not. Didn't really move me much cultivating her...though I'm wagering she will be good vapor...a ho hum expression.....get her out of my way

.......the next few weeks are kind of going to suck. Court and work...perfectly dropped on yours truly...during the holidays. Fuck Xmas anyways

 

[unclefishstick]

dude,thats harsh....not that im any big fan of the holidays,but over all that sucks...
i was lucky really,friends and the bike rescued me from a whole bunch of shit back in the day...so many of those people from back then are dead or still in jail,or still coked up 30 years later,still stuck in the past...still unable to suck it up and take responsibility for their lives....im no angel,but at least i left all that behind and moved on and finally grew up at least a little bit...

 

[Jericho Mile]

dude,thats harsh....not that im any big fan of the holidays,but over all that sucks...
i was lucky really,friends and the bike rescued me from a whole bunch of shit back in the day...so many of those people from back then are dead or still in jail,or still coked up 30 years later,still stuck in the past...still unable to suck it up and take responsibility for their lives....im no angel,but at least i left all that behind and moved on and finally grew up at least a little bit...

I am my brother's keeper. That's how I keep it down. It's a responsibility...I suppose..forged many years ago. It's something that must be done and taken care of. This is some really fucked up shit...yet to find anything positive in this experience. There is no way I could leave this hanging though. There is no good here...none at all...just cleaning up a terrible mess.

seeing weakness in other people..seeing weakness in myself. I'm going to drop out for a little while. I have no time for escapism..shit I have to do

 

[unclefishstick]

i hear yah man...we will be here im sure..

 

[Madjag]

You know what counts....

 

[wolfhoundaddy]

This defense attorney representing the killer is not a cheap one. He's a reputable shark. I understand he is doing his job...also understand that many a deal is made in...one of the many...downtown restaurant bars..over a couple drinks..perhaps at lunch. At the lunch break...I sat in one of these places..and watched lawyers do their thing. I don't doubt at all..that the Masons treat each other right. That doesn't even bother me.

This defense lawyer...I could see it plainly enough...even before researching him (and being told by a homicide detective) is for real. He ripped holes into the witnesses...had them angry..lashing out..and off balance within minutes. Not that these people are difficult to manipulate...most of them are well dissolved in their drug addictions...and most of them were...very clearly..not telling the entire truth (to protect themselves...there were stories created)...I also thought them...poorly coached by the DA team.

What made me mad...then very sad...was that this is what my friend's life came down to. These are the people telling his story...and that story is nothing more than..a pile of lies. I wanted to slap the witnesses..I was so embarrassed for my friend. There his killer sat...knowing damn well his story was a lie...and now getting to watch these people make fools of themselves as they created even more lies.

It will plea out. They have the gun ( and ballistics)...they have the motive...should be Murder 1 (it was premeditated)...yet I believe...there will be a plea bargain. Might happen on the next court date. The dude is looking at 50 to life.

I try not to be hard on people...the witnesses I'm referring to...they saw some very ugly shit happen. They had to relive it all over again yesterday. The details of my bro's death were brutal. It was bloody and very very violent. Had his old skool friends been there...I doubt the killer would need a trial. The dude is a complete piece of shit...and a fucking cowardly bushwhacker. When he smiled at his family...I wanted to kick his teeth in.

A friend of mine's brother was killed by a low life punk, and got away with it. For several years my friend would drive down to phoenix on the anniversary of the murder of his brother and find this scum, and beat the crap out of him...every year. After a while his arms got tired.
He'll never forget his brother, but has decided to let a higher force do his beating.
Back in the 70's my cousin was murdered in her own home by a low life scum. He was caught and imprisoned. But I still think of her and our family... probably always will.
Sorry for your loss

 

[Highlighter]

...we will be here im sure..

for sure.

Go drop a tree, you'll feel better.

