Trying-to-blend
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I just got dumped not 24 hours ago.
Why?
Because her friends said i wasn't good enough for her. Not attractive enough, not rich enough. This coming from ho's that have kids sicne thy were 17 and who are NOT married, and the one taht is, is married to a janitor(no offense to any janitors out there, i worked as one once).
I'm fucking studying to become a lawyer, I work at a great job, i have clothed and fed her for years, i have supported her in EVERYTHING she's done. Even then, i'm not the possessive "my woman shouldn't work" type. I helped her find a job, and even pointed out that if she wanted, she could contribute to the household, but that she shouldn't worry about the bills, that she could use the money to buy her little things. I was even going to pay for her college.
When she asked me if we would ever get married some months ago i replied "february is jsut around the corner". I never hit her, i never insulted her(although i did yell at her a bit, when we got into an argument, but she understands that it's because of my family upbringing and that i was actively trying to change that, going to therapy and shit).
I really feel like i did everything right, yet her friend's influenced her so much, she said she hates me. Taht's less than 5 horus after the last tiem she said she loved me. I'm still trying to realize what the fuck happenned.
Shit, i've never felt like this before. I'm kinda the keep the distance guy, because i've been hurt many times before, but with her... i told her everything. she's the only one that knows exactly WHY i am the way i am... the only one tha tknows what happened to me when i was a young'in. The only one who knows how heavy my mask is.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
I'm stil ltrying to come to grips with the fact that what i thought was going to be my life is over. Please guys, some words of encouragement. just DON'T call her a btich, a ho, a slut or any other derogatory comment. She's not... I know she's not... I don't hate her for leaving me, i really don't, even if i don't understand the reasoning behind it. I just wish her the best, and i wish she wouldnt' say she hates me, without giving me a reason. I love her, dammit.
Why?
Because her friends said i wasn't good enough for her. Not attractive enough, not rich enough. This coming from ho's that have kids sicne thy were 17 and who are NOT married, and the one taht is, is married to a janitor(no offense to any janitors out there, i worked as one once).
I'm fucking studying to become a lawyer, I work at a great job, i have clothed and fed her for years, i have supported her in EVERYTHING she's done. Even then, i'm not the possessive "my woman shouldn't work" type. I helped her find a job, and even pointed out that if she wanted, she could contribute to the household, but that she shouldn't worry about the bills, that she could use the money to buy her little things. I was even going to pay for her college.
When she asked me if we would ever get married some months ago i replied "february is jsut around the corner". I never hit her, i never insulted her(although i did yell at her a bit, when we got into an argument, but she understands that it's because of my family upbringing and that i was actively trying to change that, going to therapy and shit).
I really feel like i did everything right, yet her friend's influenced her so much, she said she hates me. Taht's less than 5 horus after the last tiem she said she loved me. I'm still trying to realize what the fuck happenned.
Shit, i've never felt like this before. I'm kinda the keep the distance guy, because i've been hurt many times before, but with her... i told her everything. she's the only one that knows exactly WHY i am the way i am... the only one tha tknows what happened to me when i was a young'in. The only one who knows how heavy my mask is.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
I'm stil ltrying to come to grips with the fact that what i thought was going to be my life is over. Please guys, some words of encouragement. just DON'T call her a btich, a ho, a slut or any other derogatory comment. She's not... I know she's not... I don't hate her for leaving me, i really don't, even if i don't understand the reasoning behind it. I just wish her the best, and i wish she wouldnt' say she hates me, without giving me a reason. I love her, dammit.