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Emotional Health

desant

desant

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If you read my other thread about gangs and all the stuff i had to deal with in the last 4 years ud probably guess i have some serious health issues... more specificly emotional problems, such as extreem feelings of dread, anxiety and paranoias... add to that soome physical problems with my heart, body energy and stamina and you have a case...

What can i do to fight feelings of dread? Any eastern medecines? Any good indica strains?

Right now i drink hops and valerian pills and a whole array of herbal teas, with honey...

I sometimes use vallium/xanax, if i have any... i find lorazepam works like a charm - but i cant get any any more :(

But really, it sucks, i have no close friends near me... i was considering getting a dog, but my parents tell me otheriwse - cos my landlord doesnt allow animals :( Soo if he catches me what do i do wiith the dog?

I was thinking about it and i am pretty sure i can hide the dog pretty well in here, without them noticing, dog is what i want, as it will deal with feelinsg of islolation and emotional dread, dog would be ideal...

Anything else i can do? I sometimes see social support workers, maybe once a forthinght but they arent much help - they doont even prescibe me L any more...

What i found also helps - working on a grow room (for a friend 30 miles away from me) i am bulding a grow box for him. It takes my mind off things.

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If you need more info check out this thread:
http://www.icmag.com/ic/showthread.php?t=140677
PLZ dont lock this thread too :( )

I really think a dog would help me quite a bit...
Or maybe going back to school... i was thinking about that too
 
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desant

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This is some of the legal meds i got...

Man thinking about it i am worse that Yummy, at list hes got his peace of mind and security...
 
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xxd

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desant, whats up?
Don´t sound very good, your bad moods is something you don´t need.
There are good strains for depression out there: Grindle, Kodiac gold, that´s the only two I can think of.
Please, be careful with your pills. I dont know if you have a addiction to pills already but be really careful, they can fuck you up.
To grow is always a good therapy....just get in to it. Start with your friends growbox, that is a start and gives you something to do.
I really don´t know how good a dog would be for you, only if you are stable I would get a dog. It is a lot of responsibility and they cost a lot too.
Besides your landlord is going to catch you with the dog sooner or later. I know what I am talking about. I have dog´s too and one time I tried to hide the dogs. For a while it worked till the landlord found out. I had to move out. So think about a dog again.
Good luck to you.
XXd
 
DoobieDuck

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desant sorry to hear of your issues..i've always done better when my mind is busy. I know it is hard to stay busy when you are depressed or in pain but doing so keeps my mind from dwelling on my problems..good luck friend..you can always visit here..DD
 
desant

desant

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Thanks a lot guys

I will keep u updated

As for dog i am still undecided :| I need to carefuly consider every aspect of it


Also i find that if i preoccupy my time with some WHOLESOME activity and see good up beat people it really does improve my depression !


ps. whats this "Grindle, Kodiac gold" strains are about? never heard of them but sounds interesting, any links?
 
Doco

Doco

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Sativas are far superior to Indicas for treating depression - for me anyway. Over time Indicas just glues me to a couch where I sit and stew about how Im not getting out, etc. etc. while Sativas get me up and motivated, happy and wanting to get out and experience the worlds wonders.
 
p1ninja

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In my humle opinion...

Stay away from the pills, they are fucking with your brain chemistry.

Get out of the house, go for a long walk every day. Exercise will help you immensely and being in the solitude of nature always helps me clear my mind and reminds me what is important.

Cut back or eliminate any boozing if you are still.

I have read some of your other threads, it sounds as if you like to feel sorry for yourself, but don't do much about it. I don't want to be brash or come across as an asshole, but I notice this, because I used to be the same way. Either shit or get off the pot brother. The world can't tell you how to live your life, only you know what makes you happy.

Take responsibility for the way you feel and do something about it-- your life will change. I am not claiming to have all the answers, but what I can tell you is that only you are responsible for the way you feel and you have the power to change it. Far too often do we look to the external world of people, places, and things to blame them for our problems, but really only ourselves are to blame. You need internal change my friend.

Your life is simply a reflection of your interpretation of the world around you, things are NEVER good nor bad, but you make them so. Get off your ass and start livin' brother. I read somewhere on here "we are here for a good time, not a long time."

I don't know if you like to read, but a book that helped me out a lot is "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. I read this book years back when I was a 19 years old trying to figure out what the world was about and was dealing with some serious depression, it really helped me think outside of the box and take responsibility for my emotional state.

