DopinderBhong
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Well, up until a few years ago I used to smoke a hell of a lot of weed. Every day from the minute I woke up, to the minute I went to sleep. This pattern in my smoking emerged after about 10 years of smoking. I've been smoking 20 years plus...
I came to the slow and painful realisation - that as much as I loved smoking - I was smoking at the detriment to other healthy things in my life...like my own inner sense of well being - and not to mention my outwardly appearing health. No two ways about it I needed to heal myself and quick.
Why did I need to heal? Because I was becoming a mess basically - my interactions with people became very negative and this negativity seemed to have a life of its own - creating more negativity and more spiralling.
I began to feel as though I maybe depressed - my sleeping became erratic, life's stresses increased - constantly argued with people around me...felt stressed constantly.
Something had to give....and luckily for me it did!
I sat down and assessed exactly what I thought to be wrong with me and the way I viewed the world. This is what I came up with.
1) I do not exercise
2) I am always stoned
3) I don't eat properly
3) I doubt myself too much (for no real reason) i.e psychological blocks and fears.
4) I am a long way from achieving my potential as a person and that saddened me.
5) I grow - stay at home paranoid - and don't interact that well with people anymore.
6) I am under a lot of relationship pressure, family stresses, work/financial achievement stresses etc.
You may think; "WTF is this bloke banging on about?" But this was more than that - a kinda psychological block - a block that lasted 10 years and filled me with such crap energy that it could have cost me my life on a few occasions! And no I am not blaming the weed! I still smoke weed.
I am blaming the way our lives have become...here in this post-industrial, capitalised modern hell. And I'm blaming the way that we can subconciously receive information about ourselves and begin to believe it - without ever leaving our armchairs or interacting with others.
So I found a way to heal:
It involved exercise - mountain biking 5 miles a day minimum - if not 10.
It involved eating well - cutting out all the fast food, sugary drinks and replacing them with vegetables, salads and water etc.
It involved getting up in the mornings!
It involved getting out with nature again - fishing etc.
It involved changing the pressure I put on myself
It involved getting rid of the immovable obstacles to better health - i.e my wife - although that evolved naturally I suppose!
It involved understanding that I can affect the world around me without ever opening my mouth, just by the energy that I put out into the world.
Well it involved so many things - which all ultimately began to trickle down into positives in other areas - in fact in every other area.
Right now I'm a lot better than I was I'd say...although I had one or two issues that needed sorting out - and recently they were - so now - really is my best chance to heal myself more than I was ever able to.
So my question(s) is/are:
a) has anyone else has had a similar experience and done something about it?
b) do people here feel the need to make a conscious effort to look after their minds and bodies ...and if so, how do you go about it? Yoga, exercising, pilates? How do you keep yourself on top of your shit is the basic premise?
Hope you catch my drift?
I came to the slow and painful realisation - that as much as I loved smoking - I was smoking at the detriment to other healthy things in my life...like my own inner sense of well being - and not to mention my outwardly appearing health. No two ways about it I needed to heal myself and quick.
Why did I need to heal? Because I was becoming a mess basically - my interactions with people became very negative and this negativity seemed to have a life of its own - creating more negativity and more spiralling.
I began to feel as though I maybe depressed - my sleeping became erratic, life's stresses increased - constantly argued with people around me...felt stressed constantly.
Something had to give....and luckily for me it did!
I sat down and assessed exactly what I thought to be wrong with me and the way I viewed the world. This is what I came up with.
1) I do not exercise
2) I am always stoned
3) I don't eat properly
3) I doubt myself too much (for no real reason) i.e psychological blocks and fears.
4) I am a long way from achieving my potential as a person and that saddened me.
5) I grow - stay at home paranoid - and don't interact that well with people anymore.
6) I am under a lot of relationship pressure, family stresses, work/financial achievement stresses etc.
You may think; "WTF is this bloke banging on about?" But this was more than that - a kinda psychological block - a block that lasted 10 years and filled me with such crap energy that it could have cost me my life on a few occasions! And no I am not blaming the weed! I still smoke weed.
I am blaming the way our lives have become...here in this post-industrial, capitalised modern hell. And I'm blaming the way that we can subconciously receive information about ourselves and begin to believe it - without ever leaving our armchairs or interacting with others.
So I found a way to heal:
It involved exercise - mountain biking 5 miles a day minimum - if not 10.
It involved eating well - cutting out all the fast food, sugary drinks and replacing them with vegetables, salads and water etc.
It involved getting up in the mornings!
It involved getting out with nature again - fishing etc.
It involved changing the pressure I put on myself
It involved getting rid of the immovable obstacles to better health - i.e my wife - although that evolved naturally I suppose!
It involved understanding that I can affect the world around me without ever opening my mouth, just by the energy that I put out into the world.
Well it involved so many things - which all ultimately began to trickle down into positives in other areas - in fact in every other area.
Right now I'm a lot better than I was I'd say...although I had one or two issues that needed sorting out - and recently they were - so now - really is my best chance to heal myself more than I was ever able to.
So my question(s) is/are:
a) has anyone else has had a similar experience and done something about it?
b) do people here feel the need to make a conscious effort to look after their minds and bodies ...and if so, how do you go about it? Yoga, exercising, pilates? How do you keep yourself on top of your shit is the basic premise?
Hope you catch my drift?