Calming down quick temper and aggression - which strains?

[the_baked_chef]

HI ,

i suffer (and i really do suffer...) from a quick developing form of aggression which hits me almost out of nothing.
Generally the rule is when i feel the anger it is already to late for me to control or restrict me.
To my great luck i am absolutly not violent (yet?) but during my aggression i tend to destroy what ever is nearby (doors, laptops, handy, gardenfences etc..).
After a few minutes (or even seconds) i am always very much ashamed of my behavior and in general myself.
This is nothing that happens ever week but far more often than i could wish for (about once a month - sometimes more often sometimes less often)

I did until now not yet manage to figure out what exactly is the thing (event, person, sentence, i really don't know it) that lets my aggression explode and sweeps away my sense of intellegent and well adapted behavior.

There's also a physical component in this because afterwards am not only left with a hurting hand (or foot) and an enormus disappointment with myself, but i do also feel weak and pretty much hung over...
This is really shit.

Obviously i am always at risk to lose the woman i love by acting like a weird freak which does not exactly ease the stress followed by those events.

Finally after whining for what feels like hours (even to the writer of this post) i would like to ask whether someone could suggest me a strain that has been proven to calm people down.
I would still want to be awake though
maybe even being able to cook, go for a walk and stuff like that...

I am going to grow 3 strains in september, one agains anxiety which is a problem of a close friend and two others which are probably chosen from any suggestions that are available at bay or boutique.

thanks alot guys

 

[crazybear]

Probably Indica's I don't know exactly which strains!

 

[mosstrooper]

Northern Lights, as long as its a strong one, its wiped out lots of aggressive people i know in the past, can lead to transformative experiences.

I grew Sensi Seeds Northern Lights many years ago, and i think its the strongest dope i ever grew to date.

*Edit* you didnt say what your age is (though im sure it has no bearing whatsoever on the issue).

Most aggressive urges mellow with age.

Though, i must admit, i still shout at people when im driving, thankfully they cant hear me.

 

[One Love 731]

From the Bay or Boo I would say Sour Bubble, Bubba's Brother. I run mostly cuts, so someone else may have a better suggestion. Aim for downer Indica's, Bubba hybrid's maybe Deep Chunk, even some cuts of GHS Cheese had a calming effect for me as I suffer the same personality disorder which finds me thinking "what the hell did I just BLOW my cool for?". The thing is once ya start smoking regularly ya get that outside viewpoint of yourself. At first its hard noticing your shortcomings. If you act and become the person you want to be smoking then becomes enlightening, emancipating. Glad to hear you want to become something better, some are fine just destroying all they cross. Best of luck too ya. Peace, pot and karma. One Love

 

[Bionic]

You're looking for a band-aid but you really need to find the source(s) of your cuntiness. Therapy and mushrooms, DMT/other psychedelics may help with introspectiveness. Control yourself and exercise discipline. There's really nothing worse than an emotional bitchy man.

 

[guest8905]

meditation and some good martian mean green!

 

[rick shaw]

You're looking for a band-aid but you really need to find the source(s) of your cuntiness. Therapy and mushrooms, DMT/other psychedelics may help with introspectiveness. Control yourself and exercise discipline. There's really nothing worse than an emotional bitchy man.

I would have to agree with bionic. Have you considered dietary changes. Dr Daniel Amen has written several excellent books about your brain and nutrition.
Dietary changes and neurology exercises helped me to overcome seizures from a traumatic brain injury,six years no dilantin and no seizures.

 

[the_baked_chef]

thanks for all the answers

Probably Indica's I don't know exactly which strains!

My thoughts went in the same direction. The problem will be to find an indica which is not too strong for me (until now i smoked once or twice a month - so no tolerance here - but still has calming effects)

I grew Sensi Seeds Northern Lights many years ago, and i think its the strongest dope i ever grew to date.

Sounds interesting - i will definitly have a look into some reports with sensi northern lights and some smoke reports

*Edit* you didnt say what your age is (though im sure it has no bearing whatsoever on the issue).

Most aggressive urges mellow with age.

I am about 30 but i recall bad temper fits in younger years too (the earliest that i remember should be around 7ish)

From the Bay or Boo I would say Sour Bubble, Bubba's Brother. I run mostly cuts, so someone else may have a better suggestion. Aim for downer Indica's, Bubba hybrid's maybe Deep Chunk, even some cuts of GHS Cheese had a calming effect for me as I suffer the same personality disorder which finds me thinking "what the hell did I just BLOW my cool for?".

You describe exactly what i feel afterwards. Its all so stupid because in like 99% of the time i am a pretty relaxed and nice guy (if i had to judge myself - which may be not soooo accurate^^) but the 1% is what people keep keep in mind

Thank you for your suggestion i will definitly read a lot about them and consider them for my grow.

You're looking for a band-aid but you really need to find the source(s) of your ****iness. Therapy and mushrooms, DMT/other psychedelics may help with introspectiveness. Control yourself and exercise discipline. There's really nothing worse than an emotional bitchy man.

Thanks for your suggestions. I am not sure whether finding the source of my "****iness" will really have some beneficial effects or will even be possible.
From a psychoanalytical point of view those behaviors would probably reflect diminsihed self-esteem - meaning that when somebody close says or dos something that my brain depicts as criticizing my "inner-self" and that critique hits something that i unconsciously consider to be true (but bad - which lead to it being repressed into subconscious) i will tend to react very harshly to avoid being confronted with my inner doubts...
Be this as it may it is still doubtable wheter those or related insights can possible help me control myself.

I tend to view it from a more behaviour point of view. I accept that this "bad temper" i a part of me. I do such things and if i want to change it, that means that i have to change the behavioral component of it.
For example - if i suddenly feel enraged - i would be glad to not express this by escalating but in a more social accepted way.

I am quite unsure how to do so...

Nevertheless with a small grow coming and the need to pick strains (which is an overwhelming effort ^^) it seemed a good idea to consider some that have had calming effects on other people.

meditation and some good martian mean green!

Hi thank you for your input. I will read a lot about martian mean green and how it affects people.

I used to meditate about half an hour a day during the last two years and during that time i thought that it might have some good effects on me.
However i moved and did out of stress and a shortage of time and energy stop meditating.
When i think about doing it now i feel an almost physial disgust. It feels like such a waste of time.
I guess this is just what i experience if i quite sports for a long time and than have absolutly no intention to start again.
I think i will just try it today after work - can do know harm

I would have to agree with bionic. Have you considered dietary changes. Dr Daniel Amen has written several excellent books about your brain and nutrition.

Thanks for the suggestions. I eat a lot of sweets which is pretty new for me. Maybe there is a realtion. I will look for some of Dr. Amen's books - I am sure there are some good tips in them...


@all:

 

[thighrod]

#1 in this respect is to toke more and more often in general. Cannabis accumulates in the body and the secret is to keep receptors saturated as much as possible. The more I smoke, the less I find myself raging. Willie Nelson always said his reason for smoking was 'To keep down the rage'.