Hi everybody.. here's the deal.. I started smoking as quite young (HC style) 14-17 years old.. mostly crappy hash (soapbar?) and when i was 17 i got my firs really bad panic attack or "psychosis" .. after that i continued smoking and after half a year or so it came again (not so bad as the first) and then again half a year or a little less AGAIN, and i said enough.. i'd rather die than go trough that sick experience again.. ok then 18-26 i smoked maybe 1-2 times a year just a couple small hits.
But this summer i had some outdoor growing going on and i have been thinkin alot that i want to smoke again (bud) and i felt that i was maybe ready. Started easy, smoking at home with my girlfriend, had some benzos near if something would have went wrong or so (just that i know that i have them gives me more secured feeling) . And there was this one strain that was just so perfect for me, i could smoke a little spliff at the mornig day evening ... tired happy vivacious.. in any mood any time it just gave me that nice high and no negative thinking or freaking out. The strain was Doubleruder x Lowryder = (Ruderalis indica x Lowryder) x Lowryder. Its a outdoor strain made by my buddy.
Now my question is what would be a good strain for a guy like me? (i know its impossible to just name 1 strain. I think its some kind of hybrid bud sativa & indica mix. I'we been browsing a lot of diffrent strains from diffrent banks and from what i'we read i think one really good strain for me could be White Widow (Sensi seeds)? I would just appreciate if someone else maybe with some mental problems in the past have found a good strain or if someone else have had these kind of problems and found the right thing. Also very kind and nice if you like to suggest or list some strains that maybe would be the right deal.
But this summer i had some outdoor growing going on and i have been thinkin alot that i want to smoke again (bud) and i felt that i was maybe ready. Started easy, smoking at home with my girlfriend, had some benzos near if something would have went wrong or so (just that i know that i have them gives me more secured feeling) . And there was this one strain that was just so perfect for me, i could smoke a little spliff at the mornig day evening ... tired happy vivacious.. in any mood any time it just gave me that nice high and no negative thinking or freaking out. The strain was Doubleruder x Lowryder = (Ruderalis indica x Lowryder) x Lowryder. Its a outdoor strain made by my buddy.
Now my question is what would be a good strain for a guy like me? (i know its impossible to just name 1 strain. I think its some kind of hybrid bud sativa & indica mix. I'we been browsing a lot of diffrent strains from diffrent banks and from what i'we read i think one really good strain for me could be White Widow (Sensi seeds)? I would just appreciate if someone else maybe with some mental problems in the past have found a good strain or if someone else have had these kind of problems and found the right thing. Also very kind and nice if you like to suggest or list some strains that maybe would be the right deal.
