[JimBeamKush]

I am sitting here at 5:21 in the morning on a monday, drunk. I am only 20 years old and I can not stop drinking now. I knew alcholism runs in my family but I did not think it could happen to me. I want to tell you all please do not drink because it is so easy to wake up dependent on alchol.

I used weed to quit alchol once already and it completely killed the withdrawl symtpoms for me, but I can not smoke because I am on probation and you know how that goes. 3 years in prison is not worth a joint.

What am I going to do??

[DrGreenThumb@OZ]

I like to drink alot .. JD or wild turkey ...but only on weekends but I do smoke everyday.

not good you get drug tested mate ... but try only drinking on a friday or saturday night ..

If you drink everyday you get immune to it and need more and more and get dependent.

[JimBeamKush]

drgreen thumb.... you do not understand. If i do not keep a constant flow of alchol into my body then I have the WORST panic attacks, whole body shakes, cant sleep, sweaty hands and feet, I feel like the worst dread in the world if I try to sober up.
I have been drunk for 4 days straight now.

hey man alcoholism runs in my family and Im also very young but i dont feel the need to drink at all, maybe take some time off, don't go drunk with your buddys and if your drinking by yourself thank maybe try to talk to a family member about it. I've read some studies about psilocybin mushrooms helping people quit alcohol among other things by taking this drug read about it if you can or i can try to find some more info and post in on here man let me know hope you don't choose alcohol as your drug of choice fell better and good luck mate.

[JimBeamKush]

it is not that I want to drink right now, I have no choice. My body will not let me not drink right now.
If alcholism runs in your family then DO not drink man. YOu have no idea how it can happen. It all started when I started noticing my hang overs getting almost unbearable without a drink the next day. And now I slipt up and drank to get rid of the hang over and now if I try to sober up it is unbearable

[sorcival]

pick your timing...smoke a joint...then go cold turkey until your next timed event.
By timed event, I mean when the effects of the smoke will be most minimal in your
system when you get tested., even if they test you positive once, they give you at least one chance.
good luck.

[happyherb]

hey man...was thinking about you today...have you gone and done your urine test yet?...ive got one ive got to go do...wasnt sure if i was going to piss hot so when to the docs and got a test done to see if im clean so i can go do my test.....will find out tomorrow if im good and go do my test day after that....was going to go find your post and see how its going?

hmmmm dont know how to help really?...im sure its different for everyone..i started drinking at age 17 so drank full on for about 14 years..i quit drinking 2005 just after xams and before new years...still think about drinking but wont...its a long road...both parents were piss heads but neither drink now..

man ..when i quit...life was so boring...didnt like being around ppl that i used to hang around with ...got sick of the piss talk...got sick of them....anti drinking now but each to there own....some ppl can handle a drink...some ppl live drinking...some ppls life's are screwed by the drink..

i took up drinking OJ...went through shit loads of it for a couple of years...i recon it helped having something special to have a drink of ..where i bought my OJ from was right in front of a booze shop and like 40 seconds from my home...

maybe i have some words of wizdom to share??? dont know ...but im here to help if you want it????...you have a low post count so hard to pm in private...sure we could work something out if you want?...let me know?...HH. =]-~

[JimBeamKush]

Sorry Rojo that you feel the need to be a ass hole.
All I was doing is trying to talk about my problems with some other people just to help myself through this right now, I will be going to my doctor when it opens in a couple hours, just need some medicine of some kind to kind of help with the anxeity and alchol withdrawls.

I went to my PO for the first time and he was not even there so I got lucky. I for sure would not have passed. I have only one chance to fail and when it is gone it is gone for good.

Sad to see people like Rojo on here usally fellow stoners are pretty helpful people.

EDIT: Thank you happy herb. Same here man, everyone has their own issues and no I was not looking for a internet AA meeting just a way to talk about it. Especially with good people who are usally here on these forums.

[happyherb]

no probs...while your at the docs can you do the same as i did and get a piss test done?...may ease your mind and calm your nerves a bit if you find out your clean(but i guess you know if your not) .HH. =]-~

[steppinRazor]

dude i average a 750ml and up on good days/bad days depends how you wanna put it.
i RARELY miss a day of drinking, today i had 1/2 750 to get the edge off..
i feel ya about the withdrawl and sometimes i thought i was gonna die, comes to find out its that i sometimes forget to eat. anything. in an entire days and nights drinking..
you're young and you say you're on day 4 of drinking so i gotta tell you, i think you're making it out worse than it is.
keep this on the positive side and do something about it while ya got a chance. sooner the better.

i used alcohol heavily to quit my meth addiction - word to the wise Do not trade one addiction for another. not only is it completely unhealthy, you're gonna wind up relapsing on the drug of choice.

gotta agree with rojo - check your ass into a fuckin meeting if you feel you have lost all control. sometimes people gotsta be dicks to get it through thick headed ppl

[JimBeamKush]

ahahah thanks razor.
I am not sure I am making it out worse than I should be. I just have seen my dad go down this road and do not want my life to be consumed by it. I am not on just my 4th day of drinking, I am on my 4th straight day of being 24/7 drunk. I am on my 4th day of having lost all control and the phyiscal symptoms are out of control. I do not even smoke cig's because I just never have had a addictive personality, until now.
I do not need meetings, I just wanna sober up one last time and I will never touch it again. But i tried tonight and I slept for like 2 hours and woke up shaking, sweating, severe panic, just sucks man.
I give you props for stopping meth man even if you just traded alchol for it. I lived in a small country town when growing up and have seen what it can do.
I just finished a 750 ML bottle that I bought at 6 o clock yesterday. (eastern time)

[chuckyoufarley]

ya just gotta suck it up man i know its hard i kicked herion cold turkey after 7 yrs down i been off herion for 16 yrs now .remember a drug is a drug is a drug alcohol included

[Bobby Stainless]

It's threads like this, that make me sick.

Some kid under 21...Alcoholic...and the shit is legal.

[JimBeamKush]

bobby stainless, that is what makes me feel the worst about it.
Because I am not a weak person, it is just too much to handle without help. Alchol is so much worse than weed.
Like the bad part is I do not want to drink. I have no desire too. I am just scared I took it to far this time and do not want this to be a defineing moment in my life.
I really encourage everyone to reconize the dangers of alchol.

[mriko]

Sorry to read about your ordeal jbk, booze is crap indeed. Since how many years have you been drinking ? As steppinrazor said, you're still young so that's a good point, the devil doesn't have decades of influence on your organism, and it's good point that you realize what you life is now than when you're 30. Considering the withdrawal symptoms you're experiencing, you definitely need some doctor help. A friend of mine was an heavy drinker and it took some rehab with special treatment (injections of some stuff) to get him off. And after that he met none of his buddies for several years. Only nowadays he reappears here & there. It's a long struggle you're about to start, and you'll sure find lot of support here (some downers too alas...). Maybe you should start a thread in the "well wishes" forum and keep us informed about how things go. I myself had started a thread about my problems and people are truly cool & helpfull, you'll sure receive loads of good vibes and it does help !

But you're definitely needing some medical treatment (considering the fact that you can't smoke). Maybe start a new life too, in a new environment. Do you have any mean to move away and settle in new place where medicinal MJ is allowed ?

do not want this to be a defineing moment in my life

NO, make it a defining moment, that moment when you know once & for all that booze is poison for you and that you must kick it if you want to live.

Take care & hang on !

Irie !