 

[Jericho Mile]

Busy Holidays

Busy Holidays

Have a little time now. Work is work...and another court date coming up..this Monday. Santa Ana winds been blowing since last Monday...long long stretch of those..24hrs a day..unstable and noisy

After 39hrs and 54 minutes (let's round it up to 40 hrs) I retired another pair of Altra Superiors (started out new on November 2nd)



^ new pair are a 1/2 size bigger...I've run in this model a 1/2 size smaller than my regular size...and at my size..so now..just objectively rounding it out. This is my 4th pair of Superiors..and still my favorite trail shoe. With my modifications out of the box...and with experimentation into different sizes..I've really committed to this model



^ A look at a used and a brand new braking pedal. You can tell I'm running down steep hills....otherwise..there would be no wear at the back of the shoes. Coming down steep rocky/slippery hills...man...I have to lean back hard on my heels..get as much drag as I can to slow myself down. I've come close many times to impaling my body into yucca...as yucca have a way of growing in the middle of steep washes...and have a way of being magnets...tempting me in..so that the V shape of the washes become hard to control traps into injury. Rocks kick out..chasing along after me..sometimes getting..rerolled under my quick short choppy steps...further causing me hits into the ankles...further pushing me out of control..

running steep washes is where it's at. It's a lot like surfing..skating..skiing...boarding. started wearing leather gloves when I know I'm running certain hills/washes...as I like to get way down..and slide on feet and hands. whole different approach to trail running in a way. Run up these non trailed steep hills...not vertical but getting there you know...and then start back down them...with no plan/line or break for the body...right back down..right away...let the chips fall. So far..haven't really fucked up..keep managing to find my wall down



^ holes in the mesh and blown out pieces of rubber sole. Even with the use of urethane on the mesh...it doesn't take long before I'm creating holes. The urethane buys me more hrs...but really..after a month on the trails...breeches become reality...and as for the bottoms..not much you can do. Traction is compromised within 20 hrs of use....nothing is going to save the bottoms. I just run more slippery...compensate for the slide

The key I've found to trail shoes...is acceptance. They need to be replaced every month realistically. I'm running a lot more off trail...doing more sky running...the terrain has an appetite for destruction.

"Simply running to train for speed and endurance stresses all relevant points----all of the innumerable links in the very long and complex chain----at once. That is, the necessary complexity and efficiency of running is achieved simply---by running. To become a runner, I just ran"

Bernd Heinrich wrote that..and it is something...I myself...have found to be dead nuts accurate. His book "Why We Run" has reaffirmed many of my own findings. I'm now at a point in my running lifestyle...where...I'm comfortable looking into what others are doing..without fear that I may become overly influenced.

Along with my gardening/breeding projects...I've attempted to keep my running experiences my own...and pure. It's difficult not being influenced by others...but in the end...I want my thing to be my own thing. There comes a point however...when to get to the next level one must stretch out..and look around.

"Success requires uncompromising logic, and subservience to an overall goal that has, as life itself, no logical basis whatsoever"

Another sentence I highlighted out of Heinrich's book....and I say...yes yes yes...just how I see it.



^ The Queen Mox Clone on day 35...partially pollinated this morning. So yup...some of her offspring...and now she herself..a part of the Hell Mox build. Lanky...at about 6'

* I've yet to find her expression representation in any of her offspring. So far...she is still..quite unique. Very rancid smelling this round. She keeps getting better. Interesting plant to grow.

** The Original Flo influence in the Mox Mox IX1 plants has become more obvious to me..as this round gets deeper. It's strange that the plants all mothered by the F1 Queen Mox Clone are less like her...and more like a uniform crop of what appears to be...almost a 50/50 blend of Flo and Chem DD

I did not expect such a crop. Nothing wrong with the Mox Mox IX1 generation...I mean...the plants vaporize great/grow great...but they are kind of boring to cultivate. They keep repeating...same expression keeps showing.

*** The Queen Mox Clone is the last of the Mox Mox that I will be pollinating. There just is no point in pollinating repeat expressions..which is what looks to be left. Out of all the 2nd generation Mox Mox...I've not found one better than the F1 clone. Has me wondering if the clone is a going to be a good mother plant. I'm looking forward to finding out though. The Hell Mox beans she'll be making...will be tested soon enough. See then..if she puts out different expression.

**** Yes...I'm really perplexed that out of all the plants from the IX1 generation..none are like the F1 Queen Mox Clone and most are uniform. I expected to see at least a few replicas of the clone. Not one have I seen. That just makes these Hell Mox beans I'm making with the clone plant more valuable to me. She (the queen mox clone) might just want to be lined up with something..other than..her own line.

***** The Hell Hound IX1's...on the other hand...continue to bounce expressions all over the place..with maybe a couple..repeating themselves. Makes them more fun to cultivate....more exciting