MJ making me depressed?

[Piel]

Howdy!
The band never really died and we paly every now and then and it´s fun. My mood is totally different today as I´ve stayed off the muscle relaxants -stay off these= tizanidine!

My back actually feels better without them.

But I´m still looking at bikes, I´m not really into cars and after seeing the price of a vintage Corvette well let´s just say "No thanks".

Anybody else feeling blue and old?

 

[GroDoc]

Turn your energy toward healing yourself and love will come into your life. Distorting yourself into a pleaser to make people love you will not give you what you're looking for - to be understood and liked for who you are. My dad used to say "If you go into the world looking for love you've left behind what you would seek to find." The beauty about love that many people don't understand is that it's benefits come in the loving, not the being loved. Love has no need of being loved. But love and you will truly be loved. Your journey is solitary but shared by everyone. As you learn the lesson of forgiveness you will learn to love your solitude, which you will have much less of

 

[Piel]

Howdy guys!
My mood is much better after leaving the meds, just turned around. But there are issues I´ll be addressing: I´m seriously looking at getting a bike, something used around 500cc. The band will not die and I have my hunting. Good things.

And I made a nice sheperds pie out of the leftover stew...added som hotsauce to spice it up a bit.

And I´ve cut back a bit on the weed, only vaping now.

But trying to keep a positive outlook will have to be my major change -consuming won´t cure this affliction.

I love this thread.

Acid is not my thing, did that in the 70´s (China Town blotters with a gold dragon -really cool but I was fried for days) and will never do anything halucinogenic again....OK maybe peyote but only if I have a good guide.

 

[Piel]

Why did my last reply pop up ine the middle of the thread?

 

[armedoldhippy]

off topic, but like Piel on here, my posts are showing up WAY out of order! HELP!

 

[Piel]

Yeah, what´s up? I wrote a reply this morning, it didn´t show so I rewrote it and now it loooks like I can´t keep track of my words...

But a bowl will help that!

 

[hippie_lettuce]

maybe because you've started again, cannabis has brought your mind into new perspectives.

You are seeing yourself in a negative light, perhaps because you are past the big 5-0. At this point, people are really starting to see themselves physically and mentally aging. My mom tells me to never tell her that she's getting old. She knows it, she just doesn't wanna hear it! lol

With that said I don't think it is cannabis that is making you feel this way. Perhaps, if you try something new that interests you...

I'm not an old stoner, I'm not even old enough to legally drink in the US, but I have sometimes felt the way you have. I have lost interest in some of the things I used to be interested in, but that was because those were part of a previous "phase" of my life. Now, you've got to find new things to be part of your new phase.

Good luck and stay high

 

[Piel]

HL: You seem wise for your years -not a bad thing. I guess part of the problem is being human, it´s interesting to see how people can relate to what I´ve written irrespective of age. One can have too many interesting things and I´ve found that that also tends to lead to frustration -not having time for it all can be a bummer that leads to a negative spiral.

Are there any good autoflowering strains that have a strong sativa element? Growing any thing else outdoors is difficult in my neck of the woods.

 

[4 Dragons]

Just vaped a bowl and man this feels good I just realised I´ve been using a muscle relaxant for the past three weeks! I left that out today and I could notice my mood changing hour by hour.

That is part of your problem for sure. Does the same to me and if I smoke to much indica. This time of year is hard on people too and all you need is some good vitamin D. Find a nice happy sativa and mix it up a bit. I find it helps me to go on a hike especially if I don't want to. A change of scenery can work wonders!

 

[OjoRojo420]

maybe because you've started again, cannabis has brought your mind into new perspectives.

You are seeing yourself in a negative light, perhaps because you are past the big 5-0. At this point, people are really starting to see themselves physically and mentally aging. My mom tells me to never tell her that she's getting old. She knows it, she just doesn't wanna hear it! lol

With that said I don't think it is cannabis that is making you feel this way. Perhaps, if you try something new that interests you...

I'm not an old stoner, I'm not even old enough to legally drink in the US, but I have sometimes felt the way you have. I have lost interest in some of the things I used to be interested in, but that was because those were part of a previous "phase" of my life. Now, you've got to find new things to be part of your new phase.

Good luck and stay high

I do agree Piel... I sense much compassion and wisdom in those words.

As per your predicament... you are so far from been alone my brother.

The pain of existence is evident from the moment we leave mother's womb... kicking and screaming so full of innocent anger!

I've found relief in some kind of inner life. We know so well that our plants' real life goes on beyond our sight. Roots are were life begins...

