life choices

[bentom187]

OK im alittle more concerned than usual cause i havt figured out a viable option yet. so im here asking for advice.

I just got my disability decision in and it didnt turn out good.
so im stuck i need to appeal this and gather more evidence,its gonna take more time but im just not counting on it happening any more its no use. they just deney what ever i present to the indipendent doctors and the doctor dosnt do very much or ask very many question and interupts when i try to answer its totally fixxed.

Now i have to bare and grin my daily back pain and a reconstructed knee and insomnia i have mental problems although ive figured ot how to drasticly reduce symptoms of sever social anxiety and depression and general anxiety dissorder by myself.

i now have the problem of actually figuring out how to deal with them myself and hold a job,and find one that doesnt include intensive labor like construction wich are the only jobs im qualified for since i have no diploma.

My plan,well since i now have dedicated my life to buddist activities
ive decided to leave for a year to study shaolin chanwuyi at the wugulun academey in china,its gonna cost 8g's to stay for a year and thats just room board and meals. chanwuyi is the highest form of chan buddhisim it has the ability to help severley ill people and modern studies to back it up,people with terminal cancer,tumors,hipocampectamies, epilepsey, seizures just about every danm condition there is.
i plan to come back here and open a health center (non profit) all free to anyone who needs it.and a farm thats gonna take some more time but its integral to the health center, and this will also be non-profit and work on donations,and the food will go to anyone who needs it and volenteers who help on the farm,and the patients at the center, the surplus will be given out to the homless.you see this is all going to work off of karma,i will not accept money for these services it underminds everything.

also i may end up having a covert hemp production plan, to give the people the best danm quality health products and textiles procceds of course go to the center and farm. (depends on if it will hurt the center or farm).

now thats about how far into the future ive thought about my life,i was just wondering how viable do you think this plan is ?

question ,comments,death threats are all welcome

 

[Stoner4Life]

you need to have an advocate for the disability, they get hired on a % of money gotten by you when your claim's finally approved, talk to a Binder & Binder type of law firm or work locally. I'll bet the social security office has a list of advocates in your area for you to choose from.

 

[bentom187]

thank you, ill have to check that out.

 

[headiez247]

man, deep stuff.

I think that the only way the first part of your plan will be worth it is if you basically dedicate the rest of your life to that way of thinking. If this is just a phase, then it isn't worth the cost/time not making money. I personally don't really buy into the stuff. Now that being said, if I had cancer I would never say no to someone trying the whole shaman thing on me but it aint gonna cure my cancer.

I refer to the first part of your goal only because the second half isn't realistic. Regardless of how enlightened you are when you return to the USA, unless you are wealthy you will not be able to open a clinic like that. Even if it was a for profit endeavor it most likely wouldn't survive, but as a non profit, and a medical one at that, it will never happen unless you have some dead serious connections.

The problem with going with that lifestyle is that if you continue to live in the USA, you need money to survive.

Just my opinion

 

[bentom187]

indeed i see your point , its definatley not a phase its helped me in numerous ways,theres no way i can turn my back on it.
i here you,on the second part it does require some start up money but im not really trying to build anything fancy just somthing that works.
i would just need land,and perhaps a small building to store things in.
the way i see this working is if i compensate people who can work on the farm with the best unmodified organic food money cannot buy,in turn they eat healthy and for free,and they gain a bit of physical helth,now i know this will help in other ways too if i sit here and think of them all.
now most of the food will be for the patients at the clinic in accordence with the program.
the center wont be a live in ,more of a walk in in witch i can conduct instruction on the program ,and have a small side office too.
this also doubles as my way of liberating myself from capitolisim and genrally undermining any thought the govt had of turning me into a tax paying slave,but thats just a side effect and besides the point.my hope is to get more people to hop onto the idea and start their own non-profit orginizations eventually if enough do it the country can support itself.
now heres a link to a case study (heart wrenching story) their is already a doctor, practitioner of this philosiphy she has many accolades in the international scientific community http://www.casesjournal.com/content/2/1/9080
they didnt have electronics of today thousands of years ago to prove their theroy's but we do now and it shows to be effective,and ive experienced it first hand.

 

[ddrew]

you need to have an advocate for the disability, they get hired on a % of money gotten by you when your claim's finally approved, talk to a Binder & Binder type of law firm or work locally. I'll bet the social security office has a list of advocates in your area for you to choose from.

BAM!
Binder and Binder will get your case straightened out for you.
I hear almost everyone gets turned down at first, especially if they are trying to handle their own case.

Of course you could go with your plan of moving to china and learning how to use the "force", then you can bust it out on them when you come back.


Bentom(using the force)-My case is approved

Case worker-Your case is approved

Bentom-For double money

Case worker-For double money

Bentom-And these are not the droids you're looking for

 

[bentom187]

sent e-mail i did, to binder and binder.mmmmmmmm.

 

[bentom187]

chinas gonna happen either way just one way will be quicker.

 

[ddrew]

chinas gonna happen either way just one way will be quicker.

I have nothing against a man trying to live his dream.
More power to you.

 

[bentom187]

thanks dude.

 

[guest456mpy]

Hi Bentom

Congrats on making the move to get an advocate to assist in collecting SSD.

I think the move to China is admirable, but if you are hesitant in trying Peruvian chicha then food and other arrangements in China might be a challenge to your sensibilities. Nothing that can't be overcome, but this aspect should be examined and anticipated. Not trying to put you down or dissuade you, just something to seriously think about.

Good fortune to you whatever you decide.

 

[bentom187]

completley agree,im not planning on going around town trying everything though,because the school adhears to a pretty strict vegitarian diet that is benifical to your internal organs.
i have a feeling somone will dare me to eat something from a hole in the wall shop ,ill be prepared in case.
im just not going to try somthing thats been through the beging stages of digestion.

 

[longearedfriend]

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[H^2o2]

are you like really disabled? How did you get denied. I just got awarded ssdi and it's 900 a month - but i milked it dude, used a bad psychiatrist's diagnoses. Social Security didn't even make me see a doctor. Just got the deposit one day. I'm going to do it for a few years. I can now wipe out my student loans! bwahahaha. Thinking of moving somewhere

 

[bentom187]

i definatley am sir. not so much the mental BS anymore but my back is what hurts the most.
iv already talked to the binder people so no worries they said i just have to get my insurence back to see the mental health clinic and they would definatley get me ssi but gonna try for ssdi.

 

[crazybear]

What do you mean get your insurance back? Are they saying get a job so you can get insurance? If so you probably won't get social security, ssdi you have to be totally disabled to get ssdi not just you can't do the job you did before!

 

[bentom187]

i have state provided program

 

[flubnutz]

i can't offer anything on the insurance, best of luck to you tho'. as for the other plans, its all good. but have you thought of why you want to go there? what you looking for? maybe its not out there, but in you?

theres are a lot of teachers of chan (zen) nearby, especially if you'll travel domestically. do you speak chinese?

 

[bentom187]

i plan on getting a mandarin book and possabley take a night class or somthing to understand the local dialects.

these videos should give the gist of what it is and the history,and why it is a high accomplishment to be in this school,it is unique among shaolin. this form of shaolin is the most authentic and closest to the original transmissions given by boddidarma who brought buddhisim to china.

http://www.youtube.com/user/shaolinwugulunkungfu#p/a/u/1/R16G3P2RtRk

http://www.youtube.com/user/shaolinwugulunkungfu#p/u/0/uvJ-vUHnmHU

this is my journey of understanding myself and life

(mods there wont be anymore vids posted)

 

[crazybear]

i have state provided program

Oh I see, good luck to you, I hope it works out for you!