Hi, I'm Mr Fista, and I'm an alcoholic. I was diagnosed with this particular illness aged 16, while serving my first alcohol related prison sentence.
The next time I got 'disorderlied' I was sent to rehab. also aged 16.
In rehab they talked a whole lot of shit. Sure, I did a lot of good psyche work, but actually addressing addiction - OH PUHLEESE! It was ridiculous.
98% failure rate, GOD is the answer, apparently, I've been on my knees plenty, God aint there, it's a crock. I've since studied lots of science, it is indeed a crock.....
Up till the time I was 30, if I wasn't drunk, I was in rehab or prison.
I tried oh boy I tried anything to stop I was desperate to stop fucking my life up...
I was that confused and bewildered about life, I read of Gurus and Gods, changed diet drinks time of drinks company jobs partners towns... the booze was taking it's toll heavily.
Sound familiar?
So now I smoke cannabis instead. for the first few years if I touched alcohol I'd wind up passed out covered in vomit someplace, or worse, in a cell...
If I ran out of weed the cravings for alcohol returned so I grow my own now.
It took some time and experimentation to find what I need for my condition.
I was a mess psychologically, so that stuff (psyche) helped a lot. Every few years I find my head getting negative (they're out to get me, it's all going to turn to shit) so I go see someone 1/2 dozen hours and I'm thinking straight again.
Sativa dominant strains reduced cravings the most keeping my head occupied with (mostly) positive thoughts. A bit of indica crossed in reduced paranoia from the strain. Getting things to do stoned in the beginning (reading/movies/video games) to keep me occupied. These got boring (after a while doing nothing nags at you, right) and were replaced by more progressive activities study/gardening/exercise.
At this point, when I was itching to do things, I took on part time work, always having a wee pinch of weed before doing a few hours labour.
Today I can work big hours, without weed, if I wish. It is important to have cold drinks you enjoy when you start working/gardening in hot weather. In cold weather get a coffee addiction going, coffee rocks.
The gardening and study led to better food. WATERCRESS is an amazing liver healer. Alcoholics need it. Raw. I grow so much food since I saw how eating organically completely transformed my energy.
Marijuana saved my life, I'm going to talk a whole lot more about my 'spiritual journey' in this thread. Where I eventually dropped all the mumbo jumbo I was taught, grew some weed, and got on with my life.
I'd like to hear other alcoholics who use weed to help them. Perhaps we can help each other.
No bloody group hugs unless you're all hot.
The next time I got 'disorderlied' I was sent to rehab. also aged 16.
In rehab they talked a whole lot of shit. Sure, I did a lot of good psyche work, but actually addressing addiction - OH PUHLEESE! It was ridiculous.
98% failure rate, GOD is the answer, apparently, I've been on my knees plenty, God aint there, it's a crock. I've since studied lots of science, it is indeed a crock.....
Up till the time I was 30, if I wasn't drunk, I was in rehab or prison.
I tried oh boy I tried anything to stop I was desperate to stop fucking my life up...
I was that confused and bewildered about life, I read of Gurus and Gods, changed diet drinks time of drinks company jobs partners towns... the booze was taking it's toll heavily.
Sound familiar?
So now I smoke cannabis instead. for the first few years if I touched alcohol I'd wind up passed out covered in vomit someplace, or worse, in a cell...
If I ran out of weed the cravings for alcohol returned so I grow my own now.
It took some time and experimentation to find what I need for my condition.
I was a mess psychologically, so that stuff (psyche) helped a lot. Every few years I find my head getting negative (they're out to get me, it's all going to turn to shit) so I go see someone 1/2 dozen hours and I'm thinking straight again.
Sativa dominant strains reduced cravings the most keeping my head occupied with (mostly) positive thoughts. A bit of indica crossed in reduced paranoia from the strain. Getting things to do stoned in the beginning (reading/movies/video games) to keep me occupied. These got boring (after a while doing nothing nags at you, right) and were replaced by more progressive activities study/gardening/exercise.
At this point, when I was itching to do things, I took on part time work, always having a wee pinch of weed before doing a few hours labour.
Today I can work big hours, without weed, if I wish. It is important to have cold drinks you enjoy when you start working/gardening in hot weather. In cold weather get a coffee addiction going, coffee rocks.
The gardening and study led to better food. WATERCRESS is an amazing liver healer. Alcoholics need it. Raw. I grow so much food since I saw how eating organically completely transformed my energy.
Marijuana saved my life, I'm going to talk a whole lot more about my 'spiritual journey' in this thread. Where I eventually dropped all the mumbo jumbo I was taught, grew some weed, and got on with my life.
I'd like to hear other alcoholics who use weed to help them. Perhaps we can help each other.
No bloody group hugs unless you're all hot.