Find your inner roots beyond outside life and social reality. Seek your inner voice either in prayer, meditation or just constant desire of your heart.

We westerners so often neglect this simple fact.

I wish you blessings and peace in your heart!

OR

 

[EvilTwin]

GET ANOTHER MOTORCYCLE! lol

Fuck'n A Buddy...that's the answer. I got into a horrible car wreck. cost me a leg, my profession, my financial well being and my marriage.

I buried myself in a bottle for awhile...then into ganja. neither was an answer...merely a form of early death.

A couple years ago I decided that I wanted to do something that I used to love. I bought a KLR-650 thumper and slapped a Russki sidecar on it. It's a wild machine to drive. Different then anything I'd ridden before. but every time I drive it...I'm grinning ear to ear. Makes me feel young even though I'm into my 6th decade.

Seriously man, get back on two wheels. Good for the circulation!
ET

 

[Son Of Fongool]

I can relate to what you're saying and unfortunately for me the weed only makes it worse. I tend to take LONNG vacations from the herb and only smoke for a month or so at a time.

But I also believe there is a magical strain out there... for me, I have problems with anxiety attacks with speedy herb and insane lethargy with couch lock herb. It seems to build up on me and I quickly find myself losing interest in my hobbies and projects and sleeping until noon.

But there was one time I got my hands on some Master Kush and it was amazing! I was so energized and creatively motivated, I actually DID STUFF after smoking it! That NEVER happened to me before.

So maybe it's a combination of age blues and an unhelpful strain making things worse? I think you should go strain hunting!

Personally, I'm really curious about things like DJ's Flo and Mandala's Kalichakra which, if you buy the marketing, are supposed to be energetic (without anxiety), motivating and good against depression. -And of course the Master Kush which I've never managed to find again...

 

[Kusherman]

My man I would stay away from those indicas for awhile and try a nice sativa, I would recommend some kind of haze and if it's too trippy I would do a strain search for something sativish without the raciness to it. From what you are telling us is that you may even lack motivation. Please save those indicas for after 8pm at night or a couple of hours before hitting the sack. I hope my 2 cents helps out a little. We at ICM are here for you man, and I'm sure this has been sort of a therapy so far. Hope you feel better man. PEACE LUV AND BUDS!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Piel]

I wish I was in the position to choose strains but short of moving to Adam I´ll have to wait for next growing season. Yesterday I vaped a bowl, toked a joint and one whiskey to many and now I´m back in the hole.

Looks like vaping keeps me more "up", need to cut back on the booze and yes I´m looking at bike options!

What to do about lazy teenagers? My kids are doing OK in school but they don´t seem to have any direction. I think they need to start taking more responsibility but then again who am I to talk? I was lazier than hell at that age.

A lot of things contribute. I might need a new religion too.

 

[BurmeseDragon]

Exercise helps, a little coca too...maybe some other extractions, but they don't like that around here.....guess you could go for some UK pharmaceuticals (not that those aren't related to terrorism).

 

[JeanTonerre]

hey man, cannabis is your new religion, ahah, it bring you peace and karma ... no ? i try to base all my action to favorise a good karma, you should try too... ehehe, and for your kids man, dont worry about that, if they go to school, and have good report, respect and love you, you have done a good job man !

 

[Piel]

JT: I wish I understood Karma better, I have some knowledge of Taoism and that I like!

But I guess one can influence ones karma? Enlighten me!

As for the kids I know you´re right it´s just so hard to leave well enough alone.

 

[JeanTonerre]

so mister, what do you grow in your garden ?! eheheh for my part, i got a lot to grow this year, but for now its the Violator Kush .... Indica and High CBD rate... i wish it will help me and some of my friend with insomnia.

 

[Piel]

JT: In my garden grows Dieselryder, AK47xLR2, Hollands HopexLR2...autoflowering do to climate. I had some early strains from a friend -called EWS (?) and Thaifun and theyb grew well enough.

 

[Piel]

Long time -well not that long but still.

I´m now doing better, planning a new bike (got the OK from wifey), smoking less and trying to drink less, exercising and redoing a cabinet.

And trying to leave the kids alone, my mom was always on my back about something and I dont need to make the same mistakes.

I need weed to keep my pain in check, after five days of abstinence I start hurting again but the weed can at times make me really obsessive and gives me panic attacks. Not nice. Just vaping a bowl in the evening is enough so I´ll try to keep it at that.

Wish it was summer again -and that ain´t a metaphor!