The dog who is so angry he cannot move. He cannot eat. He cannot sleep. He can just barely growl. Bound so tightly with tension and anger, he approaches the state of rigor mortis.
This past summer I was lucky enough to be living in SoCal where the medical cannabis was ample and potent (I'm now back in the MidWest). Since then, i have been a multiple daily smoker of the kindest kind. Before, I was just smoking locally available beasters a few times a day or whatever I managed to grow. Lately, I've begun to notice that I was basically becoming doped out all of the time and it wasn't helping my personal/professional life (time for a break!).
Usually when I take a break there is no problem outside a night or two of restless sleep. I have been completely clean for 4 days, but things just keep getting worse and worse in terms of withdrawal symptoms. I have no desire as such to get stoned, however I considered it tonight just because of the symptoms...
- insomnia (I haven't slept well in 3 nights, why I'm here now)
- irritability (wow, yes, very)
- anxiety (yes)
- physical tension (incredible tension)
- decreases in appetite and mood (yes)
- stomach pain (nope)
- restlessness (I can't sleep in the same bed as my girlfriend because I keep moving around and its bugging her)
- anorexia (not yet...)
- increased aggression / anger (oh my god yes)
- strange dreams (if only...)
Is this normal? I'm very concerned here as I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't do work, and I am increasingly becoming a complete fucktard toward people.
Will this transpire soon? I don't want to give in and toke again because I hate being a slave to something, but it's getting out of hand.
Thanks