You are in control of how you feel at all times. Observe your negatives thoughts from a distance and remove yourself from them. Being here on earth to celebrate the wonders of simply being alive is why I believe we are all here, but most of the world seems to be only focused on doing. Learn to be comfortable with feelings of the unknown, we live in a constantly changing world where no thing is stable, everything is fleeting. Many people spend their entire lives trying to reduce the the world around them to something that their minds can grasp. The truth is life is incomprehensibly vast with much to enjoy. You don't need to understand everything, just know yourself and know what brings joy to your life-- start with that.

Don't mean to preech, but I feel for you man. If you ever wanna shoot the shit or something arises that you don't know how to deal with, you can always shoot me a PM brotha.

Peace,
:joint:
 
Marshmello

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I go with the Sativas for the Depression....

I go with the Sativas for the Depression....

Dude, I read your threads and I have given you shit on a few occasions or piled on with others.
I have dealt with Mental Bullshit for many, many years, and I still do.
If I offended you, I Apologize.

My suggestion for you is: Get a pet Rat.
Sophie.jpg

Seriously, they're fucking Awesome, Intelligent Creatures.
I used to have 2 of them.
Wayyyyy cheaper than a dog and the landlord would probably never even need to know.
If the Rat was discovered, it might not even be a problem.

Peace
:joint:
 
desant

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Well its 7pm, shadows and light, another day turns into night...

My parents phoned...

But now i am alone in my apartment, finished building some stuff and gloom is back... creeping on to me.... feeling scared and depressed...

Out of whisky too - i find that usually helps after 9 pm ... :S
 
desant

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Huh p1ninja, thanks for input, much appreciate it man

Marshmello. or maybe a snake? :chin:

BTW i dont agree complelty about alcohol.. it has it time andn place .. and last week i was drinking about 75 - 100 ml after 9 and it calmed my nerves...

i remember callling ammbulance in 2005 and the dudes that drive it told me to have a drink and calm down . true story


Im gonna pop into tesco.... get a bottle of something nice
 
desant

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For me it is feeling of dread, i was just in supermarket and my paranoia is getting out of hand, its as if something bad is about to happen... nearly fainted :(

But i got soome stoli, drinking a white russian now :)
 
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Ya bro, I've read all your threads too. Please dont get a dog. You dont sound like you can handle it, no offense. Really I'm more concerned about the dogs interests. (not that I think you are a michael vic or something, you just dont seem to think realistically) Like xxd said, you probably wont be able to hide it for long, and also, its probably not going to give you the kind of gratification you expect. You are fantasizing about some unrealistic scenario where you have a dog that will protect you from the skinheads, and console you when you are sad. While it is nice to imagine, i just dont think it will turn out the way you are picturing it in your mind. Once you get the dog, pretty soon you'll have some other idea about something else that you can get that will instantly fix all your problems.
 
SpasticGramps

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I've just finished fighting 4 years of leukemia and had a bone marrow transplant. I was severely depressed and honestly had some issues before I even got sick. I'm lucky in the sense that growing up I was never allowed to feel sorry for myself. Complaining wasn't something you did because my parents knew life is fucking hard and if you don't actively go out and try to deal with it you end up at the bottom of a bottle at 10pm.

p1ninja is absolutely right in that you are going to constantly manifest shitty shit in you life because you think your life sucks. Bro you are alive. That's a lot more than a lot of the people (kids too) that died on my hospital floor while I was in their for two years. Start by taking walks and getting out of the house. Exercise whenever you can and take care of your body and mind. Make that your daily job. Write down goals and shit. IT WORKS!! If you say "easier said than done" then you are beat already. You have to believe in yourself and know you can. Because you can do it, if you work for it.

Happiness is earned, it isn't going to come knock on the door and give you a hug. If you sit there and wait and HOPE that something happens, that knock on the door is going to be a kick in the balls every time. Nothing in your life is going to change if you keep doing what you are doing. You're alive and you can try to do something about it. Sorry if that's hard to take, but tough love is what I was fed my whole life.
 
Budweiser13

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If you have medical insurance you need to see a doctor and maybe get some counseling. Alcohol is not going to help it will make things worse. I am sorry to say but a marijuana growing site is not the best place to try and get help if you are this messed up with depression. Good luck seek professional help...:2cents:
 
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Alcohol by itself can cause problems; it acts like a euphoric going up, and a depressant coming back down. Alcohol together with pharmacueticals will just take you to the far extremes of feeling and behavior.

Don't get a dog until you have a stable life situation; if you are unhappy and unstable it may just make things worse for you and the dog.
 
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