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imo, have the surgery before going into the mountains...you wouldn't want those panic / tight chest attacks leading to your son having to haul you out or call in rescue team or worse.
forgive mention of the worse, but it sounds like you've addressed that already.
Thanks, trich.
To some extent it's timing. If the surgeon can get me in right away, sometime mid or even early February, that would not give me the required 6 weeks or so to ride a snowmobile into the bush.
Far more likely, with surgeons in demand as they are, especially the top-notch surgeons, that they might not be able to work on me until after mid-March anyway.
Doc said my lungs sounded great, oxygenation levels were pretty good to excellent, and that tends to park the breathing and pulse issues in the camp of panic attacks, or maybe an unknown.
I strongly suspect I need to take care of gall stones before cancer, but the scan on Monday, and my primary care Doc, as well as whom ever she refers me to (whom I SHOULD have been referred to last year, btw) will be the folks to (hopefully) have a discussion and determine what needs to happen when.
Recovery from the cancer surgery will require any systems to be banging on all cylinders, or it will only slow it down.
I just got up to eat some broccoli sprouts, and maybe a half an avocado. Then back to trying to change the energy feeling I have still.
My wife and I discussed our 2 older children, and I emphasized that they were never beaten, never molested, fed, kept warm and healthy, and loved, and they had lots of things, trips, etc., and if they are truly unwilling to even hold a civil discussion on the telephone, then, until they re-evaluate the distortions they are perpetuating on-line and elsewhere, and get right with any role they might have here, then there is nothing (the all inclusive 'nothing; love, house, cars, money, heirlooms, etc., etc., etc.) here for them... Until there is an effort by them to seriously evaluate themselves; something they seem to have wiggled away from, most especially my older daughter.
It was a moment arrived at with less suffering or panic than it had brought before, and there is a greater sense of peace, though I'd still say I'm a number of miles away from anything approaching serenity.
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Cowboy Junkies, Live in Ireland
Covering Neil Young's 'Powder Finger'
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7iJ5WrXthY
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